Joe Yo
Throughout our four years of college, Derek would always book train tickets for me and my best friend, Giselle, whenever we traveled home for semester breaks.
He always claimed he was too late in getting the tickets, so we never ended up sitting together.
Every time the tickets were issued, Giselle would tear him apart in our group chat.
"Seriously, Derek? You booked three tickets and somehow managed to put us in three different cars.
"Next time, you’d better at least make sure you’re sitting next to Iris, or I’ll be coming after you."
Derek fired right back.
"Who the hell do you think you are? I’d sit at her feet if she asked me to. It’s none of your business."
I bought their story.
Even when I spent hours sitting alone, or when I came down with a fever during the night ride and tried Derek’s number more than a dozen times without success, I told myself he was probably asleep in another part of the train.
Then came our graduation trip.
Someone asked if I would switch seats with them.
I grabbed my suitcase and made my way down the aisle, only to find Giselle, my jacket propped over her shoulders, and her head resting on Derek’s shoulder. The two of them were sharing a pair of earbuds.
Spotting me, Derek pulled out his earbud and straightened his back.
"Just so we’re clear, we’ve been careful about boundaries.
"I was worried you’d feel uncomfortable knowing we were sitting next to each other, so I kept it from you."
Giselle patted the seat next to her.
"I’m your best friend. Wouldn’t you rather have me sitting next to your boyfriend, making sure he behaves, than some random girl?"
Before I could say a word, a conductor came over carrying two matching luggage tags with a smile.
"According to our records, you always booked two seats together on all of your sixteen trips in the last four years. Here is a little something to commemorate your journeys with us."
The conductor noticed me and reviewed the booking information again.
"You must be the friend who always travels with them.
"That’s strange. Why do you always book a seat separate from them?"
The entire car went silent.
The truth dawned on me when I saw the discoloration on Derek’s face.
They had never once been apart during the train trips.
For four years, the single seat left apart from theirs had always been mine.