Chapter 7: Ang Multo ng Nakaraan

After 6 hours no calls,no chats at walang Liam na nagpaparamdam,bakit ganon nakakaramdam ako ng lungkot bakit parang may kulang?Akala ko ba sabi niya tatawag siya? Still waiting for your call babe. Good evening babe..dalawa na ang message ko sa kanya pero walang reply..matawagan nga baka nakatulog na yon at nakalimotan niya na may nag-aantay sa kanya.Sinubokan ko na contact-kin siya sa messenger pero hindi siya online at yon nga inabot na ng 2 days na hindi siya nagpaparamdam,kailangan ko na ba na kabahan? Dapat ba hindi ako naniwala sa mga salita niya? Kung hindi parin siya magpaparamdam ngayon 3 days na so meaning 3 days kaya niya akong tiisin?Baka may ibang babae yon tapos panakip butas lang ako baka nagka-ayos na sila kaya kinalimutan na ako. Pasado alas dos na ng hapon pero wala parin,dapat sinabi niya sakin kung ayaw na niya hindi yong ganito pag-aantayin niya ako ng ilang araw.Sa oras na 'to gusto kung magwala,umiyak at magbasag ng gamit ng biglang tumunog ang cellphone ko. From Liam voicemessage: Baa I guess the signal here is have some issues but Am just can I drop you voice note,to tell you i love you Maria I really love you I just the moment you how together know,I really love that you put a smile on my face I wish I can make smiling the way you laugh today I really love the way you smile even when I don't see you.I really love you that's what i want to let you know I won't never let you down if only you..You trust and love me too,I really mean it I really want you to meet my parents so we can begin a wonderful family together I just want to know how its do you how did you see that? Because I really want you Maria I really want to be

with you.Nakakakilig man pero hindi na ako nagreply dito sa voice message niya,pagkatapos niya akong pag-antayin ng tatlong araw at pag-iisip isipin ng mga negative thoughts saka pa niya ako pakikiligin bahala ka diyan mag-antay ka kung kailan ko gustong reply-an ka.Pagkalipas ng isang oras balak ko na sana siyang reply-an ng bigla nakatanggap ako ng tawag from him pero syempre inis parin ako kaya nung sinagot ko sabay off bigla.At para bang hindi familiar ang boses niya sa kabilang linya.One message from Liam: You don't want to talk to me huh?Bigla kung pinindot ang call sign sa name niya at tinawagan ko siya pero hindi niya sinasagot.Then i try again "pick up the phone babe come on don't do this to me stop ignoring my calls or else pag ako tupakin iwan ko nalang.At yon swerte niya kaya ko pang kontrolin ang topak ko habang nag "Hello" na siya sa kabilang linya pero ang boses niya grabe napaka lungkot.I thought you don't want to talk to me?Ang sabi niya sa kabilang linya na may halong pagtatampo. Sorry..tipid na sagot ko,ano ba naman kasi naisip nito at bigla nalang naglasing. No one love me even you,you don't love me I think you're the right person but I was wrong,You don't love me.You're the first person in my mind not my mother because I know you understand me but I was wrong you don't care for me,no one care for me.Anong pinagsasabi nito na hindi ko siya mahal at hindi ko siya naiintindihan? No..Don't say that i love you and I understand you just tell me what happened why are you drunk?sagot ko sa kabilang linya na naglilitanya na nang kung anu-ano dahil sa subrang pagka slung nito magsalita tapos lasing halos kinakain na lahat ng sinasabi niya.My savings was robbed,my money.He said. Who did?I don't know. Did you report it to the bank and did your mom know this?No.Your the first person to know.Sagot niya at ang kasunod noon ay yung pagmumura niya ng paulit-ulit sa kabilang linya. Listen to me " You lost your big amount of money do you think that money can back to you if you always drink alcohol?And don't you think they laughing at you at your back because you allowed them to laugh at you.If you let them mocking at you its your fault you're a coward.Stand up like a soldier and face it the consequences even its hard for you,you need to do that its not too late to start all over again get up and prove to everyone that you are a better person compared to your friends;Show them that your better than your friends that they're wrong to judged you and stop mocking at your back.Natuyo ang laway ko don ah ang dami ko na palang sinabi sa kanya at buti naman hindi niya ako ininterrupt sa pagsasalita ko. Anyway I'm a soldier.Maikling sagot niya sa kabilang linya.Yon lang yun?ang dami kung sinabi tapos ito lang ang sagot niya?Kaloka..So stand up and face it and go home face your problem walk straight and be proud for yourself.Okay thank you.Give me your email because I don't want use my social media okay.Okay maybe tomorrow i send it.Makatulog nga muna bukas ko nalang isend sa kanya.

Thursday 7:01am kagigising ko lang pero  nakakatamad bumangon gusto ko pang matulog maicheck nga yung messenger at email ko baka may mga message yon.

