The glass suddenly falls shattering. That sound made me get out of my deep thoughts. Hah, this is a mess.
“Sorry… I didn’t mean to…”
Shaking my head, I saw my hands near the glass. For some reason, I know it was me who did that but can’t admit it to myself. Am I scared? Of my own image? Or am I… scared of the fact that I know nothing at all?
Ever since I was a little, I can’t deny the fact that I am so self-centered. That… I am so good at not looking through things so much. But… I don’t know why. Just seeing my own reflections makes me be reminded of that. They all look so real. As if… it isn’t just my imagination.
This is weird, why am I being weird…
“Kianna? Hey, I’ve been calling your name for a while. Are you okay? Are you hurt?”
Looking at Drake whose face is full of worries, for some reason I feel my eyes getting warm. His facial expression changed. Is he alright?
And all I can remember is him hugging me while I was sobbing till I slept.
‘I am not sure when will she be okay. But just to remind you, there is nothing wrong with your wife. It is just that, some things trigger her trauma. All you have to do is make her feel loved. Make her feel that she is not alone. She has gone through lots of things just by learning about her condition. And you are the only one that can do that. I prescribed some medicine that would help her calm her mind and let her have a good sleep. If you would excuse me’
‘Thank you, Gion, I mean doc’
‘You don’t look that good too. You should take some good rest too Drake. Call me if anything else happens. Even if I am busy, I will surely make time’
‘You are really a great help’
‘Just paying back what I owe you. And also, isn’t this what friends are supposed to do?’
‘Yeah, thanks again’
I could hear how someone was talking. But I can’t clearly hear it at all. My mind is so blurry. As if… I want to wake up yet I can’t open my eyes.
‘Love, I hope you feel better soon’
I heard Drake mumble. It is clearer than last time. It is a bit loud too. Enough for me to hear it. maybe that is because he was just beside me?
‘Just… what should I do just to make you be okay? If only I can shoulder all your problems then you won’t be hurt like this…’
What is he talking about? It is not as if he did something bad. There are things out of control and we can’t change it no matter what-
Change…
‘I thought this time would be better but, why are you still in pain? What caused you to have such worries? Is it that damn Marco? Or is it that shitty Francis?’
Wait, really, what is he talking about? Why did Marco and Francis become part of this?
What is… exactly happening?
But among those worries, what Drake said scares the hell out of me.‘If they are the one that makes you this worried… will you be fine as long as they are gone?’
It was a side of Drake that I never knew. Am I scared of the fact that he is like that? or am I scared because it seems like I am the one who made him be like that?
Before I can even open my eyes… that voice I keep hearing at night echoed in my ears.
‘Kianna’
‘Kianna’Calling my name as if they are summoning me. Calling me again and again, making me have no choice but to do what they want.
Wosh
My eyes opened, it was so real that I felt like I really did wake up. And again… I am here in the place I am so scared of.
‘This is just a dream’
‘This is just a dream’‘This is just a dream’I keep on chanting but just like all those nights, I can control my body yet I can’t control where I am. I want to get out of here, I want to leave. But… just like those nights, they are hindering me from doing so!‘This is not a dream, Kianna’
A word escapes from the one behind me. I dare not look. It is so weird to see myself talking to myself. It feels like I am getting insane. Or maybe I am… this is bad. Am I turning crazy?
Drake…. Help me… please…
‘You always rely on him. You always do’
Someone talked from afar. And… just like the one behind me, they look alike so much.
‘Do you think things will be solved if you keep on hiding? Do you think things will go the way you want it to be?’
What are they talking about?
‘Kianna, don’t act dumb. I know you are aware of it, we know it’
One, two, three, four, just how many other Kianna are there?
Falling on my knees, I think I would go insane if I stayed any longer.
‘You have to do something, Kianna. That is if you don’t want to end up like me…’
Why? What happened to you?
Looking at the one that was behind me just a while ago, she was kneeling facing me. Cupping my cheeks she smiles bitterly.
‘Weird things happen, things you can’t explain. But Kianna… you have to do something. Remember… remember it’
And a blinding light then falls upon my sight. Making me wonder what were those things.
Cupping my cheeks… that felt so real.
But there is something I will never forget. Her eyes… why does it look as if she was in despair? What happened to her? And what are the things she told me?
Remember? Remember what?
Do something? What should I do?
Standing up, no matter how much I tried to sleep back and meet them again, I kept on failing. How funny. It was I who didn’t want to see them yet here I am wanting to meet them again.
“What is wrong with me?”
Drake? Where is Drake?
Looking around, the house feels so empty. He is not in the kitchen or bathroom. Maybe he went somewhere? But what he said that time… he doesn’t mean it… right?For some reason, I had the urge to open my laptop. It is not that I want to hear some news of something… but the last tab opened, it was about the recent news… and the moment I read the latest reports… my blood turned cold.
“Dad… he is… dead?”
