Sweet Dreams
The way he laughed when he thought no one was paying attention all soft, unguarded, real instead of the cold steady mask he portrays on the outside and in public.
These were the things that ruined me.
At first, I tried to convince myself it was just a silly crush. It’s nothing more than that and crushes are harmless, temporary. They pass if you don’t feed them. That’s what people say, anyway.
So I waited, I hoped, I even prayed But mine didn’t pass. It stayed. It settled into me like some sort of twisted obsession.
That’s when I realized that this wasn’t just a crush anymore. That the type of feelings I felt was quiet, Patient and sort of Humiliating in way.