Novel & Cerita Never Had A Girlfriend At 30

It would be so unbearable to have no one on my side aside from the kids. Even though I know full well that the best of friendship cannot replace the void left by a mother or a father. Or even a husband!’ I thought presently even while a part of me was wondering where the thought of a husband was coming from. I never even had a real relationship or a real boyfriend not to talk of having a lover or husband. All I had was an innocent teenage infatuation with a childhood friend. An infatuation which an unexpected night cut short. In my twenty seven years on earth, you are allowed to say this outing will be my first official date with a man. As a young girl even with an harmless boyfriend then, I

When was the last time I was anyone's girlfriend? In my first year of college, I dated this guy who I had a major crush on. I'd hoped he'd help soothe the loneliness I felt, but the opposite happened. Not only was I unable to open up to him completely, but he also wasn't the most attentive of boyfriends. After a couple of months, we parted ways. Since then, I've been team solo, only interested in guys who I could bed with no strings attached. I'm suddenly overtaken by a new anxiety. Can I really make a good girlfriend?

She is behind me insisting that I am going to new city and I should start leaving my life little bit and start meeting guys have a boyfriend and also loose my varginity at the earliest etc etc. Yes I am 20yrs old and still Vargin not even kissed a boy in my entire life never had a boyfriend. it is not like I didn't wanted too or I didn't get any proposals. I have got a good share of proposals but nothing interested me and I was very busy with my studies. Yes I am a Nerd with A+ Grades . I never attended any party in my life and was always back home by 8pm as soon as I finish my school and cafe shifts.

“No. Thank you, I can manage. It’s half the fun!” He smiled and she hid her nervous exhale. “You have a boyfriend?” She chuckled, fighting with her messy meal. “Ha! Um…no. I wouldn’t be here with you!” “I just had to check.” “You have a girlfriend?” He cut into his filet and smiled. “I’ve never had a girlfriend.” Her mouth slackened. “Never?” “Never found someone I felt this way about before now.”

She often told herself not to worry about others’ opinions, but hearing it from him made her feel validated. Still, she felt nervous, gripping her coffee cup tightly. After some hesitation, she asked, “I hope it’s okay to ask, but... you’re 30. Have you dated before? Why are you only now trying blind dates?” Daniel fell silent for a while. When he finally spoke, his voice was slow and deliberate, each word carefully chosen. “I had a girlfriend in college. After graduation, I didn’t have a stable job or anything to offer her. Even though she said she didn’t care, I felt like I couldn’t give her the life she deserved. I ended things. She got married not long after. And me? Without her, I felt

“So, you want to talk about it?” “About what?” I ask her as we start to walk back to the suburbs. “you seem like you have a lot on your mind,” she tells me and I don’t say anything. “I am sorry, I have never had a girlfriend before, and I don’t know when to stop,” she clarifies as she slaps her forehead. “It's okay, it's nothing. I have never had a girlfriend either, no need to feel embarrassed about it.” “so this was fated?”

My body was still humming from all the adrenaline, the sound from the TV drowned by our maoning. We didn’t go past our makeout session, friends didn’t do that. And I know for one I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from getting addicted to being with him. So it was a safe ground for both of us. “Have you ever had a girlfriend?” I found myself asking him. “No.” The answer was so straightforward. “You mean you’ve never dated a girl in your entire life?” “I was too busy building the company and taking care of my brother. There was no time to chase girls, I couldn’t let myself be caught up in the fast life.”

Six months of watching my savings account drain while my former classmates posted about their exciting new positions on social media. And now? I was twenty-eight years old. Never had a real boyfriend. Never been on more than a handful of dates that all ended with "you're great, but..." or "I don't feel that spark" or worse, being ghosted entirely. Never even made out with anyone, let alone had sex. While Dan was planning his future with Amanda. While Taraji had guys interested in her constantly, turning down dates because she had too many options. While everyone around me seemed to be moving forward, falling in love, getting married, having kids, living the lives they were supposed to live.

Did I say something wrong? "Just leave it at that." He finally answered. I nodded, and he drove in silence for a while, before I decided to ask something more pleasant. "Do you have a girlfriend?" "No." "Why?" He let out a sigh. "Nothing." "When was your last girlfriend?" "Never had." My eyes nearly popped out of their sockets. "You never had a girlfriend? How is that even possible? How old are you?" Now he laughed. "You are making it sound like such a big deal."

“You barely had friends of your own to start with, just a few work colleagues, high school and university classmates that breeze in once in a while, during the reunion and all of that. If you ask me, you had a boring and a lonely life, it was demanding and depressing for you.” He bit his bottom lips, a little hesitant to speak but he did, his voice almost a whisper, “Did I have a girlfriend?” “No,” I answered, my voice sharp and final. “Okay,” He pressed his lips in a thin line, his scent turning even more sour, “I guess, my life had no fun or spark in it. I might have been too busy to even have a girlfriend.” I remained quiet as I didn't want to give him any ideas, my expression calm.