Chapter Forty Sitting in the waiting room, I waited to be called in for my appointment. Apart from the receptionist, who sat, typing away rather loudly, behind her desk, I was the only person waiting in here. I looked down at the table, to see if there was anything worth reading, but it was just the same magazine that had been here for the past few weeks… and about a year out of date. I kept my jacket on, for whatever reason, my therapist liked to keep the place cold, which wasn’t the nicest. I started bouncing my leg, nervously. I always felt nervous coming here, like I was opening myself up in a really intimate way… I guess in a way, I was. I heard the door of the office open and Looked up. Dr Roger was standing there, smiling at me. I smiled back and stood up. Stepping to the

Chapter Forty TwoMy revelation seemed to sober up my friends pretty quickly. As soon as the words left my mouth, I instantly regretted them, but I felt relief. I was also glad that we were in the garden and my admission wasn’t heard by the entire senior class... ‘I-I didn’t know’. Chelsea seemed just as shocked and horrified as everyone. ‘I didn’t mean anything by what I said, just-’ ‘Oh shut up Chelsea!’. Thomas scolded her. ‘You were being a judgemental bitch!’. ‘Hey, Back off!’. Sally came to her girlfriend's defence, although he had a point. A separate disagreement kicked off between the three of them, until Raven told them to shut up. I just looked at her, disgusted. SHE

Chapter Forty Four  ** A Few Weeks Later **As predicted, I hadn’t seen Toby outside of school still. I had seen the guys though. We met up for a coffee and lunch, minus Toby of course and it was nice having a catch up with them, but they had gone home now. I knew he was still trying to be respectful and give me the ‘’space’’ I had asked for, but... I didn’t want space anymore. I just wanted him. I made sure I was at every lesson he taught, on time for every homeroom. Make sure to pay attention and do well. Literally, anything I could think of to get his attention. I guess I can’t really hold anything against him. There is only so much attention he can give me at work, but... He hadn’t even at

Chapter Forty SixThe week seemed to fly by within a blink of an eye. I hadn’t seen Toby outside of school, however, we had been texting pretty regularly, even a few times within school hours, but it never really went further than that. There was a little flirting but really, it was almost like I was getting to know him again, falling for him again, and honestly... I wanted him back, but he hadn’t really said anything to the contrary and while there was a little bit of flirting… he would promptly change the subject. …but it was clear there was still a deep connection there. My parents were going to invite Toby themselves, but I told them I’d do it. In all fairness, I had no idea why they were even having a BBQ. They hated them, the food took forever to cook, the weather no

Chapter Forty Eight When i went down, I said my hello’s and gave my hugs to the guys and then grabbed a can of Pepsi and went to sit down by the pool. The weather was actually surprisingly nice and warm, so I took my shoes off and sat with my feet in the water. If the weather stays nice, I’d go for a swim later on this evening, when everyone has left. No one came over and bugged me, they just left me alone, which I was really glad about. I didn’t want to be rude and ignorant, but I also didn’t want to fake being happy when I clearly wasn’t. I stayed where I was until dad announced the food wouldn't be too long. I reluctantly decided to go and join everyone and wouldn’t you know it, conveniently, the only free seat available was the one right next to Toby. Sitting