Chapter 20

BROOKS

When Crystal left, I sat in my explorer and thought about everything. I feel so damn bad for doing that to her. When I found out she was 17, I should have stopped thinking about sleeping with her. She is still a kid and I am a man. I shouldn't be feeling the way I do about her but I can't help it. There was something about her but I couldn't pinpoint what. When I was on my way home today, I turned the radio off and sat in silence trying to think and it hit me. I actually have real feelings for her. It wasn't the fact I wasn't getting laid that kept me from sleeping, it was not being close to her. I have to be close to her to function. I can't think unless I am with her and when I am not with her, she is all I can think about. I've been gone a week trying to distance myself from her but yet she has been the only thing that is on my mind. That's why I decided to talk to her when I got home. What in the f*ck am I going to do? I can't just walk up to her door and her dad answer an