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I grip the steering wheel so tight that it makes my knuckles ache. The city blurs past my window—steel towers and honking traffic that feels both familiar and wrong after three years. I should have turned around at the last exit.
I almost did.
But the envelope in my bag, the one with Liam’s latest daycare bill marked overdue in angry red wouldn’t let me. “You’ve got this,” I whisper to the empty car. The lie tasted bitter.
My phone buzzes in the cupholder, and it’s a message from the nanny.
Mrs. Rivera: Liam’s fine. He asked again about his daddy. I told him he works far. You okay?
I don’t answer. I mean, what would I say? That I was driving straight back into the mouth of the man who had looked at me like a stranger three years ago? That our son—three years old with Valerios’s stubborn chin and my own dark eyes—is the only reason I was doing this at all?
I pull up outside the modest brownstone where Mrs. Rivera lives before I head towards doom. Liam stands on the steps in his favorite blue sneakers, clutching a toy car. The second he sees me, his whole face lit up.
“Mommy!”
He barrels into my legs before I can even close the car door. I drop to my knees on the sidewalk, hugging him tight, breathing in the smell of baby shampoo and crayons. God, he is getting heavy. “Hey, little man,” I say, voice steady even though my throat hurts. “You behave for Mrs. Rivera, okay? Mommy has a big meeting today.”
Liam pulls back, studying me with those too-sharp eyes. “You going to see my daddy?”
The question hit like it always did. I force a smile, brushing imaginary dust from his shirt.
“Not today, baby. But I’m going to a place where a lot of important people work. Maybe one day I’ll tell you more.”
He nods solemnly, like he understood more than any three-year-old should. Mrs. Rivera appears at the door, giving me a knowing look but saying nothing. Good woman. She never pushes. I kiss Liam’s forehead, lingering a second longer than necessary. “I love you bigger than the sky.”
“Love you bigger than the moon,” he answers immediately, a huge smile plastered across his face, and my heart aches. He looks just like his dad.
I watch them disappear inside before I let myself breathe again. Then I get back in the car, smooth down my black pencil skirt, and drive the last ten minutes to Cruz Holdings like I am heading to war.
The building hasn’t changed significantly. It’s still all glass and sharp angles, towering over the financial district like it owned the sky. My heels click against the marble lobby floor, the sound echoing too loudly in my ears. Security checks my ID—the new one. The one Luca had quietly helped clean up.
“Top floor, Miss Matthews,” the guard says. “Mr. Cruz is expecting you.”
My stomach twists. Mr. Cruz. Not Valerio. Never Valerio again.
Behind the security desk, a man in a white coat steps out of a private elevator. He looks like he’s in his mid-fifties, silver-haired, with the easy confidence of someone who has walked these halls for years. He nods at me like he knows me, though I’m certain we’ve never met before.
“New hire?” he asks the guard, and he confirms I’m coming for an interview. Then the old man smiles, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “Welcome to Cruz Holdings,” he says, and disappears through a door marked Corporate Health.
Well…
The elevator ride takes forever. I stare at my reflection in the polished doors; brown skin glowing under the lights, hair pulled into a neat bun, lips painted a calm nude. I look like someone who belongs here, but I don’t feel like it anymore.
When the doors open on the executive floor, the familiar layout hits me like a punch. Same sleek desks, same glass walls, and the same faint scent of expensive coffee and power. But the people are different. New faces glance at me curiously as I walk toward the corner office. Luca is waiting outside the double doors. Tall, sharp-suited, with that same guarded expression he’d worn the night he helped me slip out of the hospital three years ago. His eyes soften a fraction when they land on me.
“You sure about this, Zara?” he asks quietly, voice low enough that only I can hear.
“No,” I say. “But I don’t have a choice.”
He nods once, with no effort to comfort. That is Luca. But before he opens the door, his hand hesitates on the handle. “What’s wrong?” I ask him.
“Nothing, I just didn’t sleep well.”
“You sure that’s it? See, you don’t have to worry about me, I’ll be fine.”
“He’s in a mood. The interview’s been brutal on the others. Just… be careful.”
I lift my chin. “I’ve been careful for three years.”
Luca opens the door, and I inhale a sharp breath.
Valerio Cruz sits behind the massive oak desk like he was born for this. Three years have sharpened him. The lines of his face are harder, the set of his shoulders more rigid. His dark hair is perfectly styled, and his suit is tailored to perfection. But when he looks up from the file in his hands, the room narrows, and everything goes still.
It was just the two of us in the world; nobody mattered.
His gaze drags over me in a slow and deliberate manner. From the heels up legs, across the curve of my hips, lingering for half a second too long at the dip of my blouse before settling on my face. Something flickers in those steel-gray eyes. Not recognition, but something rawer, which looks like irritation mixed with hunger.
My pulse hammers in my throat. I remember exactly how that same look used to end—his hands in my hair, my back against the desk, his voice rough in my ear, telling me to be quiet because the cleaning crew was still in the building.
I push the memory down hard.
