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No one knew that I was a sex addict until the company's team building exercise. I had forgotten to bring my medicine along for that night and was assigned to a tent with a male colleague. I was in tears as I climaxed right before his eyes, and now that there was no turning back, my impulses spiralled further away from control…

"A... Ayah Mertua, ja... jangan gini, ini... ini sangat memalukan." Ayah mertua menahanku di depan jendela besar, dia mengangkat salah satu kakiku dengan satu tangan, sementara tangan lainnya menekan dan meremas payudaraku dengan kuat. "Apa yang memalukan? Lihat orang-orang di bawah sana, betapa mengasyikkannya ini."

Di ranjang rumah perawatan pasca melahirkan. Tangan kasar perawat pria menyusuri kulitku sedikit demi sedikit, membuat tubuhku merinding. Terutama saat melewati area sensitif, dia sengaja menekan lebih keras hingga aku tak bisa menahan suara desahan. "Bu, pelankan suaramu. Suamimu masih di kamar sebelah." Perawat itu mengingatkan dengan nada seolah-olah peduli, tetapi jemarinya malah bergerak dengan semakin tak terkendali. "Nggak ... ini nggak benar ...." Aku menahan gemetar di tubuhku dan mencoba mendorong lengannya yang kekar. "Bu, pijatan sedalam ini yang bisa meredakan gejalamu, jangan bergerak!"

After going bankrupt, I was given away as a gift by my former nemesis, Colt Reyes. My former lover, Emerson Snyder, the one I had played with the most ruthlessly before, now traced his fingers along my face, his hands roaming every inch of my body. "You sure had a lot of lovers," he said. I provoked him defiantly, telling him he was the most despicable among all my lovers. He gave my face a light pat, his suggestive tone dripping with amusement. "That's okay. Now you only need to serve me."

Aku sudah tidak bisa melihat sejak masih kecil. Tapi ibu asuhku mengajariku menjadi seorang terapis pijat paling tersohor. Hari itu, ada seorang pelanggan penting yang datang ke tempatku. "Aku bukan orang sembarangan, tentu saja aku mau mencoba sesuatu yang beda dari yang lain." Detik berikutnya, dia langsung menarik bajuku, dan menuangkan minyak pijat di dadaku. "Wulan sayang, pijat aku begini saja ...."

Aku menarik sabuk pengamanku erat-erat, memegang sandaran kursi penumpang dengan satu tangan dan dipeluk erat oleh pria di belakangku sementara aku sedikit menangis tersentak. Tubuhnya yang tinggi memeluk erat tubuhku yang ringkih, tangannya yang membelai pinggangku membuat tangisan dan napasku semakin sesak. Akhirnya aku tidak tahan dan memohon, “Jangan, jangan di sini, ya?” “Jadi ke rumahmu? Hmm?” Suaranya begitu dekat hingga tubuhku langsung melemas saat mendengarnya, aku memalingkan kepalaku, tidak berani menatapnya dan hanya berkata, “Baiklah.”

Buzzz… "Ah… Slower… I can't take it anymore…" Something hidden inside me buzzed insistently, and I squeezed my legs together, face burning as I sat in the corner of a dark movie theater. Beside me, my blind date set the remote down, reached over, and pressed my head downward while unzipping his pants…

"Sir, do I need to take off my pants just to go through the bone-setting therapy?" With flushed cheeks, I lie on the massaging bed. Henry Irwin, a therapist with an eight-pack, is tugging down my yoga pants as we speak. "If you want to have the best effects, you can't wear pants at all." Henry grips the hem of my pants before tugging them downward slightly. I quickly grab his hand. "I don't think that's a good idea!" The truth is, I'm already flooding down there. I'm worried that he might see how wet I am when he takes off my pants.

"I didn't mean to…" All I had done was catch the scent of my classmate's mother's stockings, and that alone was enough for her to drag me into a room and punish me for it. What terrified me even more was this. Somehow, unbelievably, my classmate was about to start calling me Dad.

Camila Campbell wollte nichts weiter als das, wonach sich jeder Teenager sehnt: Freundschaft, Freiheit und das aufregende Prickeln der ersten Liebe … selbst wenn diese Liebe an einem Ort entstand, an dem sie sie am wenigsten erwartet hätte. Doch ihr Leben nimmt eine verheerende Wendung nach einem Verlust, der ihr den Boden unter den Füßen entzieht. Und gerade als sie beginnt, wieder zu sich selbst zu finden, reißt die Rückkehr ihres leiblichen Vaters sie zurück in eine Vergangenheit, von der sie glaubte, ihr entkommen zu sein. Gefangen zwischen dem Wunsch, ihre Stimme zurückzuerlangen, der Last der Schuld und dem Drang, das zu beschützen, was sie liebt, muss Camila erkennen, dass Gefahr manchmal denselben Nachnamen tragen kann—und dass die Kraft zu überleben oft an den unerwartetsten Orten liegt. “Fasziniere mich” ist eine Geschichte über die erste Liebe, innere Stärke und den dunklen Preis der Vergebung.