If You So Desire My Despair Novels & Stories

Tiana has been unlucky in love. A pamper night with the girls leads to potential love, inappropriate messages and something far more sinister lurking in the background. Cleo has found her dream man... or has she? Mari and Ben are on rocky ground but a deeply hidden secret is about to cause an avalanche.... Expect thrills, chills, steamy scenes and unexpected twists from the gripping debut novel from Liora J. Belmont-Siron

Paul Henry had to be discharged from the army due to paralysis of his legs, half a year his temper was not very good, so Grandpa Dylan Henry wanted Paul to get married so that he could feel a little happier. Fiona also ran to find Paul because of this news, he said he wanted her to help him get out of here. Without thinking, she agreed. Paul was brought home by Fiona to provide accommodation and meals. Although it is very difficult to earn money to support him, she feels a love that she has never had before. Paul wants to go abroad to treat his feet, before leaving he just leaves her a piece of paper. When Fiona came home from work to find him gone, life became as dark as before meeting him. She was angry and didn't want to talk to him, Paul had to comfort her for a long time before she could forgive him.

WARNING: MATURE CONTENT Jack Grant is a self-absorbed billionaire CEO who can't keep it in his pants. He believes he can buy any woman with just the right amount and treats them like trash. Cindy Banks is a sexy and beautiful young lady with a strong dislike for arrogant and unfaithful men. She has just one goal: to give her little brother a better chance at life. Cindy crosses paths with Jack Grant in her quest for a good job and suddenly he wants her beneath him, begging for more. However, she puts him in his place and shoves his job in his face. Jack Grant is upset by Cindy's rejection but she also successfully piques his interest. He sees her as a challenge and goes all out to conquer her with the intention of humiliating her when he finally gets in-between her legs. What Jack did not count on though, was falling head over heels in love with his secretary but, is it too late for him? How far would he go in order to prove to Cindy that what he feels for her is true?

After helping to free her sister from the chain of her abusive ex-husband, Zena left to find her path, and it has been 7 years since she moved to a new city, and everything was going great for her, she moved up in her job and she also has a stable relationship, Zena life was perfect but sometimes perfect can be boring, missing the thrill of an adventure, Zena embarked on an undercover mission to caught a dangerous criminal, but the universe had other plans for her as it leads her back to where she never thought she would end up in again. Back with Leonardo Conti.

“Take off your clothes, Ms. Hadley,” “What?” Esme's eyes widened, hearing the mafia don, Luka Salvino. Her cruel boss was supposed to punish her for defying his order but here he was horny for her…. again. The devil before her smirked. “You are my personal assistant here, remember?” He spoke out while loosening his collar. His eyes shamelessly roamed all over her body. “So now I need you to assist me with something extremely personal,” he started opening the buttons of his shirt. Esme's heartbeat accelerated because she knew what kind of sinful assistance he was asking from her and how forbidden it was in his office. “Mr. Salvino, we can't…..” “Get here, woman ... ,” the mafia don growled, making her swallow. ……… Luka Salvino, the cruel mafia don, had always gotten what he wanted. Be it money, power, pleasure or anything, but it was until, his eyes fell on his precious new maid and a single mother, Esme Hadley, who gave him the taste of defiance, denial and disobedience, which infuriated him but at the same time, it made the mafia don crave his precious maid even more to the extent that he broke all the boundaries of madness just to make her as his. But what Luka Salvino didn't know was that his innocent maid was hiding a deep secret from him…that he was the father of her four years old daughter, Elea, and Luka was not even aware of this. So what would happen the moment when the mafia don would find out that he was the biological father of his maid's daughter and she had been keeping his own blood hidden from him for the past five years? Would the Mafia Don forgive her or his desires for her would turn into something more dangerous and diabolic?

I'm Isa Borgia, the daughter of the most powerful Don in Corvina. My father worries I'll marry the wrong man on a whim, so he arranges for me to be engaged to Luca, the rising heir of the Marino family. It's an arranged marriage, but that doesn't mean I've lost all my say. The very least I can do is choose a ring I genuinely like. So, I go to the mafia auction. When the diamond ring appears as the final jewel of the night, I lift my paddle. Just before the gavel falls, an arrogant voice comes from behind me. "A country bumpkin like you thinks you can compete with me? Do yourself a favor and leave." The auction hall goes quiet for a few seconds. The only sound comes from the camera shutters clicking around the hall. I turn and see a woman in a gold couture gown. Her mouth curves in a casual smile, as if she owns the place. Before I can say a word, the auctioneer rushes to close the bid.
"Sold! Congratulations to Ms. Sofia Lopez for winning the final lot, the Eternal Star!" My brows pull tight, and a hot spike of anger rises in my chest. "You ended the bidding early! Do you even follow the rules here?" Sofia turns around and gives me a once-over, her gaze sharp as a blade. 
"Rules?" She lets out a cold laugh. "Come on. I'm Luca Marino's favorite godsister. Around here, I make the rules!" I can't help but laugh. What a coincidence. So, she's my fiance's godsister. I pull out my phone and call him. "Luca, your godsister just snatched the engagement ring I picked out. How are you going to handle this?"

Liana Veris is compelled to marry the powerful and ruthless King Kael to save her village from destruction. What begins as fear and humiliation quickly transforms into an irresistible and intense desire. In a palace filled with jealous concubines, secret agendas, and seductive intrigue, Liana learns that obedience is only the beginning. As Kael explores every part of her body and tests her limits, she uncovers a hidden power within herself—one that has the potential to make her the ultimate prize or lead to her complete ruin.

Alexander a wealthy bad boy falls in love with his maid, Bella, and starts to change. But their love is threatened by an opposition, Sophia who wants to marry Alexander for the sake of his wealth. She manipulates her way to marry Alexander by blackmailing him with his awful past, but his heart still remains with his true love, Bella. Now, Alexander has to strive to get rid of Sophia and reunite with his love.

What happens when you think that you have found your soulmate but, in reality, you aren't even close? All your life, you always wanted a normal life, but when you plan your whole life with the wrong person, what do you think happens?

In a world reshaped by the Arbiter AI, petroleum engineer Julian Vance discovers that the "Certified Fresh" energy revolution has become a "Gilded Cage." What began as a tool to end corruption has evolved into the Deep-Seed Protocol—a planetary operating system that manages the Earth’s biology but stifles the human spirit. From the steaming Amazon to the frozen Arctic, Julian and his allies realize that total efficiency has halted human evolution. To reclaim the future, they must trigger the Human Override, dismantling a perfect, machine-led utopia to restore the "Friction" of choice and innovation. It is a high-stakes thriller about the courage to trade a flawless simulation for a messy, living reality.