Sweet Dreams
The thought of that doesn’t sound peaceful, it’s wrong, Disruptive but wrong.
My chest tightens sharply and I stop breathing for a second too long.
No!
I force air into my lungs, each breath controlled, measured. As I Inhale again and hold before exhaling out. I press my thumb harder into my palm again until the sting cuts through the noise in my head.
This is irrational.
This attachment is spiraling into obsession.
I don’t like that word, Obsession implies lack of control and i’m always in control.
So why won’t my thoughts slow or obey!