I looked up to see dark blue eyes staring at me, a head full of black hair tilted, and full lips smirking at me. “Are you lost, love?”
He was… beautiful. With long lashes that seemed to kiss his high cheekbones whenever he blinked. And there was something unnatural about his eyes, but it only added to his charm—his boyish charm that somehow managed to scream danger. And like Mr. Varkas, there was an air of power and mystery around him. “No,” I managed, my voice sounding croaky. “Actually, I am. I need help finding the butler.” A perfectly trimmed eyebrow raised in question. “Gabriel? What do you need him for?” I fought the urge to groan and shake him. Even though he looked impossibly perfect, that still wasn't enough to douse my anger. I still needed water and I needed to be alone. “Can we skip the questions? I just need Gabriel because I need him to show me to my room.” He watched me, his eyes fixed on me. “Ah,” he suddenly exclaimed as if something just occurred to him. “Rosette. Vera’s daughter and the new addition to the family. Nice to finally meet you, baby sis.” “Excuse me?” I asked, my anger plain in my voice. “Who the hell are you to be calling me your sister?” He straightened, squaring his shoulders and at that moment I realized how tall he was. I wasn't a short person by any means, but right now I felt small. “Axel Varkas,” he introduced, bowing slightly. I stared at him, a frown between my brows. “Varkas…” I looked him over. From his blue eyes to his soft looks. The only thing he had in common with that man earlier was the aura. “I'm Silas’s youngest son,” he clarified upon seeing the question on my face. I simply nodded. “Can you point me to where I can find Gabriel?” Axel crossed his arms, leaning his hip on the wall. “Not even a ‘nice to meet you, big bro?’” “You’re not. My. Brother,” I snarled, and was just about to walk past him when he grabbed my hand, faster than I could even blink, pinning me to the wall and pressing his body against me. “You’re being rude,” he muttered, leaning down and pressing his nose to my neck. He inhaled deeply and then he shivered, groaning deep in his throat. “God, your scent…” I struggled against him, disgusted and—despite myself—turned on. His body was hard. Hot. Hotter than what should’ve been humanly possible. And, unmistakably, a very specific part of him was getting hard. “Let go, Axel,” I grumbled, struggling to break free despite the wetness I could feel between my legs. He pulled away from my neck and looked at me. I gasped, my eyes going wide and lips parting when I saw his eyes. There was… glowing. Not bright, but glowing faintly—just enough to be undeniably human. “Say that again.” “Let… go,” I managed, my voice small. He shook his head, and his hair covered his eyes. Before I could even think, my hand was reaching out to push his hair away, once again exposing his eyes. “Not that, Rosette,” he said, his voice rough. “My name… say it.” The words slipped out of my mouth on their own accord. “Axel…” He groaned, digging his nose in my neck again and inhaling deeply. The more he inhaled, the harder he got until his fully erect dick was pressed on my stomach. “Rosette,” he rasped, grinding against me. “Your scent is driving me insane.” One of his hands slipped into my pants and that was what snapped me back to my senses. I placed my hand on his chest and pushed. Caught by surprise, he staggered back, his eyes clouded and still glowing—even more than before. “Y-you dog,” I spat, my chest heaving, face burning. The absolute bastard had the nerve to smile. “Close, but I'm way worse.” I turned away from him, dizzy and breathless, and just walked away from him. I didn't know where I was going, but I just wanted to be far from him. What the fuck was that? I had never lost control of myself before? I have always been in control of my emotions. The only person who has ever managed to make me snap was my mom. But even that was a rare occurrence. Just as I headed towards the stairs, someone else came into view and I paused. He was standing at the start of the stairs, dressed in a three-piece luxury suit, and his hair styled to perfection. I didn't need an expert to tell me this was another Varkas. Everything about him screamed it, but it was also in his blue eyes. Those eyes that had an unnatural look. And those eyes were fixed on something behind me. I looked behind me to see Axel in a staring contest with his brother. The look from earlier was gone and his face was now filled with cockiness. I looked away from him when I felt eyes on me and looked back at the stairs. The newcomer’s eyes were now fixed on me. I fought not to fidget under that stare. Unlike his brother, this man had no trace of boyish charm. Everything about him said he was the type to smash me beneath his polished designer shoes without blinking. “Miss Jansen,” he called, the first person to address me by my surname in this household. “I'm Kross Varkas. And since Gabriel is occupied, I’ll show you to your room.” He turned and climbed up the stairs, not looking back to check if I was following. I looked behind me, but Axel was no longer standing there. I followed Kross up the stairs and into a long hallway, walking behind him, and not once did he look back. Didn't even slow his stride. Just walked straight ahead and finally he stopped when he reached the end, opening the door. I finally caught up to him and stepped inside the room where he still held the door open. “This will be your room for now,” he informed me, his voice cool like he was discussing business. I turned to him, an eyebrow raised. “For now?” He nodded and said nothing to explain what he meant. “I’ll leave you to it, then.” He moved to shut the door but then paused, looking back at me. “Always keep your door