Cross Songs
Having grown up with her parents favoring her brother over her, my mother hates it when parents don't treat their children equally.
For as long as I can remember, our family has operated by pursuing equality over everything else. When my older twin sister, Cheryl Moore, fails to make the final round of a competition, I'm forced to withdraw even though I've been chosen.
Even though my shoe size is smaller than Cheryl's, our parents insist on buying the same size for both of us.
When Cheryl falls sick, I'm forced to take the same medication even though I'm not sick.
Then the SATs come along. I can't help but do my best and net a great score. Instead of doing as Mom and Dad demanded and applying to the local community college with Cheryl, I decide to try for Shinefield University, one of the top universities in the country.
Mom and Dad think I broke the family rules, so they start holding me in contempt and rebuke me no matter what I do.
Only when I agree to apply to the community college does their attitude toward me improve.
On my 19th birthday, I end up in the emergency room. The doctor shows me my medical test results. They indicate that my health is in critical condition.
I call Mom ten times before she finally answers. As soon as she does, however, she snaps at me, "Get to the point. I'm busy celebrating Cheryl's birthday with her."
Enduring the pain, I force out the words. "Mom, I'm at the hospital. The doctor says I need to pay 10,000 dollars as a deposit before—"
Mom cuts me off. "The nerve of you to ask for so much money! Throughout all these years, no matter how many times Cheryl has seen the doctor for her various pains and ailments, she has never spent more than 5,000 dollars! How dare you ask for 10,000 just like that?
"You know what? I think you're not sick at all. You're faking this because you still want to go to school out of state, aren't you?
"If you're really sick, prove it. I dare you to drop dead in front of your dad and me!"
As I clutch the medical report that clearly states I have pancreatic cancer, my eyes turn red. So they're still mad at me for applying to a university of my choice. They think I'm lying.
The call cuts off.
But, Mom, Dad, if I don't get treatment in time, I'm going to die.