“Zara Matthews,” he says. His voice is the same: deep and commanding, with that slight rasp that used to make my knees weak. He doesn’t stand. He just leans back in his chair, watching me like I am a puzzle he hasn’t decided to solve yet. “You’re the last one. Sit.”
I sit. Cross my legs and keep my hands folded over my tablet so that he doesn’t see them trembling.
He watches me sit and lets out a humorless breath. “You took too long to sit. Hesitation reads as weakness. You’ll have to fix that if you want to work with me.”
And then he taps a pen against the desk. Once. Twice. “Most candidates last five minutes in here. You’ve got ten. Impress me.”
I meet his eyes straight on. “I don’t do presentations, Mr. Cruz. I do results. Your current secretary schedule has three overlapping meetings tomorrow at ten. The Tokyo call needs to move, or you’ll lose the Nakamura deal. Also, the quarterly report has an error on page seventeen—understated depreciation by 2.4 million. You need to fix it before the board sees it.”
Silence stretches between us, and my palms get sweatier as the seconds go by.
Valerio’s pen stops moving, and he stares at me so intensely that for a minute it feels like he is trying to peel off my skin. For a moment, I think he might remember. That some piece of him might crack open and say my name the way he used to, soft and possessive in the dark.
Instead, he leans forward. “How do you know about the Nakamura deal? That’s not public.”
“I do my research,” I say simply. “And I’m good at my job.”
He tilts his head, unimpressed, and leans back in his chair. “You memorized a few numbers and call that research? Half the candidates who walked through that door today could have done the same if they bothered to read the quarterly reports. The difference is they had the sense not to show off.”
My fingers clench against the tablet.
He doesn’t smile. Valerio Cruz rarely smiled anymore, from what I’d read in the papers. But something shifts in his expression.
He stands up and walks around the desk until he’s leaning against it with his arms crossed. He’s close enough that I can smell his cologne—woody, expensive, and so familiar that it hurts. “You’re hiding something,” he says quietly.
My heart falters. “Everyone’s hiding something, Mr. Cruz.”
His gaze drops to my mouth for a fraction of a second, and then back up. The air between us feels too thick, like it used to before he’d push me against the wall and—
“Rule number one in this office,” he says, voice dropping lower. “No personal entanglements. No exceptions. No disruptions.” Says the person who used to do that and more some years ago. He continues, his tone cold and distant. “If that becomes a conflict for you at any point, the door is that way
The words land like ice water, and I almost laugh. “I’m here to work,” my voice firm. “Nothing else.”
He studies me for another long moment, and then he walks back behind his desk and picks up his phone. “HR. Send up the paperwork for Zara Matthews. She starts immediately.” He hangs up without waiting for a response.
I blink. “Just like that?”
He looks at me again, and this time, there is no mistaking the dark edge in his eyes. “Something about you pisses me off, Miss Matthews, and I haven’t decided if that’s useful yet. But you’re staying close until I do.”
He steps around the desk once more, stopping just short of invading my space completely. Close enough that if I lean forward half an inch, my knees would brush his thighs.
“Welcome back to Cruz Holdings,” he says softly.
The words cut like a blade. Welcome back?
He doesn’t know what he just said, but I feel it all in my bones. The weight of every erased photo, every deleted file, every night I’ve spent alone with our son while the man I loved built an empire on lies they had fed him.
I gather my things with steady hands, even though my legs feel like water. “Thank you, Mr. Cruz.”
And as I turn towards the door, I could feel his eyes boring holes into my back, but I don’t look back.
I can’t.
But the second the elevator door closes behind me, I sag against the wall, pressing a hand to my mouth. No, I can’t break down now. He’s still in there. Somewhere deep, beneath all the lies and the missing pieces, the man who used to trace patterns on my bare shoulder at dawn and whisper that I am the only real thing in his world…is still in there.
And I have just walked straight back into his cage. And what’s worse is, I have brought our son into the shadows.
