This Time I Will Love You

Waking up in yet another nightmare, I find myself catching my breath. Holding my chest, I stare into the air. 

“That again…”

Mumbling to myself, I can no longer count how many times I had that dream. But to call it a dream is a bit sweet for what it really was. 

“Love, you are awake already? Did you have that nightmare again?”

Smiling at me so sweetly, I never get tired of his face.

“Drake”

I smiled back and ended up being caught in his arms.

“You don’t look good. Are you all right?”

“I am. Since you are here with me”

A moment of silence before he finally process what I said. Honestly, this side of him is so cute too.

“Hey, you know what? where did you learn that? that was foul. How can you say a such thing so natural?”

And here he is again with his jokes. If there is something I would think of as a dream, this should be it. After all, it is too good to be a reality. After going back to the past and having the chance to avoid my death, I am lucky. I really am. To think that… those things would happen…

“You are zoning out again. Overthinking too much is bad. And… I am here. How can you think of anything else than me?”

Pouting, he is such a childish big man. Who would dare think that this very guy is capable of making things that seems impossible? I mean, this cute and childish man with puffy cheeks…

“Kianna~”

Oh, it seems like I ended up pinching him unconsciously. But really…

“I am just thinking about how lucky of me to have you”

Gentle and warm. Kissing me on my cheeks, it was a bit surprising yes but… am I greedy if I say I want him to do that to just me alone?

His lips then touch the corner of my lips down to my chin and neck-

“Alright, stop right there big guy. You still have lots of deadlines running ahead. You have to do it first”

“But”

Acting so cute, is it just my imagination or did he suddenly grow out puppy ears and a tail?

“Drake~”

“Just a minute”

“No”

“Please?”

“Love…you have to finish that first. Really… N- Hey-“

…

He said it would just be a minute, he is such a big liar! But… I would be a liar too if I said that I don’t want it… ha…

 Thankfully he was given permission to work at home. That as long as he provides the ordered gadget and sends it on time then there is no problem at all. It’s been a year since I faked my death. Although things seem to be going well… I am not surprised that problems are occurring too. 

News about my half-brother, Marco keeps on appearing in the highlights. Even if I want to avoid it, things like this are usual. After all, he makes a big entrance when my father tells the world he is his successor. 

Staring blankly at the screen, makes me wonder. Is my dad finally happy now? Now that his son is there and I am gone? 

Only a few people know that I am still alive. My mom lives just like me. Far from Dad and Marco. I wonder if she is doing all right… luckily grandma and grandpa were with her. I should ask Drake if he has time so that we can give them a visit. Maybe if he is done with his work already? Yeah, maybe I shall do that.

“You keep smiling, what are you thinking?”

Hugging me from the back, he rests his face on my shoulder.

“Done with your work?”

“Not yet. Just getting energy. The samples keep on failing. Hah, I am doomed”

Brushing his head, he really had this hard. But that is how things should be. He is a human after all. Even if he is a genius, he will still find things hard for him to do.

“Love, I know you can do it but don’t push yourself too hard”

“Yes love”

“Why not… after you do that then let’s visit Mom. It’s been so long since we last visited them”

“That sounds like a good idea. I will do my best”

“I know you are always doing your best, but really. Don’t overdo it. If you became too perfect, I would get left behind thinking I am not enough for you~”

Pouting at him, I hear him chuckle. 

“Silly Kianna. You are more than what you think you are”

Pinching my cheeks he gets back to his work after stealing a kiss from me. This guy… 

Looking back on my computer, I may seem to not do anything but… there is one thing I am trying to figure out. About that strange thing that happened to me. I mean… it is so unbelievable. Even gadgets such as time travel aren’t something that exists. But… why would that thing happen to me? Even the things that happened in the past that I recreate, in this timeline… it is gone. Like the farm orphanage for example. 

It keeps me wondering why Drake still has feelings for me even after I get back here in the future. I mean… it is as if he was the Drake that I met in the past life I recreated. Although things were so busy for him, whenever I had time to ask him, he would just change the topic and avoid it. 

I am not sure, maybe I am just overreacting about that? Maybe… he isn’t really avoiding it like I think he does… but

“This is so confusing…”

I did have a specialist to interpret those things that I see in my dreams. Even that weird stuff like the lights, the paintings, the locks… but up till now. I don’t have a clear answer about those matters. 

Closing my laptop, I flinched when I saw my reflection in the glass of water.

“Oh gosh!”

Covering my face, I may seem so strange but maybe this is the side effect of that dream… I mean… nightmares. 

“You alright?”

“Ah… yeah. Just a bit surprised…”

I smiled, not wanting Drake to be worried. Even him not know about that Nightmare.

A nightmare where I saw lots of Kianna… lots of them… staring at me.