Standing there in the kitchen watching as she exits, It feels like the earth should open up and swallow me whole, " you shouldn't have said that, you stupid girl! Curse you! Curse you! Curse you! I scream in my head. Why am I still standing here?"
I promptly trotted into the guest room and straight to the bathroom, in a moment I am done with my bath and leaving the bathroom with this thought in mind, " How do I go to her and ask for clothe to wear?" This question bugged on my mind during and after my bath, until I came out of the bathroom to find a pair of blue jeans and a white T-shirt with a pair of new sneakers laid on the mattress, deliberately, I proceeded to the row awe-stricken at how someone could be so nice at heart.Sliding into the pair of slacks and the shirt, they were a little tight on my body giving that I am a bit more larger upstairs and the down side as well but feet slips into the sneakers as though they were perfectly measure and mI hurried behind her as we arrives at the bus stop, we awaited in lull for the bus to arrive.Though I am standing behind her I could see through her shattered heart, what she is feeling at the moment and how much she is praying for none of this to be true.I also prayed and wished that none of the things that had happened to me were all just a nightmare, that the man I once loved is still the same man I fell in love with.Perhaps I am a mere outsider to her, she chose to wear a mask and bury her excitements deep down inside of her, I want to walk up to her,give her a wake up slap and hug her tightly until she pours her heart out, I want to tell her how strong and pure hearted she is, a plethora of things I need to say to her but I don't know how to do that when she isn't giving me the recourse.Eventually, the bus arrives and she turns to me and goes, " let's go, this is our bus!" Then she continues and gets into the bus and I came behind her, while She si
" Is this how you want to pay me back for everything?" I hear her say in a trembling tone, gradually I walk up to them and stand still behind Sam, the situation She caught her boyfriend in, she couldn't curb her sentiments as tears unhurriedly run from her eyes down to her cheeks, " I gave you all my support and more, I loved you unconditionally Jordan, I even took you in when you lost everything and this is how you repay me? Jordan with the two women he had escorted into the boutique to lavish my money, they all gaped with no blithe of concern on their faces." Sam, I'm sorry for all this but I can never betray you, I only took the cash from the new girl because I'm in desperate need of a financial stipend, thanks to that money I was able to pay off the five grand I'm owing on the mortgage and spoil myself a little!" He says with a grimace.I can feel my blood boil in rage, I clench my fists and just as I am about to go give him a piece of my mind, Sam grips my wrist. " I
" Hey, it's okay. Please pull yourself together." I try to commiserate with her." You don't understand Amanda, I did everything I could for Jordan, I changed myself, work even harder to fend for him. There's nothing in the world that I haven't done just to please that guy, and he chose to repay me this way?" She wails.I arise from my seat and squat in front of her. " And what did you amass from doing all that for him? Sam, I believe that love should be reciprocal, I pull her chin up and make her look at me, you don't have to change yourself for anyone, you don't have to work you're a** off just so you can make him happy and then at the end you feel the pain and gets nothing, you should be able to be with someone who sees all your quirks but chooses to love you for who you are. Jordan had a reason to pretend to love you and stay with you until he found something to replace you with, love should be unconditional Sam, your tears are too precious to be wasted on a pers
" Hey, it's okay. Please pull yourself together." I try to commiserate with her." You don't understand Amanda, I did everything I could for Jordan, I changed myself, work even harder to fend for him. There's nothing in the world that I haven't done just to please that guy, and he chose to repay me this way?" She wails.I arise from my seat and squat in front of her. " And what did you amass from doing all that for him? Sam, I believe that love should be reciprocal, I pull her chin up and make her look at me, you don't have to change yourself for anyone, you don't have to work you're a** off just so you can make him happy and then at the end you feel the pain and gets nothing, you should be able to be with someone who sees all your quirks but chooses to love you for who you are. Jordan had a reason to pretend to love you and stay with you until he found something to replace you with, love should be unconditional Sam, your tears are too precious to be wasted on a pers
" But that's your money about to go down the drain!" She laments." I don't care as long as you don't get into anymore trouble, please let's just leave okay?"" Fine! She turns and gulks at the manager as she picks up the shopping bags without uttering a word and zooms out of the store, while I took the rest of the bags from the table and follow her.We went back to the store where we had gone for shopping before all the drama began,to pay for our purchase before we left and starts to the bus stop, and while we awaits the bus, I thought of staying calm till I get back to her place, who knows where I will go with the little money left on me? I steals a glimpse at her as her focus were fixed on the road. Sigh, I know she must be feeling ashamed about what her boyfriend did to me and that might be the reason behind picking a fight with the manager despite the fact that she is a lot older than her. They say " life is what happens when we are busy making plans"  
" But that's your money about to go down the drain!" She laments." I don't care as long as you don't get into anymore trouble, please let's just leave okay?"" Fine! She turns and gulks at the manager as she picks up the shopping bags without uttering a word and zooms out of the store, while I took the rest of the bags from the table and follow her.We went back to the store where we had gone for shopping before all the drama began,to pay for our purchase before we left and starts to the bus stop, and while we awaits the bus, I thought of staying calm till I get back to her place, who knows where I will go with the little money left on me? I steals a glimpse at her as her focus were fixed on the road. Sigh, I know she must be feeling ashamed about what her boyfriend did to me and that might be the reason behind picking a fight with the manager despite the fact that she is a lot older than her. They say " life is what happens when we are busy making plans"  
" But that's your money about to go down the drain!" She laments." I don't care as long as you don't get into anymore trouble, please let's just leave okay?"" Fine! She turns and gulks at the manager as she picks up the shopping bags without uttering a word and zooms out of the store, while I took the rest of the bags from the table and follow her.We went back to the store where we had gone for shopping before all the drama began,to pay for our purchase before we left and starts to the bus stop, and while we awaits the bus, I thought of staying calm till I get back to her place, who knows where I will go with the little money left on me? I steals a glimpse at her as her focus were fixed on the road. Sigh, I know she must be feeling ashamed about what her boyfriend did to me and that might be the reason behind picking a fight with the manager despite the fact that she is a lot older than her. They say " life is what happens when we are busy making plans"  
Subsequently taking a brief nap while I had gone into the guest room to change into some of the outfits I could wear at home, then sort the things we purchased and check out the expensive things in the saraffin shopping bags.While I am still on it, I hear a knock at the door. " Come in, it's open!" I sang out loud.Sam opens the door ajar and walks in with a cup of coffee in her hand." Here, this is for you! " she hands over the hot cup of coffee to me as I reach out and take it from her, " thanks!" I said taking a sip of the hot coffee." May I suggest something to you?" She asks while she slowly sits next to me in bed." Sure what's up?" I drop the clothes with me on the bed and turns to her because I could sense that she had something important to say... However, she seems to have ran out of words as she keeps on gaping at me and looking away." Umm, Amanda!" She calls out to me." yeah?" I replies curious about what she wants to t