บททั้งหมดของ Loving you Again: บทที่ 41 - บทที่ 50

ESTHER'S POVMistakes are what make you stronger in life, but what if you don't realize your mistakes? What if you've been living a lie all along, thinking you're doing well but already creating the biggest regret of your life?Thinking about Mr. Barris' decision and the mysterious Sarah's sudden death makes me think of a lot of things.I'm not sure about Amber's strategy, but standing here at the ER with others engaged in Sarah's case, I can see the concern on their faces.Sitting with the chief and owner of the hospital while asking you a lot of questions is not a joke; I feel like I'm being swallowed by the ground, and no one wants to assist.One by one, they are summoned to the room that Amber has designated for this particular investigation and interrogation.They are all frozen to their positions when an emergency patient arrives one after another, but no one wants to move and check on them, so I give them all a death glare, but it doesn't seem to work, so I pick up my stethoscop

ESTHER'S POVI was out of the house for 12 years as a doctor, so I never got to ask my mother about things, and even during difficult times in my life, I never sought help or advice from her. I'm not sure why I didn't, but I'm sure I was avoiding her right after my father died. But after staying here for two years, we did make small talk occasionally, but only sometimes.I'm back on the day shift; so far, I'm liking it, though it still depends on what is needed, and of course, Vannie rants on me so much, I just left her at night; I guess I'll simply treat her next time.Waking up in the morning means seeing my mother before she leaves for her store."I'm not sure, but something has changed in you."She murmured, pinching my cheeks and arm."What?"I inquire, but she says nothing and walks out of the house after giving me that expression, as if she already knows but doesn't want to say it!I just despised the reaction she used to have with me and even with my father previously. Yes, my

ESTHER'S POVHow much does it take to hurt someone? When you know it's best for both of you, even if it kills you inside, as I'm going to do now, facing the smiling Amber."Hey, are you okay?""Y-Yeah...""Okay, what do you want to eat?""Ahm, I'm not really hungry...""Seriously? I heard you just had your surgery with the patient in 107.”"Yes, though I am a little preoccupied with something."After that, she stopped eating and stared at me; I was going to say something when she started talking."You shouldn't think about it, it's just a kiss."I'm taken aback by what she just said...damn, why didn't I think of that? This woman in front of me isn't Amber anymore, and there's a chance it won't mean anything to her."Oh, yeah, well I was just thinking if...ahm...well—""—it's nothing, don’t get lost about it, last time I checked, I am still straight...Though I should say sorry for doing that...""Ahm, it's okay, like you said, it is just a kiss...it means nothing...Hahaha!"I said, feel

ESTHER'S POVPressure is one of the compensatory illnesses in the heart that can indicate a worse heart problem; high pressure is always an indication of something to be concerned about, and right now, standing naked in front of Amber, I feel like I have high pressure within me...Or I just feel pressured...her question is squeezing me tight right now!"- I don't know...I am not sure, I-I have been working at several hospitals for twelve years, so I might run across you somewhere... I don't remember now, I'm sorry,"I said, still controlling my arms from shaking while she stared at me that way; damn, I'm not good at this; I've managed to act normal and simple as if I've never known her since day one, but her questions are making me realize I'm not very good at acting.Seeing her silence makes me want to get up, take a few steps, and speak again."This has been a long day for me, can I just go home instead..."When she begins to speak, I turn around and take a step towards the restroom.

ESTHER'S POV"Recharge 300!!! Clear!!!""Oh god, Lisa, please hold on!!!"And then I resume CPR, but the patient is no longer responding; the heart stops, and I need to call it.I look at the clock and declare the time of death.I'm still exhausted from doing everything I can, but I believe not everything we wish is entitled to happen. As doctors, we try to avoid patient death as much as possible, but the word avoid is overused! Dealing with death...or just dealing with what we don't want to happen.When my patient died, I couldn't stand seeing the families cry; yeah, I should have gotten used to it, but I haven't, and I needed to get away from it.Still exhausted, I head to the cafeteria and drink some sugary liquid, which helps my brain relax.It's been four days since I found out what my closest friend, Monica, is trying to do with Amber; I'm not sure why, but I just couldn't believe she would end up doing that; stealing my position in Amber's mind and pretending to be me is simply