It's Impossible To Get You Off My Mind Novels & Stories

I've been in a daze for hours; it feels like I'm in a dreamland. "I Love You." "I Love You." "I Love You." That phrase keeps repeating in my mind, refusing to leave. It's like a broken record playing over and over in my head. Damn it, maybe I've been enchanted! I can't understand what I'm feeling. I'll go crazy if I try to suppress my feelings for him.

For now I'll just stick around till the lord sends for me and I account for everything I came to do on earth. "All Of Me" by John legend What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawin' me in and you kickin' me out You've got my head spinnin', no kiddin' I can't pin you down What's goin' on in that beautiful mind? I'm on your magical mystery ride And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me But I'll be alright My head's under water, but I'm breathing fine You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

That memory. And just like that, she’s in my head again. Fuck. I’ve been trying…really fucking trying…to get her out of my damn mind for hours now, but it’s useless. A complete fucking failure. My chest is tight as hell, and my heart? It’s just aching like crazy. Every goddamn step I take feels heavier than the last.

I just wanna ease the thoughts out of my head, I just wanna forget any of these is ever happening. But then, all my thoughts are answered by the soft sound of a voice; a familiar voice I can never forget. "Make it two."

I shout at the top of my lungs as my breathing gets heavier. "Because I can't stop thinking about you", he clamours. "I just can't. I can't get you out of my head. I keep thinking about you, missing you. I can't get any shit done. I can't work. I can't focus. I keep messing up things. All I think about is you. And I can't afford to lose you because of any misunderstanding, any stupidity. I can't let you go. I'm so— so obsessed with being with you, Tiffany"

And yet, you fools still treat her like some pure, untouchable treasure. "You're talking nonsense!" Before the perpetually hot-headed Harvey could react, someone else cut in. Alicia's face flushed red as she jabbed a trembling finger at me, practically yelling, "You are talking nonsense!" "Huh?" I blinked, taken aback. "What did I even say?" Heaven as my witness, I hadn't said a single word out loud. Sure, I might've been silently roasting them in my head, but I swear my lips never moved.

I’m drowning in it, suffocating under the weight of it. And then, the image of my father with Bahar, together in a bed, tangled in sheets. I try to deny it. I try to push it away, but it’s no use. It’s burned into my mind, over and over again, like a twisted, broken record. I can’t unsee it. I can’t escape it. I close my eyes, but the image is still there, vivid and clear. I can’t stop it from playing in my mind, from repeating itself like a song that never ends.

] [Please come back—I have a secret] [Dreamt you told me to leave you alone] [I can't stop missing you] [How do I make it stop?] [Please! Come back...] [They say the dead don't come back] [I took pills to see you] [In the hallucination, you said you loved me too] [I held you tight and whispered back, "I love you too."] [But you can't love me] [I tried to tell myself that your heart belongs to someone else, that I should just let go. But every time I close my eyes, I still see your face. It's like my heart won't listen to my head.]

I shake my head vigorously, trying to forget everything. Ugh, I can't erase Alpha Jett's kisses from my mind. I'm struck with love fever. I think I'm going crazy.

Remembering the twinge in my back when he’d pinched my nipple and his lips pressed to mine. Why can’t I get him out of my mind? “Because I’m in you now…” His haunting voice whispered in my mind.