Chapter 9

I blinked and looked around Sean's bedroom. The night after we were from the hospital, he took me to his house. I got out of bed to peek into Sean's closet. Since I didn't bring a change of clothes, and wearing yesterday's was such a bad idea, I ended up choosing a shirt that was really too big. Oh, it's nice because I can still smell Sean's scent.

Sean left this morning for a meeting. He promised to come back before lunch, and I honestly don't really mind that. Sean already had his own busy life. Sometimes I forget that now he runs a company like Harvey.

Gosh, Harvey! Where is my cell phone?

I frantically searched my bag in every corner of the room. It must have been difficult for Harvey to reach me since last night. The appearance of Renata and her baby has stolen all my attention. Since I can't find my cell phone, I intend to search outside Sean's room. But before that happened, a blonde girl walked in and it startled me.

"Oh, Angel. What were you doing in Sean's room?" Jessie's smile disappeared after she looked at me from head to toe. Her face flushed. "Wait, you spent the night with Sean? In the same room? Did you have sex with him?!"

Jessie screamed hysterically while pulling my hair. Sean said that Jessie wasn't his girlfriend, but I still couldn't defend myself and fight back. I was too embarrassed to even speak.

"Miss Angel, these are your clothes from Mr. Sean." A woman who seemed to be Sean's maid appeared carrying clothes.

Jessie grabbed the clothes Sean's maid was carrying before she started cursing me again. "You should know, bitch! These clothes are mine, just like Sean! Don't expect you to get his attention, for the truth is you're just a disgusting bitch!"

Jessie slapped my cheek. At first I didn't mean to fight back, but this was too much! No one has ever stepped on my pride like this.

"You're not Sean's girlfriend. Why is this bothering you so much?" I pulled back her blonde hair, and she let out a loud scream.

I received a second slap from Jessie, this time so hard that I fell to the floor. The woman who worked at Sean's house helped me. I could only bite my lip while trying to get rid of the pain in my stomach.

"Does your husband know that you are playing behind his back?! How many times have you slept with Sean?! Answer, bitch!"

"Stop it, miss." The maid said to Jessie. Slowly, I hid my face on her shoulder. Oh, my God. why does my stomach suddenly hurt?

"I will tell Harvey that you are having an affair! Your marriage will be ruined!"

"No. Please don't." I tried to chase after Jessie. But my head throbbed like a needle prickled, then the views around me began to blur and blacken. After that I couldn't feel anything.

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I woke up with the smell of the room like yesterday; smells of floor cleaners, air fresheners, and all kinds of medicines. Sean was talking to the doctor in the corner of the room. What happened to me? Why am I in the hospital?

"She's all right, Mr. Ackles. She'll come to her senses soon." The doctor said, but Sean didn't respond. Sean lowered his head restlessly. "I know this may surprise you. But once again I congratulate you."

"The fetus is one week old, still dangerous. Take good care of your wife."

I touched my stomach which was still very flat. Sweat was felt all over my body. My tears flowed. There is a life that I have been waiting for for years.

"Is this true? Am I going to become a mother?"

"Are you awake?" Sean touched my forehead and kissed me repeatedly.

"Sean ... I didn't hear wrong, right?" I asked almost in a whisper. Sean nodded as if at a loss for words. I wiped Sean's tears with my thumb, glad that he was happy with my pregnancy too.

"Your fetus is strong. Congratulations to both of you." Doctor said before leaving.

I was silent thinking about the incident that could turn into my sadness. I shouldn't have fought with Jessie. Thinking of the worst thing that could happen to my fetus makes me feel torn apart right away.

"I'm going to make Jessie regret it." Sean got ready to put on his jacket.

"No, Sean."

"You almost had a miscarriage, Angel!"

"The most important thing is now I'm fine. I'm afraid Jessie will tell Harvey about our affair."

"Isn't that great? You don't have to make excuses to divorce Harvey, because he would have done it first."

I honestly didn't think Sean would think about that. How can he still force me to divorce Harvey?

"I'm pregnant, Sean. I want Harvey---"

"What if the child in your stomach is mine?" Sean interrupted in a trembling voice. This was the first time I saw him so weak. "Didn't you think about that possibility?"

The next second I closed my eyes and looked away. I didn't want Sean to see me cry, because I was thinking about the same possibility. I am too afraid if that assumption is true. It's been 3 years since I married Harvey, and we've been doing our best to have a baby. When compared to Harvey's endeavors, it would be impossible for me to bear Sean's child. That's too ridiculous!

"C-can you find my phone? I want Harvey to know."

"For God's sake!" Shouted Sean. "Just tell me if you never liked me. You always talk about Harvey and Harvey!"

"What do you mean? I never said that, Sean! What's wrong if I wanted Harvey to know I was pregnant? He's the father of--"

"Your decision remains the same, and I was too stupid to wish I could change it. You'll always come back to Harvey without ever looking at me at all."

Sean's words slapped me to rock bottom. I squeezed my hand, wanting to find a strength that I could find nowhere. What should I do now?

"Sean ..."

"Say it out loud," Sean forced me as the weight on my shoulders grew heavier. I can't choose my ego. There is a baby I need to think about the future. My baby needs a complete family, not an affair between me and Sean.

I looked down, "Yes."

"Look me in the eye and say it again."

Slowly I lifted my face. My heart ached when I realized that his eyes were sad. We looked at each other before I finally said, "Yes, I'll stay with Harvey. Let's end this disgusting affair."