Chapter 49 DRAKE TELLING THE TRUTH

[JAZ AMANDA]

A lot has changed between Anika and me. We are likely strangers. I don't know if I will be the first to speak because the silence here in my room is crazy.

I can't imagine how desperate my parents are for us to be really close, letting us sleep in one room, one bed, even though we're not married yet. What's the difference, anyway. We had slept twice, but those times they thought we were just friends or perhaps they already knew. I forgot they planned it all.

Oh, shoot, what am I babbling in my mind?

"So Drake isn't really your boyfriend?" I turned around when Anika suddenly spoke.

"No." I only answered without looking back.

"You? Do you really love Gwen? What happened with the incapable-of-loving thing?!" I feel like I want to vanish from what I said. I don't want her to think I expect her to love me instead.

"Can't things change?" I was not happy with what she responded. I want to know what exactly we are. Is that really just lust? Our sex before?

"Perhaps we call