LOGINARIA
Three weeks after the wedding, and I still flinch at every unexpected sound.
I’m in the chair beside my father’s bed in the hospital, my own eyes half-closed, when his fingers move against mine.
I don’t trust it at first. I’ve imagined it before, the twitch that always turns out to be nothing. But this time, I am wrong. Because his eyes flick open.
“Dad.”
My voice cracks on the single word. I am on my feet immediately, both hands wrapped around his.
“Dad, can you hear me?”
His mouth moves slowly. “A…ria.”
I press his hand to my face and let the tears flow. “I’m here,” I whisper, “right here, Dad.”
It takes him a long time to ask the question I have been dreading. For a second, I wish he could forget it ever happened.
“Did he… leave you?”
I could lie. For one tempting second, I consider it. Sparing him, sparing the look I know is coming.
I can’t do it.
“He married Victoria,” I say, “the next week.”
Something breaks behind his eyes as if he suddenly remembers something. “The loan,” he manages, “I caused this. I shouldn’t have borrowed money for the wedding.”
“Dad, please stop,” I am almost crying.
“I wanted them to see you were enough. I made it worse.”
“You only did what a loving father like you would do. You mean the best for me, Dad, and I will forever cherish it,” I caressed his hand, “we will pay it.”
He doesn’t believe me. I can see it in his face, the guilt already settling in. But he’s too tired to argue, and his eyes close again, and I sit there a long time after, memorizing the sound of his breathing.
As the day passes, I realize hope is expensive. Because the hospital bills keep piling with each passing day. The bank calls twice a day. I sit at the kitchen table one night and cry until I have no tears left.
There’s only one thing left worth anything.
The house.
I know how much my father suffered to build that house. He holds it in high esteem as the first house he built with my mother’s hands beside his, back when they had nothing.
After she died, he couldn’t even bring himself to live there, as every second reminded him of her. Yet, he sees it as the only connection between him and her. Even after Sinclair Group once offered to buy it for a million dollars, he turned them down without blinking.
“We have to sell,” he says the next visit before I even brought it up.
“We will find another way.”
“There isn’t one, Aria. I’ve done the math.”
I hate to admit that he is right. It breaks my heart.
“Uncle,” he says, “my younger brother has been calling all day, but he doesn’t have that much money. We have to just sell.”
Two days later, the property agent calls. I can hear the excitement in his voice before he even gets the words out.
“I’ve found a buyer.”
“Who?”
He hesitates, “Sinclair Group.”
The floor seems to tilt under me.
“They’ve wanted that land for years,” he says, “your father refused them before, but given the circumstances now—”
“I won’t deal with them.”
I end the call before he can say anything else.
I drive to the hospital that evening and tell my father everything. He is quiet for a long moment. Then he says what will unsettle me throughout the moment.
“We don’t have a choice, Aria.” He swallow. “They’ve always needed that land, and now, they can have it.”
His fingers tighten around mine.
“The bank has issued a final demand. 48 hours.”
I nod because I can’t speak. It breaks my heart, but this is the only way out.
I choose my clothes carefully the next morning when I go back to Sinclair Group. I try hard not to think about it, but everything there reminds me of me in the wedding dress that day.
The lawyer is already waiting by the time I arrive.
“I’m Aria,” I introduce myself as if I am new, “I am here as regard the property the company indicated interest in.”
He extends his hand for a handshake. “Sure, but the CEO wants to see you.”
I am sweating on my palms suddenly. “Is there any problem?”
“Not at all. The property is one with strategic value, and he wants to see you personally.”
I swallow and follow him with a dragging foot.
Damian is already at his desk when I am let in. He looks up, for one second; something unguarded crosses his face and disappears as fast as it came.
“Are you all right?” he asks.
The question lands somewhere soft and undefended in my chest, somewhere I thought I’d sealed off three weeks ago.
“I’m here about the property,” I say quietly.
He inhales. “Sit.”
For ten minutes it’s numbers and documents, value per acre, projected development cost, the back-and-forth rhythm of two people who were once something inseparable. It’s almost like before.
Then the silence catches up to both of us at the same moment.
“Why did you come yourself?” he asks. “Not the agent.”
“My father needs the money fast.”
His jaw tightens, something flickering underneath the posture. “How bad is he?”
“He is recovering,” I say flatly.
“It must have been that bad.”
I don’t respond.
“You know why I did what I did.”
My voice shakes now, three weeks of holding it together crashing now. “I never did, Damian. You never gave me the chance to.”
“You know exactly what you did.”
The wound splits open exactly where it never healed. I feel dizzy suddenly. I grip the desk to stay upright.
“When last did you eat?” His voice changes instantly to something that isn’t business anymore.
“I’m fine.”
“No. You’re not,” he’s already reaching for his phone. “Water. Now.”
“I don’t need.”
“Whatever happened between us,” he says, quieter, “you don’t need to collapse in my office.”
For one second, it’s him. The Damian from before the envelope, before Victoria, before any of it. Something in me that I thought I’d buried three weeks ago resurrects.