One missed call from Liam.Sabi na nga may message galing sa kanya.Maisend ko nanga yung email account ko para ma save niya.Thank you sweetie.Maikli niyang reply kasabay ang pag send niya ng litrato niya na kasama ang mama niya ang sweet nila tignan naka akbay sa kanya yung mother niya na halatang inaayos ang suot niyang uniform sa work,habang siya ay nakatitig sa mama niya na punong-puno ng pagmamahal na tila ba'y nagsasabi na "Maraming salamat dahil ipinanganak mo ako sa mundong ito kung hindi dahil sa'yo hindi ko maabot ang lahat ng pangarap ko". Meet my mom.Bye love.Chat niya ulit sakin na may kasamang emoji na lips.At syempre tayong mga pilipina hindi tayo magpapatalo.Bye habibi.Reply ko na may kasamang tatlong emoji din na bilog na naka kiss lips.Thanks babe you will always be in my heart.Pahabol na reply nito baka magiging busy na siya sa work niya kaya hindi na ako magrereply ulit para makapag concentrate na siya.Natapos ko na lahat ng gawain ko sa bahay at yon nga wala ng message na galing sa kanya at hindi ko narin namamalayan 9:45pm na manuod nalang ako ng youtube sa cellphone para magpa antok.Bigla akong nagising dahil gusto ko nang umihi at pagbangon ko sabay tingin sa relo 5:50am na pala hindi ko namalayan nabitawan ko na ang hawak kung cellphone nasa loob na ng kumot na naka balonbon.Pag check ko may message si Liam hindi ko manlang narinig ang tunog ng cellphone.You are up good morning sunshine I guess its morning over here,Here is just pass 9. Hey babe..Reply ko na may kasamang red heart sa message. Am going to be in a good mood right now my love.I forgot my nephew birthday is today and I promise him some gift but am down now.Are you at work?Chat niya na halatang problemado.No am at home.Maikling sagot ko sa mahabang message niya. Oh his in vacation at our home.Are you back home?Oh really?Oh my god are you okay?I love you too baby you will always be in my heart.Sunod-sunod na mga message niya na may kasamang apat na heart.I can talk you here alone I blocked my f******k too many girls disturbing me,I just want only you I guess is safe here I can I can talk to you alone.I blocked the account myself that was why I told you about it so you be worried okay?I love you.Many women chasing me and message me that was why don't you want me talking to other women? Me too when you told me about your ex I was worried maybe you going to leave me.What do he used your kids for?Hope he is not hurting them?I..if really you want to be with please tell me I want to start making visa and flight tickets here we're I work for you to come over here.We find a way to get you another job here are you willing to be with me?Nakakalula ang mga messages nito hindi ko na alam kung alin ang unang reply-an ko.Naalala ko pa yung sinabi ko sa kanya tungkol sa ex ko nung nag uusap kami sa messenger. "Liam: How about your ex? Me: My ex the father of my kids want to be back again after twenty five years of living together,He want back that so many issue that he don't want to fix and resolve then he want back.I said No." Its up to you to make decision for yourself now.No word can express my feelings to you now I love you unconditionally like I said before is just the matter of time we are going to be together and be happy family if you are willing to be with me in my world.Why is he doing all that?Then he never liked you in the first place.Okay I will work on that but I am going to need your details for that when I get in touch the man when I,Come back maybe tomorrow I will let you know what is needed okay?I will baby.I promise with the hold of my heart.Am in to you not anyone else.Wednesday July 5 2023. I will always do what makes you happy and what will make us happy both I will do anything for you.I really appreciate you baby I don't know where I will be with out you right now,you mean a lot to me.Love you(❤️❤️❤️❤️) Goodnight sweetdreams.2 missed call from Liam.

Hindi parin ako nagreply sa lahat ng mga messages niya at hindi ko pinindot ang apps don ako nagbasa sa notification pop-up.Good morning didn't hear from you am really worried about you please,I want to hear your voice.Pakiusap niya sakin.Chat me as soon you get this messages.Two days ko na siya hindi nirereply-an sa mga messages niya sakin.Gusto ko makita kung gaano siya ka sincere sa feelings niya sakin baka pinagtitripan niya lang ako na baka ako lang talaga ang nagmahal sa kanya.One missed call from Liam.Yan ang mga laman ng inbox ko may message din siyang sinend tapos in-unsend tapos mayron ulit na dumating emoji na umiiyak.Why are you not writting me is everything okay I don't know if I did, but if I find a place in your heart to forgive me its okay if you don't want to talk to me right now hope you have a nice day.Akala ko tapos na yung mga mahabang message niya mayron pa pala may nalalaman pa siyang maraming babae ang naghahabol sa kanya samantalang sa friendlist niya dalawa lang