LOGIN“So…” I continued after I slipped the cup back in place, splashes of water dotted my gown. Dishes were never my thing. “Lily seems better than when I first met her.”
Ethan quieted. He stuck a few more plates into the rack, wiped the counter with a rag– then turned to me. His expression calm, relaxed.
“She has always been quiet, she's just more… fun now.”
Fun.
“And chatty.” He added. “That's not how I trained her to be.”
“I can see.” I could not see, Lily was a child, like any other child, she should have been noisy. Surprising how she acted less like a six year old and more like someone my age.
“Dinner.” He mentioned, his fingers pointed at the basket of the remaining fresh vegetables he had. “We should be able to make something from that, next we'll need portion control.”
“A soup or a sauce?” I thought to join in. Not that I was the best cook.
“A sauce.” He decided. “Lily is allergic to tomato soups.”
“That makes perfect sense. I'll wash and prepare the tomatoes and then I'll get to the minced meat.”
My feet moved before I could stop talking, Ethan stopped me, his hand we tapped gently around my wrist as he pulled me back gently.
“I'll handle it.”
His touch. His warmth. The way his eyes flickered soft. Helpful.
“Oh.” My voice softened. “But I don't mind helping, I'm great with washing things and making sauces.”
“I'll take care of it.” He insisted. His voice had a tone of finality in it.
I nodded slowly, no more arguments, his grip loosened slowly, I took my arm back, my breath leveled.
“Is there anything I can do to help?”
“No.”
“Oh.” I coughed. Just once but enough to sound awkward, the silence afterwards did not help, Ethan moved away, I stood there watching. Like an inspector.
Or maybe an out of place lover who had no place in this man's home and no idea how to get closer to him.
The past few days had been great, Ethan warmed up to me nicely.
He smiled a little more often, he took jokes, gave them back too, like that time I joked about Prince Charming being oddly attractive and how he would be cute for a Prince Charming role.
He asked me to show me who he was rescuing. Lily pointed to me, he laughed.
I giggled too, not because I thought it was funny.
No way. I forced a laugh through my throat so I wouldn't feel like I did now. Awkward and out of place.
“Mia…” Lily’s voice pierced through the eerie since in the living room. She had just woken from her nap. She came into the kitchen wiggling her hand over her eyes sockets, her hair wrinkly, saliva leaked from the side of her lips.
“Lily.” I gasped when she dropped her hands at her side. Her eyes were swollen, red, leaking at inner corners.
I lowered to her height quickly, my hands touched her shoulders, I pulled her into me. “What happened?”
She hesitated, tasting her words.
“Did something happen in your room?” I insisted, wide eyed and curious.
“I— I… I don't know when….” She started, her words cut in-between. “Daddy said I shouldn't—”
“Lily!” Her father yelled. Her body shook, flinched in fear. Lily turned in his direction, her eyes watered, her shoulder stiff.
“What are you doing?” Ethan approached, his voice hoarse.
Lily parted her lips to explain but before she could say a word, he asked her to come to him. Hesitantly, she obeyed. She walked to him.
His arms widened, enough to fit. He lifted her in his arms and then held her up to the counter.
“Did something happen to her?” I neared them, heart thumping hard in my chest. “Was it a bad dream?”
“It's none of your business.” He answered without looking, I could tell by the look on his face and his focus on washing his daughter's face in the sink.
I caught the bump on the back of her head. My eyes widened, that could be it.
“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to pry but I think she has—”
“Can't you see we don't want you to hear?!” he raged, his voice echoed through the room, rumbling the house structure.
A shrill of fear ran down my spine. That was all the cue I needed. I staggered back, my throat parched quickly.
“I'm sorry…” I trailed slowly, back to the door and then room. I closed the door quickly, the air was heavy and tight inside, my frame still shook from fear.
I hadn't seen his eyes but the rage in his voice. The first time I witnessed Ethan like that, my stomach folded into a knot.
“I shouldn't have insisted.” I swallowed hard. “I am a guest here and I should be acting like it.”
Whatever was happening between the man and his daughter, I shouldn't have gotten involved in the first place.
I lowered to the bed, luckily, the bedside drawer had a pen and a paper like the universe knew journaling was what I needed to calm myself.
I picked the book quickly, scrambling everything I needed to until my breathing was not as shallow as it was when I entered the room. I lowered the book hours after, when my fingers started to ache.
The room was quiet still, but the air was free. I felt the stress fading out of me as I sat in the middle of the room, watching and waiting.
The house was quiet too except the noise from the living room. When I listened, I caught Ethan’s voice.
He was… singing again.
I sat quietly listening but this time, my heart did not flutter. How could they when the man just shouted at me?
An hour slipped by with a few blinks. I heard his footsteps fade, a door closed earlier. I decide I needed water.
I picked myself from the bed, slid into my slippers and walked to the door when I heard a whisper I wasn't sure of.
A voice near my door called my name.
“Is someone there?"
He sighed.
“Mia,please come outside. I need to talk to you.”
