At a young age, Lushiane Meradeltas tasted the bitterness of life. Having an incomplete family is such a pain in her heart. But, someone caught her attention. That's the start when she tasted the sweetness of life. But conflicts started to show up, giving her a tasteless life. How could she endure life's challenges? If forgiveness and acceptance are the solutions to one's problem, can she do it? How can she be loved, if she keeps on running?
View MoreA wine that tastes sweet is rare, but the bitterness kind of wine is common. The temporary burning sensation in your throat down to your senses brings you an ecstatic feeling.
But those are just temporary emotions. As the daughter of a winery owner and the CEO for almost 10 years, I'm too eager to make a wine that tastes sweet, something that will let you feel that life isn't that bitter anyway. But how can I make it if my life itself is not that vibrant? My feelings are the reflection of every formula I make…that's why sometimes it becomes bland, tasteless. I heaved a sigh as I slammed the door shut and lazily sat on the swivel chair. Confused at everything, I almost smacked the keyboard with my sweaty hand. “I only used you, Lushiane.” My head is spinning, remembering those words is like a deep slash of pain by a thousand knives. Leaving me back to my darkest days when no one is there to light up my mood and mend my broken heart. Do you know how it feels when you are unable to let out your frustrations? It feels heavy, and the pain of it drowns you deeply in the ocean where you can't call for help. It feels like your heart has been twisted by someone until you drew your last breath—and that someone might be the love of your life. The one who you thought would protect you, always care for you, and love you for the rest of his life is the person who will make your heart scattered in the forest and leave it uncollected with pain. My heart is lost, maybe because I’m expecting too much…I loved him as much as he loved me. But all he cares about is money. Trusting him was my biggest mistake. I glanced at my reflection in the glass walls. My puffy eyes show me how emotionally and physically stressed I am. I only hope that I can go back in time and choose to avoid him rather than fall in love with him. Because loving him is my greatest regret. "Believe what you want to think! But one thing is for sure—" his cold eyes met mine. "—you're a fool! You fell for my trick and now, what?! I want to get back the money that your dad stole from us. F*ck everything! F*ck this love! F*ck your feelings! My family shouldn't be treated like that. But because of you, our life becomes sh*t. Do you think I will love you after all the hardships we have been through, Lushiane?” All he thinks is revenge…money. I got played, he won, I lost, and now, fate wants to play again. A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. I instantly wiped off my tears and cleared my throat before the door swung open. “Ms. Meradeltas, the meeting is about to start. Everyone is waiting for you in the conference room.” The feelings that have been buried a long time ago…get back on track to remind me of what has been done. “Is he there?” “Mr. Xalent? Yes, the head engineer is already there, Miss.”I blinked several times because of the closeness of our faces. I can even smell his manly perfume, which I seemingly thought he had bathed himself in the perfume because of the fragrance."Ehem." In an instant, I was estranged from Xalent because of my good friend. Goodness!"I-I'm sorry," I said, and I didn't know if I was going to walk or not, as if I was glued to where I stood because of his presence. Shit!He smiled and held out his hand. "May I?"I just reached out his hand, and he hung my hand on his arm. I can still see Aisie on the side, smiling like a fool. Furthermore, I, on the other hand, was anxious because of the impulsive beats of my heart, as if I was going to have a heart attack because of the extreme nervousness I was feeling.Shit! Am I doing it right? Maybe, I look like a fool.When we entered, I was amazed at how well they designed the ve
The next day, I informed dad that I'm going to sleep here at Aisie's house. I also sent him a message that I will spend the night later because there was an event at school, and I am glad that he still let me to, even if I make him disappointed because of my actions. I thought daddy wouldn't reply to me but he replied, saying 'take care' and 'I love you'. I just smiled and realized that he still cares for me even though I did that, I lost my respect for her.I woke up at ten o'clock and the gown was delivered here at Aisie's house, exactly nine o'clock, she said. That girl is full of positivity and always thinking that she might be the chosen Mrs. Claus and maybe Mr. Claus is said to be her lifetime partner. I just rolled my eyes because of her exaggeration.Aisie's imagination is really something.I’m also grateful to be here with Aisie. She knew I had a problem and she had witnessed my destruction yesterday, but
"Are you ready?" Daddy asked when we got in the car.I don't know if I'm ready, I don’t know if I will be able to smile at my mom thinking about the pain she caused leaving us. I don't know... If I could."I think so..." I just looked out the window when the car commenced.Today, we are going to meet my mom. And dad still wants me to talk to mommy, like the old times mommy is my favorite to talk to, the one who I want to sleep next to, and the one who I want to be informed about my dilemmas. My favorite person in my whole life, but she's the first one who broke my heart. The one who left me just to be with the other family.Sometimes I thought that she didn't like me so she left and looked for someone else. Sometimes I also doubt her love. If she really loved me, me, and daddy, or did she really consider me a child. Lots of questions, but I don’t know if I’ll get the right answers.
The next day, Aisie came to me early and reminded me that we were leaving at three o'clock to the shop of a well-known designer of gowns. I was sleepy when she arrived here at six in the morning, and she really disturbed sleep. I didn't want to face her, but she sprinkled water in my face that makes me so irritated that is why I just woke up even though I wanted to hit her with my lampshade.She said that she was tired of waiting for the time at their house, and she didn't have anyone to talk to there so she just decided to come here. I just rolled my eyes because of what she was saying, she just didn't want to admit that she's too excited.I bring her out of my room and told her to just wait in the living room because I was going to take a bath and she had nothing else to do in my room. It's better that she's just downstairs and watched, she's also used to it, sometimes she doesn't get my permission for her to watch Netflix downstairs.
Today is Friday and I didn’t come out of the classroom yesterday even though I was so hungry, I endured everything just so I couldn’t see him and couldn’t remember again the embarrassment that happened because of my shameless post. But now... Now I won't hide anymore.Why should I hide? And who am I hiding from? I shook my head because of my question that seemed like I was just fooling myself.Aisie teased me yesterday because of my post and what Xalent said and I'm really irritated, I don't know if it's because I'm just annoyed or embarrassed, maybe it's the same. I was about to hit Aisie in the face with my bag so that she stopped talking, and will regain back myself. Also, I didn't felt the presence of Xalent yesterday so it was really good, I was able to breathe easily because of it.But one of my concerns is the upcoming Sunday because I will finally meet again my mom, but can I do it? Maybe, when
"What do you want?" I asked and withdrew my elbow he was holding.Even though I look calm, I still can't change the fact that I'm feeling so nervous right now. It was as if my heart was the only thing I could hear at these moments. You are giving me the highest intensity of yourself, Xalent. I'm going crazy because of you and I don't know how to regain myself back from being a normal being.He licked his lips. "You," he said and leaned over to my side."You're kidding me, right?"Instead of answering, he just kept his eyes on nothingness, looking so serious, but when I started to walk, he followed. I heave a sigh at what he did because I could not understand him. He was so vague and seemed like he was just playing with me because of what he was doing."Look... I'm sorry.""Huh? Why are you apologizing to me?" I gripped the strap of my bag tightly. "Than
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