All Chapters of Loving you Again: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

ESTHER’S POV(Continuation...) "You are right; I hate you, but I can't hate you every day; we both have enough reasons why we end up like this; I hate when you suddenly avoid me and stop talking to me; still, I am here on my position, which my heart is still trying to understand you; you see, even if we want to do things because they may or may not hurt us, we can't bring ourselves into it; even if you want to be at the hospital and save him, you won't be because things happen no matter how we stop making them happen.”Amber said that made me stare at her, and I wasn't sure how I should answer.I stay quiet and continue to stare at the ceiling."There are still a lot of people who need your help, and you can't just stop right now; David is brave and fights for what he thinks is right, and abandoning your work is not appropriate; he won't want that, Esth."I understand what she is saying, and I appreciate how much she tries to console me.I didn't say anything else after that and remai

ESTHER'S POVI resigned from the hospital two years ago, and even though I wanted to ask for information about Amber, I couldn't…I'm still blaming myself; I hurt her too much. My heart is filled with regret; I should have chosen her, I should have agreed with her, my heart beats only for her, and time and day have passed too quickly.I turn my back on Caleb in surgery and all medical-related work because I know I hurt him, I left him before because I can't keep lying to myself forever, I'm no longer in love with him, and every admiration I have is just a childish crush on him, so I had to make a decision, I needed to let him go and have the person she deserves."Esth, have you finished all the documents that need to be filed?""Three remaining and I am good.""Okay, better!"It's Sheena, my supervisor. She prefers to be addressed by her first name and avoids formalities, but I can't help but call her Ma'am, which she used to roll her eyes at.I now work for an entertainment company th

ESTHER'S POVI am trapped in my place... she is here, but why? My head is immediately churning with thoughts, and I want to stroll over to her and at least ask her.I'm trying hard not to take a step; I might regret talking to her, but damn if I do, damn if I don't... shit, every second counts, and she's now walking away towards the elevator.This can't be; I need to talk to her!I walk quickly to her and hold her hand, which appears to scare her.I'm now looking directly into her eyes as she stares at me with undeniable emotion.It took a few minutes of staring between us before I had the courage to initiate a basic conversation, however..."May I help you... doctor?"I stiffen when I hear that; how come she doesn't recognize me?"E-Esther ... doctor Esther""Oh, do we somehow know each other?"At that point, I was startled; she didn't recognize me, and I was trying to fathom what had happened to her before I chose to walk away.She was still at the hospital when I left... Oh, god! No

ESTHER'S POVSweets are what everyone needs after a stressful event or job. Pouring some liquid sugar into my cup while sitting here in the cafeteria, I nailed my gaze at the food counter, and suddenly my mind travels back to the past...Those moments when I used to see Amber cooking all the food we eat, I always find a good spot so I can see her doing her thing inside the kitchen, and then after she sits beside me, those moments...are they gone?I let out a heavy sigh and looked out the window, not sure if I should be glad or okay that she forgot when I hurt her, or if I should still find a way to talk to her even though I knew she was a different person now.After a little while alone, I receive a message from the ER, the same drill, same routine, and another set of stories from a different patient.I stand up and begin to walk to the ER, concerning Ms. Perkins; it has already been four days since I performed surgery on her, and Ellaine is now improving; a little easy communication w

ESTHER'S POVStill thinking about my meal, after that moment with Amber, I feel compelled to eat something I've been craving, an egg and ham sandwich.Because there was so much going on in the ER, I was assigned to the graveyard shift again, so I'll probably be going home with the sun on my face and feeling fatigued again.Going back to the ER, they're all looking at me, of course; who could forget that moment in which a wonderful doctor rants at the patient! As Amber points out, not everyone supports what I did, but I don't care right now; I am aware of my mistakes, but I am also aware of what I am fighting for.I'm walking to the station when Alice approaches me with her spiteful face."I hope you at least learn your lesson, it is obvious that the child doesn't know that, so you should not have a rant at his parents, who are patient, now our job gets more complicated this time!""Complicated?""Ms. Holist ordered everyone to be at their modest attitude with the patient, even the rela