I Am Blue In Pain And Fragile の小説・ストーリー

Where I no longer had to feel it. Pain changes you and it changed me. I was a naïve fool. Wore my heart on my sleeves for people who didn’t deserve it. Gave all my fucking best. In the end I was used and then discarded. The same people turned on me and broke me. I wasn’t going to allow that to ever happen again. So I had to kill the old me. “I need a run” Blue sighs. The wistfulness clear in her voice. “I know, I’ll find something soon”

“No. Only twice. At the fight and a moment ago.” She pauses, most likely cursing Anika for not telling her. “How?” “Trust me, if I knew, it would be so much easier to understand.” “What is she saying to you?” Her arms fold up over her chest as she glares at me. “That you won’t listen to me because you won’t even listen to her.” “I do listen to her.” “Not when it comes to showing yourself off. Blue, I know that the human caused you a lot of pain. That the scars will forever be a reminder. I just wish you could see yourself how I do!”

I paced around nervously while she just laughed at me. "Calm down missy." "Calm down?, I'm meeting his mom, his freaking mother Naomi, how the hell can I be calm?" Henry had called me earlier and told me to get ready, he said he'll be at my place in half an hour and we would be going to his mother's place. "You look awesome babe." "You think so?"I accessed myself in the mirror for the third time. Naomi had chosen a blue dress that was flair from the waist down because of my stomach. It stopped just at my knees and had silver decorations all over it.

The conversation I had with Miguel was nerve-racking. It didn’t leave my head the moment we stopped our conversation. It repeated like a broken record, continuously replaying in my head enough to not let me sleep. When he showed no feeling towards me, it was the moment I knew I messed everything up. I should’ve known better, not to hurt him with the anxiety I fed to myself. I should’ve been brave enough to stand up for our relationship but I became a coward. He wouldn’t have turned his back on me. He wouldn’t have been disappointed by my lack of honesty. And I couldn’t help but loathe myself, knowing that we wouldn’t have ended here if I didn’t become so fragile.

“Don’t think like that. What happened is not your fault and you do deserve to be happy. You deserve all the happiness-” Alex nodded then pulled away, Seb immediately pausing his words. “You know, I really used to wish you’d just stop calling me Blue and call me by my actual name. Cause every time you called me Blue it reminded me of the day we met. The day I so desperately wanted to forget cause it made me scared to think of living my whole life as a lie. But when you called me ‘Alex’ for the first time, it didn’t feel half as good as I expected it to. I felt- It made me feel like a part of me was finally shut out and it felt so, so suffocating.” “I’m sorry-”

Amarachi asked trying to control the roller coaster of emotions she was getting. Lydia cried more and shook her head. "How cruel life can be! This life is cruel! Look at you Amarachi, you look so beautiful. You are now with Jordan I guess. And then look at me. Everything is falling apart for me" "Woman will you stop shedding your useless tears and tell Amarachi what she wants to know. In fact we all want to know. Witch!"Francis spat with a loud hiss. Lydia ignored Francis insults and kept on weeping.

It wasn’t orange, or red—not even pink. Blue. All I could see was blue. Help me, Help me, Help me. I needed Sebastian. Where was Sebastian?! I clawed at my throat, sure that it was bleeding. Help me Help me Help me. Then it came. As sharp as a whistle, but louder than a grieving mate—I screamed. It came deep from my throat, but from my belly, and down to my toes. Everywhere shook. Blue. All I could see was blue. Mate. Mate mate mate MATE!

He dropped to the ground and I walked back to my trailer. As I walked, I came down from the high, the intensified my senses. As it left me and my head began to throb. Oh Gods this hurts. I was staggering from the pain, trying to make it back. Davin, I need you. Dane! I thought to myself. I made it to the door but I tripped going in. I crawled inside and everything came crashing down.

Ahana ****** "Bride In Blue...Bride In blue...Bride In Blue..." I yelled throwing all the newspapers on the floor that had only Anvi in it and the headline stated, "Bride In Blue". I was supposed to be the talk of the town but all I received was a small corner in the newspaper. All the while my marriage was the talk of the town but on my big day that bitch Anvi snatched it from me. I didn't buy a lehnga worth Rupees 40 lakh so that I could get a place in the corner of the newspaper. I wanted to be in the limelight and if not for that stupid girl I would have been on the television.

I don't have to be strong but I'll Take This Pain. I love you, Scarlett Rose.