Alexander's POVThe hour is finally upon us. I have never failed at anything as much as I have failed to save my son, I thought that I would have found him by now but it seems like I actually have to go through with the wedding. I am not even sure if I have the strength to do it. I woke up with one helluva a hangover and to be honest, I feel like getting drunk again. I did not have a bachelor's party but I drank till I passed out. I don't remember much about last night but this morning it feels like my life is about to end.I have been tracking her movements hoping to see what is that she gets up to, I was actually hoping that she would lead me to where my son was but that has not happened, all I have ever seen is her busy with the wedding preparations, she was actually treating like it was a real wedding when every part of my fibre wants to tear itself into a thousand pieces. How am I going to be able to pretend to love this woman? Jack was right when he said that this was my doing.

Alexander's POVI arrived at the church and parked outside, I couldn't bring myself to go inside because I know that today I will have to do the most difficult thing I have ever had to done and that is to do something I didn't want to do. I cannot believe that I allowed myself to be played by Tatiana. I don't know why she would do this to me after all that I have done for her. A few weeks before my father announced that I was to wed Ella, I was with her. I had taken her on as a sub and for years she has been the perfect sub but I was leaving the club for good. When you take on a submissive it is pretty much like marriage, as long as they are yours you are bound to protect them and I have done that fort her, I have given her all that her hearts desired, that will also include the modelling gigs, they were all because of me, I know people in a lot of high places and my recommendations are always the first to be considered and so I put a good word for her and she got into in the industr

Alexander's POVThey say that when life throws lemons at you, you make lemonade. I suppose that is what one should do in this world but I don't see how to make lemonade with these lemons. I feel like I have lost control of my life, like I was a puppet being pulled by the strings and I hate it. I keep on praying that everything goes according to plan because this might actually be the last chance I have been given to bring my son back home where he belongs.I have spent the entire week trying to find a way out of marrying Tatiana. I have a problem with people who force me to do things I don't want to do and this morning I was faced with that dynamic again when I found myself having to take the most hardest decision I could ever make. I do not want marry Tatiana, I have made that known from the beginning, I have no intentions of spending a year being married to this woman, I have the woman I love, the one I already married and I was not about to let her go. I was willing to go through

Ella's POVI fell in love with a man who was already emotionally involved with another woman. I do not have a single doubt in my mind about how he feels about me, I do not doubt his love for me but I saw something in that church and it scares me more than anything in this world. For a moment I thought that he was going to choose Tatiana. He looked at her in a way that he has never looked at me so I have to wonder if he is not in denial about how he feels about Tatiana. I saw the rage in Tatiana's eyes when she pointed the gun at me. I knew my fate and I had accepted it. She saw me as a stumbling block. I don't know much about the relationship and I don't know what really happened between the two of them but what I saw is that this woman is still very much in love with Alexandra. I also saw that she hated the man she was married to in the past. Gary is intense, I can't explain it but when he walks into a room, you can feel his presence. I know that I don't really know much about BDSM

Ella's POVYesterday was a bit hectic, I hate fighting with Alexander but I hate it even more when he keeps things from me. I am trying to understand the man that he really is. He thinks that he is protecting me by not telling me the truth but it the exact opposite of that. I don't want a man who is going to give me only half of him. I need to know the man I love, the man that I married in every sense of the word. I need to know his thoughts, both good and bad, I want to know all of himFor the first since we got married a year ago I feel like everything is moving too fast and I can't cope, it is no wonder I had a nervous breakdown. The problem with me is that I am an over thinker and that is seldom a good thing, that is why I need to be told information so that I don't make up my own conclusions about things. Just like how I wanted him to tell me the truth but he didn't, instead he chose to bark orders at me, telling me that I am not going to have an abortion as if he has the right t