《EYES OPEN》全部章節：第 141 章 - 第 144 章

We ask him on a Sunday.Not formally. Not as a presentation or a prepared speech. We knock on his door, the four of us... Rhys and me and our baby and Arlo who considers himself essential to all important moments and is not wrong, and Felix opens it in his suit jacket and different pyjama bottoms and looks at us with the dark eyes going from my face to Rhys's face and reading something."Come in," he says.We come in.His apartment is exactly itself... books and music and the improbable plants thriving in the windows and the specific atmosphere of a space lived in by someone who is entirely at home inside themselves even when they are lonely.We sit.He makes coffee.Brings it to the table and sits across from us and wraps his hands around his cup and waits."We want to ask you something," Rhys says."Ask," Felix says."The baby," Rhys says. "She is a girl. We found out last week." He pauses. "We want to call her... Clara."The apartment goes completely still.Felix looks at his cup.

She arrives on a Thursday.Not dramatically, not with a long complicated story... Just Thursday morning... early, the light coming through the east windows of the hospital room at the angle that makes everything look considered, and then she is here, small and specific and entirely herself, and the room changes shape around her the way rooms do when the right person arrives.Rhys holds her first.I watch him hold her.At some point I will write something adequate about watching the man I love hold our daughter for the first time but I do not have the words for it yet and I am not sure I ever will. It is one of those things that lives in the body rather than language, in the specific warmth of a moment you know you will return to for the rest of your life.She has his jaw.She has eyes that are too new to know yet.She has her own whole entire face."Clara," Rhys says quietly. To her specifically. Just her name, said to her directly, like a hello and a promise simultaneously.She looks