No matter how much I hate my father because of what he did, I will not deny the fact that I still love him after all of that. I did wish for him to just vanish before… after getting that much hatred but… those are the times that I do not mean what I was saying. I did wish for it but I don’t really mean it… To think that the day would come when he would really be… dead… “Hello? Shaun? Shaun?? Do you hear me?” Calling Shaun, among anyone else, he was one of those who knew what was really happening. Like, he would surely have intel if my father was just faking his death just like me, right? Because if it was him, he should know… [Kianna? Why did you call? Make it quick] He sounds so annoyed but I understand. He is busy too, I know that. But I just really need to know what the truth is… I need to know… “Is it fake news? I mean, I heard that my father is dead, it can be a case just like me. Right? He is faking it, right?” Silence, that is what I heard on the other line. My hand tha
“Mom” I am looking at the back of my mother as she is staring out the window. Drake postponed his work just so he could be with me when I visited my mom. I told him I would be fine but after what happened that time, he dared not leave me alone. He insists on going with me which I also want to happen. I am not sure if it was for me or for him but… staying by each other’s side… I am sure it would be better for the two of us. “Kianna” Looking at me, I saw how my mom smiled so sweetly. As if she was forcing herself to do so. Now that I remember, she does smile like this even before. How foolish of me to not notice. Drake let go of my hand letting me come rushing towards her. “Mom…” I mumbled as I hugged her so tight. But all she did was pat the back of me to let me calm down. “Shhh” How painful it is for her? To get betrayed by her husband like that. to have her daughter fake her death just because the bastard of his husband attempts to kill her only child? I wonder… I wond
[Hera, I heard you are back in the country. How are you doing?] “Patrish, did you really call me just to say that?” [Um, yep? It’s been so long since I last saw you. I want us to have a reunion again… if it is alright] Holding her phone, Hera was pouring coffee into her cup. Wearing a white long sleeve, she tops it with a black cardigan with knee length. “I have to pass for now. Still have something I have to do” Taking a sip, she heard the fuming sound on the other line. Indeed, Patrish wants to see her so badly. [But Hera… I will be at my uncle’s funeral. Are you sure you are not coming?] The sound of the taxi honking was then heard. Enough for the two of them to hear it. [Seems like you got to go] “Yeah” [Tch, just as I thought. You would use that excuse. But Hera… I really wish to meet you soon.] Slightly laughing at what she heard, Hera then picked up her things. “Making a wish? Are you a kid? But bye, gotta go” As soon as the door closes, she drops the call. Headin
“Hi, do I know you?” I am thankful I didn’t stutter. Luckily, I was able to get a hold of myself. But… I didn’t know I would see Hera here so soon. Is she with Patrish and the others? For sure most of them would be here since they are related to my father. Specially Patrish and Scott. But… How should I face them? I planned to be here just to see what bullshit it is but… yeah I did expect to see some familiar faces… But never once did I think that they would talk to me. They don’t even know me. And… I mean… “I don’t think so… but, I don’t know where I have seen your face and…” “And…?” What is she trying to say? And where is Jena? She is just right here… “Nothing, I just thought you do look familiar but… well, never mind that” Holding a bouquet of white flowers, how funny. I am the daughter yet I didn’t even bring anything at all… But am I that bad to not feel like doing so? I smile back to Hera and nod my head. “Sorry but I have to go, it is nice meeting you” With my voice,
“I was also shocked when I saw him… but ever since that incident he never wakes up” Shaun stated. Standing as he had his way to see his father. I can clearly see how big his eye bags are. I bet he also had a hard time… after all… I know that it is just the two of them after he lost his mother. “What did the doctor tell you? Is there really no way to help him?” Hearing how there was a brief silence, Drake was there to hold my hand. Thankfully he was there… it is always him supporting me… “They did what they could, but even the most advanced technology we had couldn’t do any help at all. He needs time to get well. And if there is a miracle… he can wake up” “A miracle?” So that is how bad Mr. Sebas’s situation is?? But… I heard it was an accident, how can it be this severe? “And there was something he said before he finally lost consciousness and fell into a coma” Looking at us, Shaun was never this mad. I saw him like this… “He is dangerous” What does he mean he? Who is he pert
“Yes, yes, I understand that… really, Seki. I know what I am doing” Looking at me with that bored look on her face, I know how much she doesn’t have a single trust in the words I have said. Although, what I said was true! I know that it was reckless of me to go there… but I need to do that. Or else… Or else I would regret not doing so… “I don’t really understand why you are so thick-headed after all of what happened. But Kianna… I am just worried” Pinching my cheeks, she is like a big sister to me. “Sorry to make you worry” “As if you wouldn’t do it again” I just offer her a smile. Drake is now talking with someone on the phone. I bet it was his employer. Will it really be right that he won’t do that project? But if it is impossible as of now, there is really no reason to keep pursuing it. It takes time… “Seems like you have to go now” She mumbled pointing to Drake. “I need to talk with Mr. Sebas first” There was a frown on her face. Indeed, it isn’t the right term to be use
As soon as we arrived back in the house, I quickly gathered the files I had with me. I also bring my laptop and some other things. Looking at Drake, he is now holding the keys to our car. Smiling at me with that reassuring gaze, I nodded my head. I shouldn’t panic. I can do this. I must… “Let’s go” We are on our way to an apartment named after someone else. Serena’s friend. But in reality, I am the owner of that unit. Drake and I. Just think of it as a disguise. For me to have the chance to meet Serena. Since we all do not know what may happen if anyone finds out that I am still alive. Since I already made up a name as Bea, should I ask Jena to sell me an identity? That would be much easier. It would be easier to move that way. “Kianna, don’t read while we are moving. Or else your eyes would be hurt” “Drake, I need to know the situation right away. Every second counts. Sorry… just… just this time” Putting his hand on my wrist, it made me look at him. he may be staring straight a
“Stay, that is all I need you to do” “Are you fucking out of your mind? You don’t see me as some kind of dog that would stay just because you wanted to, do you?” Full of anger, even though it was just the two of them inside that room, Hera can’t help but feel like something is not right. If before, she would feel comfortable with him, now, it wasn’t the case at all. As if, something inside her was telling her that he was just a piece of bad news. “I don’t even know why I came here after all of that, what a waste of time” About to leave, she was surprised when Marco stopped her with his blunt words. “But you know how much you love to be a dog with me” Eyes widening in anger, she stomps her feet as she slams her hands on his table. Glaring at him as if she would kill him, he is not frightened at all. “I dare you to say that again and I will not fucking tolerate any of your bullshits” “But I am telling the truth, am I not?” Scowling at him, instead of feeling frightened, Marco se