Chapter 4

Everything that could go wrong this morning has! The kids and I overslept. They was moving hella slow and i was very annoyed. 

"Mommy, I'm tired." Aza whined. 

"Well you should've went to bed. Instead, you wanted to watch frozen." I scorned her. 

No sooner as I closed my car door to drop the kids at school, my phone rang. It was my assistant Zaria. I don't even answer because whatever it was could wait until I made it in. It was times like this that I miss Damien. He would've at least dropped the kids off for me. Speaking of him, he had been sending me flowers and small gifts every week. The little things that he use to do. I guess you gotta divorce a man before he realize that he wanted you. I had heard that the girl was actually pregnant. Everytime i thought about it, i got mad. So sending me gifts wasn't gone work. But i had decided that it was time we talk. Christmas was coming up and i wanted the kids to be happy. And us at least on good terms. 

I dropped the kids off at school and continued on to work. As soon as I made it in the door, Zaria begins to tell me that today wasn't going to get any better. 

I took a deep breathe and prepared myself for the mountain of bad news. "What happened?" I asked. 

"We mixed up two orders again and the big oven has gone out." She replied. I just couldn't believe my day. I went in my office and closed the door. I needed a moment to get myself together. I called my delivery guys and sent them back to the events they had delivered the cupcakes. I had them both switch addresses and had them deliver to the right customers. At this point was fustrated. I had to pause a minute. I felt a small headache coming on. I still needed the oven fixed. 

I called Sheka, just to hear a friendly voice. 

"What's up, girl?" She answered the phone all breathe. 

"Girl, I'm having one of those days. My oven at the bakery went out. I need to find somebody to fix it. Then the kids was acting crazy this morning. 

"Call the Mr. fix it guy that you and Kita met at the mall." She replied. 

I rolled my eyes. They had been trying to get me to call him for weeks. I was just not interested in anybody. I wish Kita hadn't told them about Micheal. Every conversation I had with one of these heifers, they somehow found a way to bring him up. 

"I'm not calling him. I don't know that man." I explained. "This is my business. I need someone a little more experienced than that. I'll call you later, girl." I said as I hung up the phone. 

I spent the rest of the day making calls and getting estimates. I finally found one that was resonable and able to come in today. He fixed the problem. I paid him and was out the bakery before it even closed. I was tired. 

I picked the kids up and drove home. I called up Damien to see if he could come over for dinner. He said he could and that he'll bring the dessert.  

I hear the doorbell rang, so i hurried downstairs to answer it. Damien came in with ice cream and cookies for the kids. 

"Hey bae. You look good." He complimented me. I look at him and had to admit that he had done a complete turn around. He made sure the kids and I was straight the whole time during this separation. 

I smiled and told him he did also. Dinner was already done and ready to be served. I called the kids into the dining room. I had cooked friend chicken, turnip greens, cornbread, and yams. Everything was looking delicious. As we sat around the table, I noticed that the kids looked happy. And so did Damien. It was the first dinner in years that he was at home to share with us. Too bad it only took us separating for him to make time. 

"Damien after dinner I wanna talk to you."'I told him. He look at me with a gleam in his eyes. 

"Ok Shunshine. But can it wait until the kids go to bed. I wanna spend some time with them after dinner. " he asked. 

"That's fine. But we really need to talk." I could help but feel a little soft spot for him. There was nothing like seeing a man love on his kids. If i don't no nothing else, ain't knew that he love our kids. He spoiled them to death. He'll miss every date with me in the past but he made sure he showed up for every basketball game or dance recital that they had. 

As I cleaned up the kitchen, I could hear them playing in the den. Why couldn't this be my normal life? Things only got better when we parted. Don't get me wrong. I still had love for him but i realized that i fell out of love with him a long time ago. 

When the kids fell asleep, he finally came back downstairs. 

"You ready to talk baby?" He asked me. "Before you start, I really wanna apologize and tell you how sorry I am for hurting you. I promise I'll never do that shit again. I can't breathe right, without you and my kids under the same roof as me. That girl meant nothing to me." He got down on his knees and laid his head in my lap. "I just want another chance to show you that i change. I can be the man that you need. Just give us another try. 

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. I just could give him my heart again. Especially knowing that that hoe was somewhere claiming she was carrying his baby. I'll look like a damn fool. 

"Damien, yes i still have love for you. But I'm not in love with you anymore. It has been months and i just want us to co-parent. I want us to move on. I wanted us to get together and on the same page so we can still spend the holidays together as a family. I just can't give you my heart anymore. If you loved me, you wouldn't have been out there sticking your dick  in everything. That baby was the nail in the coffin for this marriage." I said with tears rolling down my face. 

He got up, looked at me, and walked out the door.