Then I picture Victoria’s hand curled around his arm, and the thought is gone as fast as it came.
Damian invites the lawyer in for the paperwork. I sign the papers with a heavy heart.
At the door, he calls my name. I turn.
“Take care of your father.”
I don’t answer. I don’t trust what would happen if I tried.
That evening, a photo arrives on my phone with no message attached to it. Damian and Victoria, leaving an event, her hand curled possessively around his arm.
I stare at it for a long time, reminding myself that I had not truly healed, no matter how steady I tried to be in that office.
I’m still sitting with the image glowing on my screen when my phone rings.
I look at the name on the caller display, and everything in me goes still.
Victoria.
ARIAThe last 24 hours have been nothing but hectic. I try so much to forget about Victoria. To forget that I met her.I don’t want to think about her words. Don’t want to reason through all she said. I go about my business as if nothing happened.I am folding Luna’s laundry, vibing to the music playing from the home theatre when my phone screen flickers. A text from an unfamiliar number that is not Eli this time.“I can prove why Damian abandoned you.”I stare at the screen, my chest tightening around the words that shouldn’t still have this much power over me, not after everything Damian and I have finally said to each other.When I think I have healed properly, something comes in to remind me I have only just managed to live with the wound. Just what this message on my phone is doing right no
DAMIANSince the story of Aria with another man broke on the internet days ago, I have not been myself.I read the story again, alone in my study, letting myself feel the full weight of it. Aria may have totally moved forward.She has allowed herself the kind of happiness I’ve spent weeks carefully, patiently trying to earn my way toward. Apparently, she found hers easily with someone else entirely.I have no right to the jealousy tearing through my chest right now. I know that clearly even as I feel it anyway. She owes me no loyalty and faithfulness. In fact, I am nothing to her other than a finished man trying so hard to fight his way back into her life.Even when I stopped visiting, stopped calling or texting, hoping she would miss me, or even care enough to ask me what went wrong, I received nothing but absolute silence and ghosting until I went back to th
ARIAI thought it was Eli who had refused to move on when I woke the next morning to forty-three notifications.Far be it. It is not Eli. Not Damian, Sonia or even Sandra Rejinders.Aria Cole, Sinclair’s Litigating Ex, Spotted With Mystery Man In A Downtown Bar. That is the headline.Goosebumps fill my body as I remember the lady with a raised camera disappearing into a waiting vehicle outside the bar. I should have known better.One of the photos shows Eli hugging me inside the bar; that was the moment I told him he was forgiven. I scroll down fast, my heart threatening to fail if I slow down. I am scared I might see my naked body in the toilet with the stranger.“God, please, I won’t try it again,” I whisper as the photo loads.I breathe with relief when I reach the end of the artic
ARIAWhen I get home that evening, I don’t walk into the sound of Luna struggling with her toys or watching her favourite show; I walk into the sound of laughter, and it stops me cold in the entryway.The voice is a male voice which doesn’t belong to Father, and automatically, I know who it is.Damian.His voice and Luna’s blend easily and effortlessly, high-pitched, enjoying whatever conversation they are having.I don’t know why, but guilt hits me immediately as I stand there listening to him talk to her. My stomach twists as though I’ve done something to him rather than simply lived my own life for another evening with a stranger.We are not married and will never date, will never come back together again. So why am I feeling this way?“Mummy!” Luna spots me first, bounding over in her pyjamas.
ARIAThree days later, I successfully left everything that happened that night behind and moved on.The deep conversation with Sonia worked so well. I also ran some tests in the hospital for STDs, and the doctor confirmed I am good. Now, I am back to facing Luna and planning her resumption while also living my new role in the firm.I haven’t heard from Damian since that night, and I am more than happy not to.One night while in my study, a text arrives on my phone. It is from an unknown number.“Hey. It is Eli. From the other night. I know this is probably not what you want, but I want to apologize properly for the money thing. I am texting now because I had to dig through your profile and socials before I could get your contact. I am truly sorry” My stomach drops with immediate, unwelcome recognition.
ARIA8: 35 a. m. Sunlight cut harshly through unfamiliar curtains, reminding me exactly where I am. Not my room. Not the hospital. Not Sonia’s.A hotel room I'd booked with a man I'd met just yesterday.“Eli! Eli!”My stomach drops. Dread takes over the shame that already settled over me the moment I realized everything. I rush to the bathroom; he is not there.I struggle to remember exactly what he even looks like. For a moment, it is as if I lost my memory yesterday while I allowed the flesh to control me.“What have I just done?” I whisper to myself, full clarity and consciousness returning. I try to remember if he at least used protection; nothing.When did Aria become this loose?Yesterday. While having sex with the stranger, my phone kept buzzing and would not stop. I was too carried away to stop and check it.Seven missed calls. All Sonia.My jaw dropped in shame again. How do I explain to Sonia that I didn’t pick up her calls because I was busy making out with a man I met at t







