I had nothing to compare this to, and I don’t know if that’s good or bad. I’m glad I couldn’t compare this feeling to any other moment in my life. I couldn’t compare Alexander to anyone else. Which reminded me that he could compare me and our kiss to his past. I’ve never held his past against him and won’t, but it makes me wonder if he is comparing me and how I measure up. ‘Stop overthinking things. Alexander is ours now and forever. It doesn’t matter who came before when we know there will never be anyone else.’ Helia scolded me. She’s right. Who cares about Alexander’s past when I get to be his present and future? So I let the thoughts go and melted into his embrace, enjoying his hands on my body and lips against mine. I was having thoughts and feelings I’d never had before. Well, may ‘never’ was a misnomer. I’ve fantasized about Alexander kissing me like, of being in his arms. Let me tell you this, reality is way better than fantasy. And when he kissed along my jaw and started

Did that all happen? I just had my first man-made orgasm, and it was with Alexander. It was very different from anything I fantasized about and felt more intense and amazing than any I’d given myself. I refuse to think about how he got so good at that. I don’t want to think about those that had him before me. Alexander is mine, now and forever. Not to mention he trusted me to let me take the lead. Now that I have his permission, I’m feeling nervous about it. Okay, in all honesty, I’ve been nervous the whole time. I’m worried I’ll say or do something that unintentionally triggers him. I’m nervous about losing my virginity. I think most people would be. He’s been with a fair number of others. What if I don’t measure up, so to speak? ‘Will you stop that nonsense? You’re his mate. No one else will measure up to YOU, not vice versa.’ Helia shook her head. She’s right, of course. Getting in my head and worrying about how I’d compare wouldn’t make anything easier, let alone better. I need

I grumbled, wrinkling my nose when I heard a knocking in the distance. The knocking faded, and I thought it was just my imagination. Then I heard the distinct voices of my sister Crista, her mate Alec, his son André, and his mate Darren. Only Darren and Alec’s voices were soft, like they didn’t want to be disruptive. Did they not want to wake me from my nap? They’d already woken me, and it was such a perfect dream. Alexander touched me in ways I could only fantasize about. He let me touch him. He even allowed me to tie him up, and we made love. Our lovemaking hurt at first. I expected it to hurt, but the pleasure was worth any moment of discomfort. It was such a beautiful and perfect moment. He told me he loved me and held me in his arms after. Who’d ever want to wake from such a dream? “André, we should leave.” Darren’s voice hissed, trying to be quiet, but I still heard him. “I agreed with Darren. We should not disturb them. I have no interest in seeing what’s beyond that door. H

I currently have love/hate feelings for my extended family. I suppose I should count my blessings that it wasn’t Mama and my sisters who decided they needed to ‘check in’ on Delilah and me. It didn’t make it any better when my cousin and Zio Alec barged into the guest house with their mates. We’d only been asleep a couple of hours when their not-at-all-subtle voices disturbed us. And when I say we’d been asleep for a couple of hours, I mean Delilah was asleep. As physically and mentally drained as I felt after we made love, yep, still weird to say that, I could drift off to sleep like her. It felt good to have her in my arms. That’s not new. It always felt good when Delilah would cuddle with me. This was different than before, as we were mates and naked. ‘That’s what made it better. Naked Delilah is good.’ Lucius interjected. I rolled my eyes and ignored him. While I fully agree with his sentiment, I am not in the mental space for it. Maybe if we were still at the guest house making

I won’t dismiss how formidable my Zio Alec and his mate are. I could understand thinking they could get away with messing with me. I left Incubi to be Beta in Madonie and am not blood to Zio Alec. However, it was a testament to Vittore’s stupidity that he would stalk Delilah. Crista showed the pack what would happen if you hurt her sisters. Vittore opted to ignore that when he went down this path. And for as many reasons as Vittore should have respected and feared my Zio and Crista, he will find out it’s not just the D’Amore-Fayte line he deals with. I don’t care if he knows or doesn’t know that Delilah is MINE. When it comes time for his interrogation, he will learn the true meaning of pain and repentance because I will teach it to him. And if Gianpaolo will condone his son’s actions, he’s on my shit list too. I don’t care that it’s his son, and he feels he should protect him and have loyalty to him. His son broke the law and used his position in the cyber division to do it. As the