Zara's POVI lie in the dark, the ghost of Kenji’s gentle forehead kiss still lingering on my skin. It was kind. Safe. Everything I should want. And yet it left me emptier than before. I press my palms to my eyes and let out a shaky breath. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why do I let myself feel guilty for enjoying a moment of peace? Why does every soft, uncomplicated moment only make me miss the dangerous intensity of a My phone buzzes on the nightstand. I reach for it, expecting Kenji, or Luca, or maybe a work email. Valerio.The name glows on the screen, and my heart stops. My hands are trembling. I stare at his name, my thumb hovering over the screen. I should not answer. I should let it go to voicemail. I should protect what little peace I have left.There’s nothing else to talk about, and I have certainly had enough of his lies. I answer anyway."Zara." His voice is rough, urgent. The sound of it cuts through me like a blade, raw, familiar and achingly close."Valerio
Zara's POVThe apartment is quiet, except for the soft hum of the nightlight in Liam's room.I sit on the edge of his bed, watching his chest rise and fall, the rhythm steady and fragile. His small hand is curled around his stuffed wolf, his lips slightly parted, his face peaceful in a way that makes my chest ache. The fever broke hours ago, but the terror of watching him burn up is still fresh under my skin.The doctor's words keep circling in my head. ‘His white blood cell count is still elevated. We need to keep monitoring it. It could be nothing or it could be something.’“Could be something.” Those three words have been eating at me since I left the hospital.I press my palm against his forehead, and it’s cool. I let out a breath I did not realize I was holding, and slip out of his room, closing the door softly. The living room is dark, the city lights casting long shadows through the window. I sit on the couch in the dark and stare at my phone. No messages from Valerio. He does
Valerio's POVSleep refuses to elude me.I lie in bed, staring at the ceiling, the boy's face burned into my mind. His dark curls. His eyes. The stubborn line of his chin. Every time I close my eyes, I see him running toward her, his arms outstretched, his smile bright and unguarded.I see myself.I push the covers aside and stand up. The penthouse is dark and silent. The city sprawls below, indifferent to the war raging inside me. I walk to the study, my feet bare against the cold floor.I open the bottom drawer of the old oak desk. Tucked away beneath a stack of papers is a leather-bound album I have not touched in years. My mother's handwriting is still visible on the spine: "Valerio — I primi anni." (Valerio—The Early Years)I pull it out. The leather is soft, worn from years of handling. I open it.The first page is a photograph of a baby with dark curls and wide, curious eyes. I stare at the image, my thumb tracing the small face.I turn the page. A toddler, maybe two years old,
Valerio's POVI have been staring at the same line of the report for twenty minutes. The words blur, the numbers shift, but nothing sticks. My mind is a fog of pain and regret.It’s been a couple of days since that incident with Nonno in my office, and I can’t take her hurt face out of my brain. Somehow, the headaches and memory flashes have increased too, and anytime I almost see the face of the woman, it gets hard, and the headache becomes blinding. I need to see her.I don’t know what I will say. I don’t know if I will even speak, but I just need to see her face, to know she is still there, and to breathe the same air as her. I push back from my desk and walk toward Luca's department. The hallway is quiet, the walls solid and cold. I pass assistants who glance at me, look away, and scurry off. I keep walking, round the corner, and I see her desk.But she is not there.Her chair is pushed back. Her laptop is dark, and her bag is gone. I stop. My chest tightens. Where is she?Luca
Zara's POVI walk back to my desk with my legs feeling like jelly. The hallway feels too long, the walls too close, like they are closing in on me. I keep my spine straight, my head high, though my insides are crumbling, and my face blank. I will not give anybody the satisfaction of seeing me cry. I sit down and open my laptop. The cursor blinks at me, waiting. My hands rest on the keyboard, but I can’t make them move. The flowers from Kenji are still soft and gentle on the corner of my desk.I force myself to work. Emails, reports, and coordinating with other teams. My fingers move across the keys on autopilot, but my mind stays trapped in that office. Nonno’s cold voice and how he called me a distraction. The way Valerio sat there in silence while his grandfather dismantled my dignity piece by piece. He did not speak or defend me. He just let it happen. I press my palms flat against the desk and draw in a slow shaky breath. The tears burn behind my eyes. I blink them back hard.
Valerio's POVI walk back from the breakroom, the hurt I saw in her eyes still haunting me. My hands are shaking, and my chest feels empty. I’ll go back till she hears me out and knows I didn’t mean to hurt her. I told her, and I meant every word of it.Luca meets me in the hallway to my office. His face looks calm, but I know what that look means."Valerio." His voice is urgent. "Nonno is in your office."I freeze. "What?""He arrived ten minutes ago. He is waiting for you."I close my eyes, and the dread settles in my chest like stone. What is he doing here?I walk toward my office, each step heavier than the last. The hallway feels longer, and the walls feel closer. I push open the door, and he’s standing by the window, his back to me, his hands clasped behind him."Nonno." My voice is tight. "Cosa stai facendo qui?" (What are you doing here?)He turns slowly. His eyes are cold, sharp, and cutting through me like glass."Ho sentito delle voci, again," he says. "Voci sulla tua assis
Zara’s POVThe apartment is quiet when I finally push the door open a little after ten. The living room lamp casts a soft yellow glow over the second-hand couch and the small pile of toy cars scattered across the rug. Mrs. Rivera looked up from her knitting, smiling that gentle, knowing smile she a
Zara’s POV My feet are killing me by the time the clock hit eight-thirty, but I keep typing. The Harrington proposal stares back at me from the screen, marked up with more red ink than black. Valerio had thrown three more files at me after lunch, each one more complex than the last. He was testing
Valerio’s POVI can’t get her out of my fucking head.Zara Matthews.Even her name feels like it belongs to my mouth. I stand at the window of my penthouse, whiskey in hand, staring at the city sprawled below me like scattered diamonds. The glass is cold against my palm, and my mind refuses to sett
Zara’s POVI managed to make it to the ladies’ room on the executive floor before my legs gave out. I lock myself in the last stall, press my forehead against the cool metal door, and take in deep breaths. I’ve got this. I won’t falter.Welcome back.The bastard has no idea what those two words di







