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''Sometimes I sit alone in my room, not because I'm lonely but because I want to. I quite like it but too bad sitting by myself always leads to terrifying, self-destructive thoughts. When I'm about to do something, he calls. He is like my own personal superhero and he doesn't even know it. Now my superhero never calls and there is no one to help me, maybe I should get a new hero. What do you think?'' ''Why don't you be your own hero?'' I didn't want to be my own hero I just wanted my best friend, too bad that's all he'll ever be to me- a friend. Trigger Warning so read at your own risk.

I wonder if I will ever be delivered from the hell that I have to live everyday. My dad has been a drunk ever since my mother walked out on us. I was only five when I realized that my dad was not like other dads. I had to clean up his messes. There were time I could not even go to school because I did not have any clothes to wear that fit. I knew that if social services got involved my dad would be angry and take it out on me. Things got worse when my dad became involved with the mafia. It was a way to work off his gambling debts. I was worried that one night he would not come home because he had gotten into deep with the mafia. That fear became a reality when my dad walked in with Joseph Rossi, the largest mafia boss in the state. “Selena, pack your things, you are going to be living with Mr. Rossi from now on.” I did not understand what was going on. “Why dad? I do not understand why I am going to live with him.” Mr. Rossi cleared his throat “You are going to live with me now because I own you. Your dad traded you to me to pay off his gambling debts.” I tried not to cry but I could not stop the tears - my dad sold me; I am now officially in hell.

After five years of marriage, my husband, Abel Brooks goes on a business trip that lasts half a year. When he returns, he brings his first love, Cora Garrett, back. She's already three months pregnant. Abel says that life is tough for her and wants her to move in with us temporarily. I object, and he tells me to know my place. His tone is scornful—it seems he's forgotten that the villa we live in was one of my wedding gifts. He and his family have leeched off me all this while. This time, I'm going to stop providing for them. I smile and call my assistant. "Draft a divorce agreement for me now. To think a live-in son-in-law would have the nerve to bring his mistress home like this."

Irene was loyal to her supposed fiancé but lately he seems uninterested than before, she decided to get to the bottom of this and realized that her best friend whom she had trusted all these years was her fiance's Mistress. She promised to make her life a living hell for them. In the process she met her handsome billionaire fiance and together they had dominion over their enemies but what happens when the one she loves loses all memory of her. A devastating time when she inherits all his enemies. A life she never asked for—Betrayal and Hate at its peak. " You've not done it before little kitten?" Alexander asked with a smirk " No". " I'll make sure you have the best experience " Irene: ".......".

One wrong move. One dangerous mistake. Miley thought the worst betrayal she could ever face was walking in on her best friend and her boyfriend in bed together. But heartbreak was nothing compared to this—now the mafia wants her dead. The only man who can save her is the last one she should trust: Clifford Alfonso—her ex’s uncle. Cold. Ruthless. Sinfully handsome. His offer is as shocking as it is inescapable: “Marry me, so I can give you all the protection you need. Nothing more…” But nothing between them feels like nothing. His presence ignites heat she can’t ignore, his touch lingers longer than it should, and behind his hard gaze lies a temptation more dangerous than the bullets aimed at her. A marriage forged in blood and necessity. A chemistry that burns hotter with every stolen glance. In Clifford’s world, desire is dangerous… and falling for him might be the most reckless mistake of all.

Dinala ni Naomi Mendoza ang kanyang anak sa ospital para sa isang consultation. Ngunit tila pinaglalaruan siya ng tadhana dhil ang attending physician ay ang ex boyfriend niya. Sa loob ng pitong taon, binago na ni Naomi ang kanyang pangalan, tinakasan niya ang nakaraan, at mula sa pagiging chubby na babae ay isa na siyang sexy at charming. Hindi siya nakilala ng lalaki at lalong hindi nito alam na nagkaroon sila ng anak. Hinawakan ng kanyang anak ang kamay niya at mahinang nagtanong, “Mommy, bakit ka umiiyak?” Hindi nakasagot si Naomi. Ang tanging gusto niya ay tumalikod at tumakbo palayo. Pitong taon na ang nakararaan, si Naomi ang naging tampulan ng tukso sa St. Aurelius University nang lihim siyang maging girlfriend ng school heartthrob na si Cormac Lagdameo. Inakala niyang tunay ang pagmamahal nito sa kaniya hanggang sa winasak ng malamig na tinig nito ang kanyang puso. “It’s just for fun. I’m going abroad soon.” Naomi ended that bitter love. Ngayon, muling pinagtagpo sila ng tadhana. Pilit na lumalayo si Naomi, ngunit hindi siya pinakawalan ni Cormac. Ginamit nito ang kapangyarihan, at kayamanan upang muling itali siya sa mundo ng lalaki. "Dr. Lagdameo, may asawa na ako." Sa loob ng marangyang Maybach, mahigpit na hinawakan ng lalaki ang kanyang baywang bago siya mariing hinalikan. “Naomi, let me be your lover. I’m richer, younger, and I’ll give you a better experience than him.” Seven years ago, she was his secret girlfriend. Now, he’s begging to be her lover.

