Novel & Cerita I Am Blue In Pain And Fragile

My pain was seeping back in. Every breath I take feels like swallowing shards of glass, cutting into my fragile resolve. The wounds of my pain, raw and bleeding, pulse with a fiery intensity that engulfs my entire existence. It's a raging inferno that consumes my thoughts, leaving nothing but smoldering ashes of despair in its wake.

I couldn't take it anymore the constant cheating and the constant lies and manipulation were just too much to handle. He made me want to fucking die. I almost relapsed and started cutting again. Over a fucking boy. That I love. But maybe that's just it, maybe he's worth my tears. Maybe he's worth my pain and depression. Because he's the one person I truly love.

he barked at a nearby staff member, his own fear creeping into his tone. He laid her on the bed, her body limp and unyielding. “I’ll make them love me,” she muttered faintly, her gaze fixed on a point far beyond the walls around her, as if she were speaking to a distant memory or a phantom of hope. Damian watched her, a knot tightening in his chest. “What the hell happened?” he thought, anguish mixing with confusion. At least Nora was asleep in her room, shielded from the sight of Blue’s breakdown. The doctor arrived swiftly, his expression serious as he checked Blue’s vitals. “She’s having a BPD episode,” he explained, his voice calm yet authoritative.

Ragnar lay in his bed, his body writhing in pain. The blue blade sickness had taken a severe toll on him, leaving him weak and helpless. His breathing was labored, and his eyes were shut tightly as he clenched his teeth, trying to endure the excruciating pain that coursed through his body.

If it is sadness, anger, loneliness, or loathe; she gives up guessing what is it. "Take a deep breath, think of your condition. I don't want to be kept alone and be more miserable than I am today" Red says as she held Blue's trembling hands. Blue doesn't know why but her heart broke after hearing those words from Red. It shattered more knowing she'll soon leave Red alone, facing the cruelness of the world. "I'm sorry..." Blue uttered, her voice nearly breaking. She gulps and takes a deep breath as she blinks her tears away.

His voice faltered and for a second his face went soft, almost pitifully. "You are fragile. You don't realize that, but I do." You're so fragile to break and I'm not going to be the one who breaks you with things you can't yet hear. Fragile. I wanted to protest, to scream out that I wasn't fragile, that I could take it but the pain in my throat prevented me from making a sound.

The crash of the glass had been a consequence of my turmoil, a symbolic shattering of the fragile control I barely maintained over my life. I was frustrated as hell. As Tami entered the room, she asked, "What happened? Are you hurt?" Tami's voice was laden with genuine concern, which only fueled my irritation. Her immediate concern for me felt like an additional insult. How could she ask if I was hurt? Wasn't it obvious that I was? But not in the way she meant. My pain was deeper, less visible, and more piercing than any physical injury. It was the pain of a love lost, a future snatched away, and a forced entanglement with someone I could never truly accept.

It became fragile, easily broken. Even small injuries took forever to heal. The slightest stress could send me spiraling out of control. Sometimes, I even felt like that fragility protected me. Since I seemed like 'too much trouble,' some of the worst things that could have happened to me were avoided. However, they did not let me off. They only became harsher. If something went wrong, I was beaten. If nothing went wrong, I was still beaten. If something in the house broke, it was my fault. If my younger brothers picked on me and I fought back, that was my fault, too.

Toes curling in the boots that she struggled to barely squeeze in to. Like an old dog, her mother cocked her head. “And why would I be?” “Because I’m miserable,” “I don’t hate you, Blue.” “You just love watching people suffer then?” Marian sighed. “I envy you.” “Why would you?” Blue paused. Set down the fork she’d been squeezing the life from. Scooted her plate toward the center of the table. “I’m sure you’ve been in communication with Sandra about my condition?”

I'm sick and tired of being here, of the people in this cerulean world. One of these days, I will venture into the sea I will venture into the sea, I will wear your color I will drink from your chalice, from the blue depth of love. Blue, blue like the moonlight, Bluer than every blue, I'm speaking of your eyes; those blue mendacities, Oceans of restlessness. Blue, blue like the moonlight, Too blue, I'm speaking of your eyes; those blue lies, The blue oceans. It'll embrace me, and I will submerge. - "It will embrace me, too. Soon."