Dinner passed quieter than I expected.Not awkward...just… careful. Like we were all learning how to exist in the same space without stepping on invisible lines.Lily sat cross-legged on her chair, swinging her feet as she ate, humming softly between bites. She didn’t complain once, which I took as a victory. Every now and then, she’d glance at me with a small smile, like we were sharing a secret only the two of us understood.I liked that.I liked her.Ethan sat across from us, eating slowly, methodically. He didn’t say much, but he didn’t look uncomfortable either. His shoulders were relaxed, his jaw unclenched. That alone felt like progress.I watched him when I thought he wasn’t looking.The way he cut his food precisely. The way he paused whenever Lily coughed, his eyes flicking to her instinctively. The way he drank water like he was reminding himself to breathe.This was the same man who had laughed softly beside me during movie night. The same man whose knee had brushed mine i
“I didn't mean what I said the other day.”I leaned forward, perched on my doorframe.“Come again?”He found my eyes, his expression grim like someone had die. “I'm sorry if I came up as rude. I'm just not use to… to people having my daughter’s attention. I apologize.”His apology was brief. Better than nothing actually.I studied him for a while, my mouth wounded in-between two teeth. Ethan looked away, his lips parted like the rest of the words lingered somewhere inside.“I'm not trying to take your daughter away.” I started. “I think Lily is a lovely girl and she's a great child, I would never do anything to take her away from you. You have to know that, please.”“I apologize.” He insisted and when I nodded, a sign of acceptance, he walked away without any more words.I slept that night better than I did the hours before. I settled into bed with my pajamas feeling cozy and calm in this stranger’s bed.It was a nice feeling, being apologized to, especially from a man as rigid as Et
“Daddy….”Lily's voice brought me back to reality. I glanced back at her. “Lily…”Her expression was warm, her eyes soft. She looked at me intensely. “Why did you do that?”“Do what?”“Be mean to Mia.”Sometimes I wondered where she picked these words. Clearly not me. I could feel my forehead wrinkling.“This is grown up stuff, Lily. You shouldn't be meddling in grown up business.”Lily did not care. She shook her head gently. “You always said to treat people kindly, Daddy and now look what you did to her.”Her words stabbed my chest. Lily was right. I pride myself with teaching my daughter good manners and here I was acting this way.I lowered my head in shame but Lily couldn't see that part. She got busy with the towel and the juice box, sipping with her pills in her hand.“Are the dreams getting better?”“No.” “But the doctor said it should have cleared up within three weeks.”She shrugged, her shoulders lowered slowly. “Maybe I need more than that.”Obviously. I turned to the oth
“So…” I continued after I slipped the cup back in place, splashes of water dotted my gown. Dishes were never my thing. “Lily seems better than when I first met her.”Ethan quieted. He stuck a few more plates into the rack, wiped the counter with a rag– then turned to me. His expression calm, relaxed.“She has always been quiet, she's just more… fun now.”Fun.“And chatty.” He added. “That's not how I trained her to be.”“I can see.” I could not see, Lily was a child, like any other child, she should have been noisy. Surprising how she acted less like a six year old and more like someone my age.“Dinner.” He mentioned, his fingers pointed at the basket of the remaining fresh vegetables he had. “We should be able to make something from that, next we'll need portion control.”“A soup or a sauce?” I thought to join in. Not that I was the best cook. “A sauce.” He decided. “Lily is allergic to tomato soups.”“That makes perfect sense. I'll wash and prepare the tomatoes and then I'll get to
Days passed. Days that felt longer than when I sat at the office desk sending countless long reports to Sophie, seconds slower than three and more breaths.I struggled through time back then but now, it was much harder.With each passing day that went by, I grew even more attached to the child than I had ever done with someone in my life. Even my own parents.Lily liked me too, she told me her secrets, her dreams, her little fantasies of visiting a real life Disney museum when she was older and the time when she wished she was a fish so badly.I laughed harder than a jackass. The child was funnier when she didn't even know it.“I wanted to be a princess too.” I told her at some point.“Really?” Her eyes turned brighter than a torchlight. “You wanted to be a Barbie princess who is also a mermaid.”“Uhmm.. not exactly.” Her eyelid lowered like she was disappointed we did not share the same dream. “What kind of princess did you want to be?”It was hard to tell her the kind I wanted. Not
I woke with Ethan’s breath still on my skin.That made no sense because he hadn’t touched me. At least not really. But my body did not care about logic.I lay there staring at the ceiling, heart racing, replaying the moment by the fire over and over again. The brush of his hand against mine. The way his fingers had stiffened like he’d been burned. The fear that had flashed across his face before he pulled away.Fear, not disgust.That mattered more than it should have.I rolled onto my side and buried my face in the pillow. It smelled faintly of detergent and pine. You came here to heal, I reminded myself as if I needed to hear it now. You came here to breathe.You did not come here to fall for a man who flinched every time you and his daughter play together or when he mistakenly touched you. No, Mia, you didn't. I sighed deeply. Then I stood up and dressed quietly before I stepped out into the hallway.The cabin was still. The storm had softened overnight but the snow remained pile







