Love You So Much It Hurts の小説・ストーリー

There's a burning pain in my heart and in my throat. I never thought he was hurting so much. Never realized he loved me so much. Even when I knew he cared about me. I suck in a ragged breath, feeling my heart splinter into a million pieces. With the back of my hand, I wipe the snot in my nostrils, not caring about dignity right now and suck the rest back in. “It doesn't make you selfish, Liam,” I pipe out after a long, hard silence. “It makes you human, flaws and all. And it makes you the only home my heart has ever known, no matter how broken. I love you too, Liam. I love you so much.”

Her voice… even when angry, it was music to my ears. “I miss you so much, Love…” I murmured drunkenly. “I miss you so much it hurts to let you go… I miss you so much I feel like I’m going to die…” I choked out between heavy breaths, tears spilling down my face. “I love you so much, Love… huhuhu… Jess… forgive me…” And then, everything went dark.

“I won’t hurt you anymore…. I love you so much. I’m sorry…It’s better for everyone if I’m not here to keep hurting any of you….. You’ll be better if you don’t have to keep fixing my chaos….. My stupid, my bad…..my toxic.” It’s bittersweet yet cruel. In all the years we grew up together, my sister has never once told me she loved or cared about me. It’s always lingering over me as a doubt that she might not even like me at all, no matter how many times I've told her I love her. It hurts my heart and rips a new tear in the already painful hole she left there. Three words I didn’t know I so badly needed to hear from her.

"Because my heart hurts." ‎

The greatest pain comes from my soul, which dissolves in tears. I feel like shit about everything that's been going on and everything I've heard. So does that mean I'm easily replaceable? There are so many girls that look like me out there… this is hurting me so much. I hate loving them so much. Shit, I hate myself for loving them all. I don't feel the strength to get up from the floor and as soon as I lay my body on the cold floor, I'm exhausted from crying so much.

She left the wall and tried to take a step away but she was brutally pulled back and pinned on the wall, this time he didn’t hold her hands, he stood with one of his elbow on the wall above her and another hand in his pocket, he continued to glare at her “I’m not done yet, what makes you think you can just walk away,” Hurt, Hurt, Hurt.. you hurt me so much, Love, Love, Love, I love you so much, Pain, Pain, pain, why do I feel pain so much?.. All Hearts !!

He stopped on the way out the door and spoke again. "And don't say you love him when you hurt him so much. Love doesn't say sorry, it's a responsibility to hold." He enunciated before leaving the house. "I love him so much, Aleajdnro. You know that! You know how much I love him that I would give everything for him even if I get hurt again and again! I love him so much that I don't even know what is right and wrong! I love him so much that I can't resist even if it hurts too much!! I love him so much!" I cried, shouting back. But even if I squat now and again, I can't get back to what I was before. I hurt him and hurt my family.

I never want to hear that but I did. It hurts. It hurts too much I want to hit this door. It hurts too much I want to throw the things that were around me. It hurts too much that all I'm left to do is to cry. It hurts too much because I know she's still in love with him. But what am I to her? Does she even love me?

I went out of my car and shouted on top of my lungs. I messed up so bad. I sobbed and sat on the side of the car. I never knew love could hurt like this. ⚘ little ⊹ lies ··································································································································

It's wrong, sick, and twisted, and yet, tears are already spilling from the corner of my eyes as I walk down the street. Love hurts so fucking much.