CHAPTER 3

"DRAKE POV"

I silently reading the email that I receive a moment ago. It's been a month since she's gone, at first I really don't give a shit about her. But eveytime that I'm doing my daily routine specially at home, I can't stop thinking about her.

I felt hurt that I can't even explain.

FLASHBACK

I'm on my way home cause it's my birthday today and I want to be with Joy. I just want to get my wallet cause i left it in my room. Pagpasok sa bahay, I immediately open the door and go to the kitchen dahul nauhaw ako.

Papasok na ako sa kitchen ng bumungad sa akin si Claire. With her innocent and bare face.

"Happy birthday hubby!!" She said, until I notice that she have a cake on her hands.

"Make a wish hubby!" Agad niyang sabi.

I don't want to waste my time so I blow the candle immediately.

She smiled. Damn, how can I ignore and hurt a girl like her if she have that fucking smile? But maybe because I have Joy.

"Ano iyong wish mo hubby?!" Kuryusado niyang tanong.

"You want to know?" Napayuko sya.

Fucking Innocent.

"A-Ahh kung pwede sana." Nahihiya niyang sabi.

She always have that attitude when she want to asked something but nagdadalawang-isip sya.

I put my phone on the table and I straightly looked at her face. "I wish that you'd gone, Claire." And after what I said agad agad akong pumunta sa kwarto.

Alam kung iiyak sya.

Agad kong kinuha ang wallet ko at aalis na din sana ng maalala kung naiwan ko ang phone ko. Tsk.

Papalapit na sana ako sa kusina when I heard someone's sobbing and trying to catch her breathe. Lumapit pa ako until i saw Claire laying on the floor, crying and breathing hard while holding my phone.

"Anong pakulo na naman yan at may pa upo upo kapa sa sahig tsked tanga!" Agad kong sabi sa kanya.

"D-Drake.." Nahihirapan niyang tawag sa pangalan ko.

Lumapit ako sa kanya at iniangat ang mukha niya. I was about to shout at her when I saw something in her arm that caught my attention. Umiilaw ito ng pula, at parang nasa loob ng katawan niya?

"What the fuck is this?!" Pasigaw kong tanong

She remained silent and catching her breathe.

I composed myself. Fuck, why do I feel nervous?

"W-What is happening to you Claire?!" I said, my voice is shaking and I i don't know why.

Inangat niya ang kamay niya papuntang mukha ko. When I felt her hands on my face I  don't know but I just want to closed my eyes and feel it forever.

"I-I love y-you Drake.....I-I command m-my promise n-nung b-bata pa tayo." Nauutal niyang saad.

I can't understand what she's saying, dadalhin ko na sana siya sa hospital ng bigla akong natigilan sa sinabi niya.

"And t-that is to m-marry you, and now for the second time Drake. Y-Your wish is my command." Huling salita niya bago pumikit ang mga mata niya.

I felt something that flowing in my checks.

Minutes fast that I found my self panicking.

"Damn Claire wake up!" I nervously said while carrying her.

But fuck she didn't response!

While driving on the way to the hospital, my tears can't stop falling.

Damn. What is the meaning of this?

My hands is shaking, I can feel the nervousness all over my body.

I drive fast until I reach the hospital. I immediately call the nurse to assist her.

"Save her!!" I shouted. What's happening to you Claire?

I don't know what really happened until I remember what I've said before it happens. Is it because of that? 

About my wish? That's not want I meant, hindi ko sya gustong mamatay, ang gusto ko lang mawala sya sa amin para maging masaya kami ni Joy. Napahilamos ako sa mukha ko.

And about what she said, sya ba?

Sya ba ang nawawala kong kaibigan at kababata? Ang pinangakuan kong pakakasalan ko at ako lang ang dapat niyang pakasalan.

Fuck it no!

Si Joy yun, si Joy ang kababata ko dahil sa sinabi niya yun sa akin.

Claire is definitely lying. But,

Why? I felt hurt.

Mga ilang oras na paghihintay ay lumabas ang isang doctor.

"You're the husband right?" I nodded. "She's okay, mabuti at naidala mo sya dito agad." Agad niyang sabi at iniwan ako dahil mamaya niya daw sasabihin ang buong resulta

I was about to enter the room kung saan nandoon sya ng biglang nagvibrate ang cellphone na nadala ko. Joy is calling.

I answered the call and her mad voice echoed. She's fucking angry. Hindi ko na sya pinatapos sa pagsasalita at agad na lumabas sa hospital. I can't stand it if she's mad at me. Tinawagan ko ang Papa ni Claire at sinabi sa kanya ang mga nangyari bago ko tuluyang iwanan si Claire doon.

At yun ang huling araw na nakita ko sya.

Weeks past until I received some emails, naglalaman ng divorce paper namin ni Claire.

I'm shocked.

I was about to call her Dad, dahil hindi na ako pumunta doon. Kahit sabihing asawa ko sya. I really can't, cause Joy is stopping me at may isa pang dahilan.

Tatawagan ko na sana siya ng may nagsend ulit na emails sakin na naglalaman ng isang picture. And that is Claire's,

Dead body.

END OF FLASHBACK

Hindi ako naniniwalang patay na sya. Wala siya sa hospital, sa bahay, pati ang daddy niya ay wala din. Hindi ko manlang nalaman ang dahilan ng lahat at kung ano ang sakit na meron sya.

And fuck! How could I fucking believe it kung walang nangyaring libing?!

Sinubukan kong alamin but someone keeps on blocking my way.

Ayukong isipin pero nasasaktan ako at nawawala ang pag-asa kong buhay pa sya sa tuwing nakikita ko ang picture na may patay niyang katawan. It looks really like her.

The day na malaman ko yun, nagwawala ang sistema ko. Naglasing ako dahil sa hindi malamang damdamin.

I don't love her but why?

Kung may nararamdaman man ako sayo kaya ko ginagawa to ay hindi ko na alam.

Months past since pinahanap ko sya. Pero nagagalit si Joy sa akin dahil nalalaman niya yung mga ginagawa ko and damn I can't bare it if Joy is mad at me. I really don't know what to do.

I take a loud deep breath, now that I'm going to be a father I really need to focus.

I'm sorry Claire but still, I choose Joy and if you're really dead.

May you rest and peace.