The next day, I was waiting for my dad to come visit. He called earlier and asked if I wanted to go spend a few days at his place, I agreed it would be nice to get away for a bit. I knew Darren was locked up and wouldn’t be able to find me, I had everything packed while Jeremy slept. I decided to write another letter to Darren,‘Hey, there’s something I want to ask you, I want an honest answer. Have you ever cheated on me? I keep thinking about it, I want you to know I’ve never cheated on you. You made me feel so shitty about myself when I was pregnant and I’ve never done anything. I really loved you a lot Darren, I always have and I think I always will.If you ever want things to work out we need to talk more and work some things out. We need to be honest with each other and rebuild our trust. My gut tells me you cheated, I have come to terms with the fact you have cheated on me and I know you weren’t in the right state of mind. I have forgiven you for it, but I refused to forgive yo

I sat outside with Steve for a few hours, we talked and laughed. It was getting pretty late and I began to yawn, it was just about time for Jeremy to get up for his first night feeding. I noticed he slept better since we got here, most nights he only woke up once or twice. I think he just felt I was relaxed and enjoyed seeing the new things and place, my dad made sure to keep him busy also. They were always running to the store or going for coffee, he was a proud grandpa.I felt myself begin to dose off as me and Steve were laying our head against the back cushion talking, he had his arm over my legs. When I was just about to fall asleep, I felt him tuck my hair behind my ear and kiss my forehead. I went to open my eyes and he was gone.I sat up and looked around and didn’t see anyone around me, I went into the house and jumped into bed thinking about how relaxing tonight was and how happy I felt. I heard my phone ding with a text message,Steve: I sent myself a text so I would hav

Once I got home, I was missing call after call from the jail, I was terrified to answer. He knew either me or Steve were lying about talking, even though nothing happened I knew he would somehow turn it around. I closed my eyes as I could picture what he would say to me, 'So I take it your fucking my best friend while i'm in jail, real classy'. Once I got everything unpacked and Jeremy to sleep, I checked the mail and I had a new letter from Darren, I sat down and opened it,‘ Hey Kay, thank you for taking the time to write me. Jeremy is so handsome, you have no idea how badly I wish I could hold him right now. This place is hard-core, I’ve already been in a few fights, I’m happy you can’t see me, I’m looking pretty rough. I gave them a good run though, I had borrowed $50 off my cellmate to make some calls to you and to buy stamps to send letters. I also got some money for canteen, my mother is supposed to send me the money so let’s hope she follows through. I’m ready to make everyt

I spent the rest of the week trying to avoid Darren and get the house ready for Steve to come visit, I was nervous and excited all at once. I was looking forward to time with him but also excited for someone else to finally meet Jeremy. I received another letter from Darren, I didn’t even bother to open it as I waited for Steve to arrive. Jeremy was already a few months old and he was starting to sleep most of his nights and would stay up got a bit through the day. It was nice to start seeing him more it was getting a bit lonely here alone. Winter was almost here so it was getting a bit too cold to go out and do stuff unless we had a really nice day.It was just past 7 when I heard a knock on the door, I immediately ran to door and opened it excitedly as I saw Steve standing there with a big smile. He pulled me into a big hug and lifted me off the ground. He brought in a duffel bag and he also had a bag of snacks and drinks. He looked around my place a bit and sat down,“Well this is

It has been a few months that Steve comes to visit me every weekend unless my father was home, we both knew my dad wouldn’t approve of anyone who even knew Darren. I have been keeping all of Darren’s letters unopened in a drawer, I stopped answering his calls the first night Steve came over and Steve did the same.Jeremy loved Steve, he was beginning to crawl around and play, and when Steve would show up Jeremy would pull himself towards him with a large smile on his face.Every time Steve came over it took everything for me to not jump him, I was insanely attracted to him but I managed to hold myself back, we cuddled up a lot, a few times we slept in the same bed and held each other all night. He always gave me large hugs and would look at me with so much love in his eyes, he felt like my best friend but so much more. Darren has been incarcerated for about 8 months now, I was worried he would be released soon, but I felt safer when Steve was here. I was beginning to look for a apart