The negotiation

*Allessandro*

I didn't expect Alana to leave me for good. Kahit hindi siya ganoon katagal na nanatili sa bahay ko ay parang nasanay akong nakikita siya, nasanay akong marinig ang boses niya. Hindi ko alam na sobra na akong na-attached sa kaniya. Hindi naman kasi talaga ako ganitong uri ng tao. Hindi ko rin maintindihan ang sarili ko. I just loved being around her. I'm longing for her. I'm afraid that I will get used to it. I'm afraid that I would love this pain. Alana is my wife, but she's not mine yet. She was untamed and I don't know how to tame her. She was different, something that caught my attention.

Why do I have to think about her over and over again?

Ni'y halos wala akong nagawa sa buong maghapon ko dito sa loob ng opisina. Nakatambak pa rin ang mga trabaho ko. I had a meeting today with Blue Knuckles, but I cancelled it. Nagiging irresponsible na ako dahil sa nangyayari sa puso ko. I have to get rid of these feelings.

Next week I have to file an annulment. I don't want to po