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CHAPTER 07
"What place is this?" I asked Jinx as he stopped his motor in front of a mansion.
I was staring at the big mansion because it was really stunning! It was like in a fantasy movies because it felt surreal. I never saw like this in my entire life, not to mention fictions. It was really very beautiful and insanely huge.
"You will work here as a secretary of a businessman," he said and shrugged his shoulders. I then gulped. What? Secretary? I do not even know how being secretary works and I am still a minor and know nothing!
"I would prefer being maid instead of being secretary," I said and shook my head. I was a bit nervous because I could not believe him!
And if that, how can we get inside? It was so obvious that it was secured. In just one glance, you will know that if you try to knock the door, securities will kill the hell out of you.
"Oh, no. Being maid does not suit to you. Do not worry, Astra. This job is easy."
I slightly punched h
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