Semua Bab Our Little Secret: In Love With My Professor : Bab 1 - Bab 10

EdI feel empty on the inside. I thought I would feel better when Al realises that we could never be but no. This emptiness and restlessness isn't something I had banked on.It's moments like these that make me miss the bloodshed when I was the alpha of Still Waters Pack.Those were the days I would immerse myself in killings and battles and business deals until I lost myself and forgot all that had been plaguing me. That's what I did when my mate, Cecil's mom, was killed and it had helped for a while.I was negotiating an oil deal with Nigerians when I got the call. Rogues had infiltrated the pack and several of our pack members were dead or injured. It was my brother.“Where is Athena and Cess?” I asked him in a trembling voice."We haven't found them yet," he said and I saw darkness. My world went dark and my eyes went red.I didn't care that I was with humans as I jumped from the tenth floor and ran. Yes, I ran because a car would have taken me longer to get there.When I got hom

AlMy mind is telling me to run and I want to run but a part of me refuses because why should I?Why should I lose the life I have painstakingly built for a whole year with pretense, secret tears and Emon? Why? Because of a man who led me on and finally broke me?Emon can tell that I am not okay and he's here with and for me as sweet as he always is. He is doing all he can to cheer me up from taking me to lunch, to the movies and even biting me gifts.“Babes, you don't seem okay. But you know that I am always here whenever and if you need to talk, right?" He says for the umpteenth time as we take the eggs and bacon on toast and coffee that he has made for breakfast and I smile at him.“I know. Thanks," I say and I can feel that my smile is stiff.We have been having classes for two days now and I have met Ed once and I made sure not to talk to him.After breakfast, we leave and as usual, I am dressed to kill and so is Emon. I don't love him but I am fond of him. He's been there for me

AlI can't believe that my evening and all the expectations I had just went out the window just like that.After Emon took me back inside, we didn't even stay for long. My chest felt constricted and my throat was hurting since it had started swelling due to the allergy and so, we had to go back home.All the while, during the drive, I didn't speak. My mind was on what had happened.Why was Ed back in my life and what did he want? I made it clear that I was over him when I left that night and I never intended to go back there. I didn't want to see any of them. As long as I kept in touch with mom and dad and I knew that they were okay, I could care less about my brother or Ed. They had both betrayed me.For the past year, I have really tried to build a life for myself and I was almost falling for Emon but Ed had to just come to my life and destroy all the walls I had tried to build around my heart.Ed… my first love. The man who made me smile. The man who made me have my first wet dream.

AlI am glad that the following day was a Sunday and I didn't have to go to school and thus, I didn't have to see Ed. I am nervous.No matter how much I might try to deny it, my heart still flutters at the sight of him. I also want to believe that he's here for me and that it's not a coincidence but I can't.This is the same man who slept with my brother and that's why Aiden had asked me to stay away from him. They both were having an affair behind my back and instead of telling me, they both treated me like a fool despite the fact that they both knew that I loved Ed.That's what's making me mad and that's why I don't want to entertain him. Who knows what his goal is? Maybe he just wants to hurt me more and I can't take it.Instead of risking what I have built here in Nevada, I would rather lose him because for a year, I have taught myself how to live without him in my life.I know that I am weak because I am an omega but that's how I have been able to survive among humans without bei

AlIt has been two days and my wolf won't talk to me. Since that morning I sent Ed away knowing fully well that he was out mate, Star got angry at me and hid. No matter how much I called, he won't answer me.Also, for three days now, since the day I had that allergic reaction, I haven't taken any suppressants and my superpowers are slowly returning. I can now see better, hear better and even smell better.The problem is, I also feel better and I have never known how heavy this mate bond thing is.I can't think of anything else and I think Ed is curved into my very soul because he's all I can think about. I don't even want to see Emon or let him touch me because it feels repulsive but I have to do it because he's the man who stood by me when I had no one else to turn to.Emon stood by me, fed me, clothed me, paid rent, helped with my assignments, held me close when my heart was breaking and didn't ask any questions and… I can't let him down.I have to stand by my word and never leave