Mistakes are what makes you stronger in life but what if you dont know your mistakes, what if all along you are living in a lie, you think you are doing good but you are already creating the biggest regret of your life, considering Mr. Barris decision and mysterious Sarah's sudden death makes my think of a lot of things.I am not sure about Amber's plan though standing here at the ER station with others that are involved in Sarah's case, I can see the trouble in their faces.Sitting with the chief and the owner of the hospital while asking you a lot of question is not a joke, I feel like being swallowed by the ground that no one wants to help.One by one, are summoned to go to that specific room that Amber provide for this special investigation and interview.They are all frozen to their position when emergency patient comes one after another but no one wants to move and check on them so I gave them all a death glare but it seems not to work so I pick up my stethoscope and head to th

12 years of being a doctor, I am out of the house for those years, I never get to ask my mother about things, even those hard time of my life I never seek any help or advice from her, I am not sure why I didnt but I am sure that I am avoiding her right after dad die, but after staying here for two years somehow we did has small talk sometime only but...just sometimes.I am back in day shift, so far I kind of liking the night though it is still depends on what is needed and of course Vannie rant on me so much, I just left her at night, I guess I will just treat her something next time.Waking up in the morning means to see my mother before she goes to her store."I am not sure but something change in you"She said and then pinch my cheeks and my arm."What?"I ask but she didnt say anything and just get out of the house after giving me that reaction like she seems to figure it out already but dont want to say it!I just hated that reaction she used to do with me and even with dad befor

How much it takes to hurt a person? when you know that it would be the best for both of you, even if it will kill you within, like what I am about to do right now, facing the smiley Amber."Hey, are you okay?""Y-Yeah...""Okay, what do you want to eat?""Ahm, I not really hungry...""Seriously? I heard that you just had your surgery with patient in 107""Yes, though I am a little preoccupied of something"After saying that, she suddenly stop from eating and just look at me, I am about to speak when she start to talk."You shouldnt think about it, it's just a kiss"I am dumbfound hearing what she just said...damn, why didnt I think of that, this woman in front of me isnt no longer Amber, I mean there is a possibility that it will be nothing for her."Oh, yeah, well I was just thinking if...ahm...well--""--it's nothing, dont get lost about it, last time I check, I am still straight...though I should say sorry for doing that...""Ahmm it's okay, like you said, it is just a kiss...it me

Pressure is one of the compensatory illnesses in the heart that may indicate a worse heart problem, high pressure is always the indication of something to worry about, and at this moment standing naked in front of Amber, I feel like I am having a high pressure within me...or I just simply feel pressured...her question is indeed squeezing me tight right now!"I-I don't know...I am not sure, I-I have been working for twelve years in different hospitals so I may bump into you somehow...I don't remember now, I am sorry"I said still controlling my arms from shaking while she is just staring at me that way, damn, I am not good at this, I manage to act normal and simple like I don't know her at all since day one but right now, her questions, somehow making me realize I am not really good on acting.Seeing her silent makes me really want to go to move and make a step a little and speak again."This has been a long day for me, can I just go home instead..."I said and then face the washroom a

"Charge 300!!! Clear!!!""Oh god Lisa please hold on!!!"And then I go back doing the CPR but the patient isnt responding anymore, the heart stops and so I need to call it.I look at the clock and then announce the time of death.I am still exhaust doing all I can but I guess not everything we want isnt entitled to happen, as doctors, as much as possible we need to avoid patient's death but the word avoid is overrated! dealing with death...or simply dealing with what we dont want to happen.At this moment when my patient die I just couldnt take hearing the relatives crying, yes I should be get used to it but I am not, I need to escape my ass from it.Still feeling exhaust I walk towards the cafeteria and have some sugar liquid, it really helps my brain to get relaxed.It has been four days after knowing what my bestfriend Monica tries to do with Amber, I dont know but I just couldnt believe she will end up doing that, stealing my position in Amber's mind, pretend to be me is just unfo