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My throat tightens as I finally speak. “Seline,” I whisper, my voice trembling, “I am sorry. For everything. For not believing you, for letting Isabel come between us, for all the pain I caused you. Throwing her out of my life doesn’t erase what I did, but I need you to know, I was wrong. I was blind. You are the only woman I have ever loved. Please, give me one more chance. Let us try again. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you if you will let me.” I say. My eyes sting, and I don’t mind if she sees the tears forming. I am done hiding my weakness.

What do I say? "Please, just give me a chance," he whispers, his breath warm against my ear. "I know I've made a mistake, but I can't stop thinking about you. I know it's crazy, but I feel like we belong together. I want to start over, to make things right." "But what about Juliet?" I ask, my voice breaking. "You slept with her. How can I trust you after that?" He shakes his head, his eyes full of pain. "I made a mistake," he says. "I was upset and confused. I never should have done that.”

She asks. I want to lie to her, and tell her none of the moments we shared together in the past meant anything to me, but I can't seem to form any reasonable word in my head right now. “I betrayed you once,” I say quietly. “I won’t do it again.” It's my primal mate instinct working and not the rational part of my brain, so I uttered the wrong word. Maya smiles and slowly releases the belt of her jacket into my hands but as I reach for it, the fabric slips loose, and her jacket falls open.

I’m not sure why, but I feel she did the same. Silence stretched between us, heavy with emotions that words couldn’t fully express. Then, softly, I continued, “I’m so sorry, Jaan. I lied because I believed you weren’t ready for my world. When you expressed your interest in the meeting, I misunderstood it as a sense of obligation. I didn’t want to burden you, and yes, I was selfish, too. I was afraid of anyone stealing you away from me, my brilliant, beautiful mate. I know it is wrong and stupid.”

Can I hold on to that tiny glimmer of hope? But then I look at my hand, fingers twisted and weak. No magic, just the truth—I'm stuck here. I'm stuck with the ghosts of what I did. Callista. My love is my first and only. Executed because of me, because of my stupid jealousy, and because I couldn’t fact-check what she was accused of. I was a fool. Yeah, I know.

He was the one who slept with Selena, the one who betrayed me, and now he was turning it around, blaming me for everything? I stepped forward again, my fury completely overtaking me now. "You think this is my fault? You think I’m the one to blame?" I screamed. "I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask for you to betray me, for you to let her tear us apart. And now you’re standing here like nothing happened, trying to make me feel guilty for calling you out on your lies?"

“Yeah, that’s the thing, Selene. My reputation is already in pieces. Everyone knows me. I’m the kind of man who takes any beauty he wants—and I don’t feel guilty.” I stare at him, speechless. “You’re not even guilty about cheating on your wife?” I ask. He shrugs. “Yeah. I’d cheat on her again and again for you. I can't help what I feel for you, Selene. You drive me crazy. Moreover, there’s nothing she can do. She knows what I am. She has accepted it. She has no choice.” My mouth hangs open. “Yo—wait. Wait.” I raise my hands, trying to stop the madness. “So if my sister finds out you’ve been fucking me, she’s what—going to congratulate you? Tell you you’re doing amazing?”

"I'm not concerned about the past. If you think about it, I'm no better than her. I cheated on her while we were still married. I slept with Lissa while I was with her." I felt like such a jerk talking about that. If only I had known, I wouldn't have wasted my time with Lissa. I would have treated Annika like the gem she was. If I had known back then, I wouldn't have made any mistakes. "You're a man! Of course, you can do whatever you want! It's not like you were the one who made her sleep with you at the party! Have you forgotten how she ensnared you and your family?! She's a gold-digging bitch!"

He pleaded. "I want to curse at you so bad, but I have lost words for it. I have agreed to the fact that I am damaged. You just have to know that no matter how many excuses you give, it still doesn't change the fact that you have been fooling me and cheating on me. You professed your affection and how you will forever stand by me whenever we get intimate. Yet you fucked another woman when I was not watching. You are more dangerous than the serpent. If you had your way, you would keep me in the dark for as long as you can. I am extremely disappointed in you, and I wish my eyes were open enough to see that. Thank you for all that you have done. I wish you all the very best with your lover. Hav

“If you think you and I are even in the same category. I’ve done nothing wrong in my life.” “And neither did I. I never cheated on you, or slept with Sasha or whatever woman you accuse me of being with. Yes, I might have accidentally kissed her once or twice, but let me tell you—it was what it was. An accident. I didn’t do it on purpose. I was… mistaken.” “Mistaken?” she scoffs out a laugh, shaking her head. “Do you really want me to believe that you mistook some other woman for your wife, and that’s why you ended up kissing her?”