I love you my enemy
She has no choice but to shut her mouth, go inside in complete seclusion, and speak to God, whom she knows, once she learns how to pray to God the Highest.
"You, O Lord, see me and are aware of my innermost thoughts; nothing is concealed from Your mighty eyes." I am honestly realizing that I am still too immature and unfinished to pretend or disguise myself as someone else. “Olga feels depressed by her own self-knowledge, which doesn’t fit with what other people know and see in her real situations. They all make fun of her, making Olga feel disgusted and starting to get rid of them.