Lahat ng Kabanata ng A Place To Call Home: Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

 For a moment, Cailen just got caught up in the kiss, like he normally did around Asher.He just wasn't able to think clearly around the guy and really, that just wasn't fair. It wasn't fair because that made it harder for him to act the way he was supposed to act and it made people suspicious.He knew what he was doing was a bad idea. He knew the second he kissed Asher back, he had just blown his whole act to bits.He knew he could have just pushed Asher away, pretend to be upset or even just laugh it off as a drunken mistake. But he didn't. He should have, but he didn't.He didn't because he wanted this. He wanted this more than he knew and now that he was getting it, he wasn't going to push it away.Of course he wasn't thinking with his brain. He was thinking on instinct and instinct was telling him to kiss Asher back, so he did.He did and he earned the most wonderful sound fro

 He just kept walking down the driveway and down the sidewalk.He didn't know where he was going. He didn't have a plan.He could go back to Uni, his tuition and everything was already paid for and it was non-refundable so Eden and Dean wouldn't get the money back anyway, but the thought of going back there felt wrong.It felt like he wasn't really leaving and he needed to.He needed to leave and be done with it or it would end up hurting everyone even more.He just knew he couldn't stay there.He had fucked up royally and now he was paying for it.So for now, he would just walk around until he knew what to do.He didn't know how long that would be but he was thankful that the weather wasn't being a cliché right now with pouring rain and thunder.No, it was actually a nice night, a slight breeze that would have given him a slight chill if it weren't for the jumper he had grabb

 "Um, Sir?" She asked because it must have been at least a minute and Cailen was just standing there, staring at her.He just couldn't find his voice. It was her. She was standing right in front of him, asking how she could help him and he couldn't speak.He didn't know how he knew it was her, maybe it was her nose, maybe it was her eyes or her hair and that she actually did look like him, but he just knew.He had so many questions, so many things to say to her, yet he couldn't make any words form.This was a bad idea.Hell, the whole night had been a bad idea.How did he go from being at a party, to being with the boy he loved, to losing his family, to ending up staring at his biological mother like a fish in a fishbowl?Why did he come here? He shouldn't have come here.Why did he think he could do this? He couldn't do this.Cailen's feet were way ahead of his brain, one of them stepping bac

 "Cailen," Arabella said and he could tell by her tone that the happy chit chat was over."Don't take this the wrong way, because I am glad you came. I never thought- I never thought I'd get to see you but, why are you here?" she asked softly, leaning forward so her elbows were resting on her knees. "I mean, do you have any questions? Like, what were you hoping to get from this?" she asked.He supposed it was a valid question, and he supposed he should have an answer, but he didn't. He didn't know why he came here. He didn't know what he wanted to happen."I don't know," he admitted, still staring at the ground. "I- I just- I came here on a whim. I didn't even really think about it, not until you answered the door and- and then I really had no idea why I was here," he explained.She took a moment to consider this, probably just as lost as him."Do you have any questions you want to ask? I'll try to answer them,"&nbs

 Cailen's feet thumped against the pavement, the sun beating down on him making it too hot for his jumper anymore.He awkwardly took it off over his white tshirt while juggling his bag and continuing to walk at the same time, tying it around his waist as he hurried down the streets of Beverwood, focused solely on getting home.He didn't know exactly what would happen when he got there but he knew he couldn't leave without any kind of explanation.It wouldn't be fair to his family. It might be hard as hell to say, but he had to tell them.Even if they do throw him out, at least everyone would have the answers they needed. Of course it would suck if that's what happened but it needed to be done.Cailen was tired of hiding, of lying and pretending. He's been tired for a while now and he thinks he's finally snapped.He was kind of glad he ended up at Arabella's. He doesn't think he would have realized what he nee