Staring at the garden doors, waiting for her to walk in after her first shift, the doors swing open and I stuck in place at the sight, her long beautiful blonde curls cascading down the front of another Alpha's chest, her face buried in his neck, her tan legs wrapped around his waist as her body lays against his back. I stumble backwards, I can't breathe, my wolf growls in my head, "MINE!" Looking in the rearview she's waving her arms and jumping up and down in a white t-shirt. I know what she wants, and I'll need to go off grid until I can convince my wolf to take the rejection. I scream, "STOP, COME BACK!" as I watched as the small red taillights disappear into the darkness. A tear rolled down my cheek as I turned and looked at the pack house, my wolf howled in my head, "MATE, GO AFTER HIM NOW!" This isn’t how I imagined my 18th birthday would go. I return to the Alpha Academy in Denver, only to find him gone, I steal his car and now sit at a crossroad, my wolf stirs, "go east." I sarcastically laughed, "really and you know this how?" She giggles, "his wolf will direct him back to the last place he scented you, he's heading back to NY." I arch a brow, " we'll track our Alpha, and hear his explanation." Following the path of bloody bodies, in the dodgiest bars, I know I'm on the right path but finding a young girl with his scent all over her, crying in a car outside of one, not what I was expecting. He did it to her too, captured her heart and walked away, just like he did me. Now I want a rejection not an explanation.

"You're not my mate!" Beta Gavin Marino screams, his anger evident. "I can't accept you. No one will ever accept you after what you did." "I reject you, Gavin Marino!" The words stun me even as I say them. My heart aches, but it's what's best. He hates me. No one will ever love me. I cry silently, but I wipe my tears away. Crying doesn't change anything. I need to leave this pack before I lose myself completely. Gavin accepts my rejection, though he seems to be in pain, even though it's what he wanted. I turn and walk away, heading back to the packhouse where everyone treats me with disdain. A few days later, I feel relentless. I can't bear the pain any longer. On a rainy night, I make my escape. However, I'm brutally attacked on the border of the Sapphire Lycan Royal Pack. Falling in and out of consciousness, I hear a roar that shakes my core and the ground beneath me. "You touched my mate; you'll pay for this!" It can't be—it's the voice of the most powerful man in the realm, the Lycan King, Alpha Nicholas Lavista. I feel sparks and tingles on my arm. "I've got you now." Those words guide me into the darkness. Apphia's life has been brutally harsh. She has faced mistreatment from her pack members and suffered the pain of her mate's brutal rejection. Feeling completely alone, her circumstances take a dramatic turn on a fateful night when she encounters her second-chance mate—the powerful and dangerous lycan Alpha. Little does she know that she is in for the ride of her life. As things become increasingly complicated, Apphia discovers that she is no ordinary wolf. Tormented by threats to her life, she must confront her deepest fears.

BLURB: “I love you, Micheal.” My voice echoes through the living room begging him to accept me with the unborn child, hoping my husband who has recently become cold toward me will consider my condition. He stood there with his face, cold and tinged with contempt, fixing his gaze to the screen. He said, “I never wanted a child with you. Raise it alone—or don’t.” My heart skipped a beat. Tears began to well down my cheeks. ***** A modest young lawyer Anne was thrown into emotional turmoil when his husband ex-fiancee returned, suffering negligence. Feeling betrayed and devastated, she decided never to look back again. Blind love make Micheal to put himself to the hand of his unhealthy rival which resulted him to lose almost everything. When Evie was caught with Greg, his rival company and his intimate friend, Michael harbour a dark secret about Michael parent's evil in the past with his family, revenge sprang up. Michael sought out Anne , a top ranking lawyer that time. But will Anne forgive him with his past and her relation to his new husband?

(A/N: Hello sweety, I want to inform you and assure you that this book is certainly the erotica book you are looking for. This book is all about the thrilling sex life of a youngster, which is very erotic, steamy, and has a touch of dark relationship and dark romance (BDSM). (Do enjoy reading!) Snow POV I stare at the naked figure besides me in amusement. I still can't believe that this man is the one making me moan crazily like a mad woman. His dirty words, his touch, the things he does to me, and the things he makes me do, felt really crazy but enjoyable. My life has become engulfed by him, making me madly obsessed and addicted to him. If I don't see him, I will feel uncomfortable and sad. He has become a vital part of my life, my breath, and everything! He makes me feel so good; he makes me feel like a real woman. He is the only one who can send me to hell in heaven and drag me back. The rate at which he handles my body when it tangles in his, the sexual chemistry, the burning pleasurable desire, and the way my body writhes in his addictive touch make me go lustfully crazy. I don't know if such feelings ever existed before! My mother never mentioned this to me; she even barely spared time to teach me sex education. But here I am, having a bonus, a premium of the real thing, and the unfortunate part is that he is my coach! A 30-year-old married man! While I'm just a 19-year-old trainee of his!