CHAPTER 4

Michael's pov

"Shut up."

I said furiously to Jake as he continued to laugh at me from the passenger sit.

"Dude you scared her so much she practically sprinted away."

He said still laughing.

"I didn't mean to. You know how I feel about her and I didn't like that she was so close to you. I know I sound stupid but ya. Am madly in love with this girl. And it's driving me crazy."

He looked at me for a few seconds.

"You could try talking to her for once."

I scoffed at that.

A few minutes later we arrived at the pack house.

It was huge with massive floors.

The first four floors were inhabited by ordinary pack members who worked overtime and did not have time to constantly move from their homes to here for pack business.

They're each given self contained rooms where they can live with their mates.

Their children are also given their own rooms for privacy.

The two upper floors above them belong to the beta and their family along with the former alpha and his luna

The seventh floor belongs to me.

It's a luxurious suit with a bedroom, bathroom, kitchen and a living room with some extra rooms to spare.

I made my way to the elevator with Jake and bid him farewell on his floor before heading to mine where I went and laid down in bed.

I thought about today's events.

'I wish I had participated and been her partner instead.'

I thought to myself.

That way I could get to know her better.

But regardless it's the most I've ever looked at her. I kept sweeping my eyes around the room, pretending to monitor the rest so that nobody found me suspicious. But my eyes kept going back to her.

And that uniform did her justice. It brought her every curve she tries to hide very beautifully. I wanted to trace my fingers all over them. I wonder how it would feel like to to have her under me as I trailed kisses inside those pretty inner thighs. What kind of sounds she'd make for me. How good she'd feel if I penetrated inside her......

"Fuck."

I cursed as I realized I let my imagination get the best of me and know I had a boner.

I dragged my body to the bathroom and stripped naked as I turned on a cold shower. The icey water hit my skin and sent a shiver down my spine but it felt relaxing. Despite that my erection was still as hard as before.

With a sigh I held it with my hand and started to stroke to thoughts of me and Alexis.

I increased my strokes while moaning out her name.

With the final force I cummed and my seeds spilled down and were washed away by the running water.

I finished up and went to bed with sweat pants and T-shirt. It's not the first time I jerked off to her but each time I do it I always feel bad.

Maybe it's because am not far away from turning eighteen and finding my actual mate.

What would she look like?

Would I love, her or only be attracted to her because of the mate bond?

Will I stop loving Alexis once I found her?

I felt a tight ache in my chest at the thought of that. I want her to be mine and I want to be hers.

"Moon goddess if you make her my mate I promise I'll love and cherish her with everything I've got."

I say said some sort of prayer.