Lahat ng Kabanata ng Flawed Desires: Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

#FD26 || Bethylia Monteamor My whole body is aching, but even with all the pain I am feeling, emotionally, physically and mentally, I still choose to stand from the ground and chase him before he can even left my eyes. Panay ang ngiwi ko habang mabilis ang mga hakbang na hinahabol ang papalayong bulto na ngayon ni Aaren. I bit my lower lip and winced in pain as I run towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist from his back. "Don't leave..." I pleaded while sobbing on his back. "I'm in pain, you don't want to see me like this right? Don't leave." Mas hinigpitan ko ang pagkakayakap sa kanya nang maramdaman ko ang kanyang pagprotesta. My knees are wobbling in weakness, heart is shattering uncontrollably while eyes are sobbing like there's no tomorrow ahead of us. "Aaren, don't leave." Marahan akong napabuga ng hang

#FD27 || Bethylia MonteamorI gracefully walk towards my grinning friends and rolled my eyes. Ang iilang tao sa paligid ay halos mawalan na ng pakialam dahil lahat ay nasa iisang tao lang ang atensiyon."Kamusta na ang tanga?" Blanche teased as I sat infront of them."Kamusta ang magulo ang buhay?"Ibinaling ko ang ulo kay Samm na nagsasalita ngayon sa unahan. It's her birthday and just like me, her heart is also broken.Ganoon talaga siguro kapag magkakaibigan, sabay-sabay nagiging tanga."Sinabi ko na kasi sa iyo, nandiyan naman si Mark. Handang maghintay kahit maubos." She chuckled.

#FD29 || Bethylia MonteamorWhen what you hear and what you see doesn't match, trust you eyes - Dale Renton-"Bakit umuwi ka ngayon dito, Bethyl? Wala ka pang isang buwan doon, ah!" Blanche chuckled while looking at me with her playful eyes.I groaned and rolled my eyes. "Alam kong tanga ako, huwag niyo ng paulit-ulitin.""Nakapag-usap ba kayo?" Samm carefully asked while worriedly eyeing me.Marahan kong kinagat ang loob ng pisngi at mabagal na umiling. "We didn't. We fight all day, that's what happened."Naiiling na napabuga ng ha

#FD31 || Bethylia Monteamor For the past days, Aaren's been tailing me nonstop. Ilang beses ko na siyang sinubukang pabalikin sa probinsiya dahil alam kong kailangan siya doon at maraming responsibilidad na naiwan pero hindi niya ako pinapakinggan.  Knowing what personality Aaren has, he'll really not bother listening. Pilit niya akong isinasama doon dahil ako raw ang sekretarya niya. I don't want to go back there, at least for now. I am still healing, I am still mending my ways, everything about me. Ang rami ko pang kailangang matutunan at hilumin. Hindi lang mula sa sakit na nakuha mula sa kanila, kung hindi sa sakit na ibinigay ko rin sa sarili ko. Being weak is hard, specially if you're just stopping yourself from everything because the fear inside you is dominating you wholly. "What's with you and Pedro? You got back together?" Blanche scoffed. "We

Days had passed like that. Ni hindi ko na napansin ang paglipas ng mga araw. And as expected, Aaren didn't suddenly showed up here even once. Lumipas ang dalawang buwang hinihingi ko pero hindi pa rin ako muling nagpaparamdam o kahit tuparin ang ipinangako bago siya umalis ay hindi ko ginawa.   I am not ditching him, I am just still at the procees of healing and improving and I know he's also still in those process.   Ayokong sa tuwing may hindi magandang mangyayari sa pagitan namin kung sakaling bumalik sa piling ng isa't-isa ay mas pipiliin niyang lumayo at isarado ang tainga.   I don't want him getting aggressive and being able to hurt me in a flashed of second. He needs to change his way of absorbing things first. Not through hurting, not through avoiding but through having a good and calm talk.   I stared at my hands resting on my table. I stared at it lovingly with a small smile on my face. I r