locked.” The door clicked softly as he closed it, and I stood still for a long time, staring at where he stood. “Creeps,” I muttered, finally moving and heading to the bathroom. Barely a day here, and I could tell these people weren't normal. I already wanted out.Kade kissed like he was punishing me. His tongue thrust into my mouth as soon as my lips parted when I gasped in surprise, and his tongue was just as cruel as his lips as it curled around mine and sucked so hard that I moaned into his mouth. I grabbed his collar, but instead of pushing him off and putting an end to this, I dragged him close to me, deepening the kiss. He grunted in approval, dragging me off my seat and pressing my body flushed against his as he leaned against my desk, palming my ass. There was nothing soft in what we were doing, nothing gentle or affectionate. It was simply pure anger and hunger, pure need and guilt. The kiss was our way of communicating because we were both too cowardly to use our words. We were both too… scared. Words were like weapons, and they could ruin things, but when we were like this, our lips glued together, and our emotions going haywire, there were no words that could be used against us la
“He’s appearing in my dreams often these days,” I muttered, any sign of a joke gone, and that stupid, fucking weight was back on my chest again. I didn't need to tell her who, because she knew everything, from A to Z. “Did any major change happen lately?” she asked, her voice sharp and professional. “Or even a minor change is acceptable.”I raised my right hand and showed her my ring finger. Her eyes widened when she saw my ring, but I just waved that look away. “We got married for business. Our fathers arranged this marriage. None of us had a choice.” I paused, swallowing. “But…”My words trailed off, hanging in the air, heavy and suffocating. “But?” Lucia pressed, an eyebrow raised. I swallowed again, scratching my fingers. Why the fuck was it so hard to voice out? “Take your time, Belladonna,” Lucia said, her voice soft and reassuring and I nodded, drawing in a deep breath before I continued. “But things have cha
“And what does that mean, Belladonna?” Gianna asked, her voice soft, her gaze even softer. “‘For as long as it takes?’ That could mean all your life. Are you really willing to forsake your happiness and drown in guilt?” I slump down in my seat, burying my face in my hands. A weight sits on my chest, making it difficult to breathe. “I don't have a choice,” I whispered, my voice creaking at the edge. “And why do you think that?”“Because I'm the reason someone’s no longer alive,” I answered, the weight growing heavier as I spoke. “I had the misfortune of living, so I have to carry this weight. Since I've been cursed to carry on, then I have to carry this weight with me.”“Do you think Luca would want you to be this miserable?”My head whipped up and I looked at her with my teeth bared and eyes wide. I didn't know what I looked like right now, but I know I looked possessed. “Then why the fuck does he keep appearing in my dreams?!
I immediately covered my ears as soon as I heard that voice because I immediately knew; this was a nightmare. “Why won't you leave me alone?!” I screamed, my body shaking. It was a dream, and yet the fear I was feeling was too intense and realistic. “I get it. I'm the reason you’re dead, but this is also your fault. You didn't agree to let me go either. You chose to stay with me until the end. So why is this my fault? Why, Luca?” “You don't deserve to be happy,” the voice repeated, even colder now.“Don't you think I've suffered enough, Luca?” I whispered, now shaking as the cold seeped into my bones. “It’s been years, and I'm still suffering. Don't you think it's enough? You’ve been torturing me in my nightmare for so long, and I've never complained, but right now, I'm begging you, Luca. Let me have this. Please.”“You don't. Deserve. To be. Happy.” “Fuck you!” I screamed, tears streaming down my face. Was this really a drea
BELLADONNA I was drained. The last time I cried like that and let all my emotions out was that dreadful night. Since then, I had bottled up all my feelings and kept them in a tight lid, making sure nothing escaped. But tonight… Fuck, tonight was a lot. I had a bad feeling as soon as Papa invited me to dinner. I should have listened to my gut and turned him down. But I was stupid and too soft and so I paid for it. But what I didn't expect was to find comfort in Kade’s arms. I didn't expect his softness, how he had handled me like I was made of glass. At that moment, he was all I felt, all I could smell, and it almost felt like it was just us two in this vast world, and the dark alleyway didn't even help matters. His soft words, his ragged breath, his raspy voice, his gentle touches and pats, they were a little overwhelming but I don't think I would have gotten through this night without him.
Kross was silent. A minute passed. Then two. I sighed, rubbing my face. “Don't judge me, man.”“Who says I'm judging?”“That silence can only be described as you judging.”“I wasn't judging. I was just shocked. What happened to coming back after five years?”“Hey, who says I'm not coming back?”I could almost see him raising his eyebrow as he said, “You think you could divorce her and leave if your feelings for her grow deep?”“Who says my feelings are going to grow deep?”“Cut that bullshit, Kade. We both know it would.”I sighed again, resting my back against a wall and slumping down until I was sitting on the ground, my knees drawn up and my head hung low, my phone on my shoulder. “You’re not helping, man.”“This is a matter regarding your heart. How am I supposed to help?”“I don't know, man! Talk me out of it or something!” He fell silent, and I knew he was pressing his