Seharusnya Aku Mati Mga Nobela at Kwento

She would rather die. ***

The very thought of dying in this town where only one or two people will actually give a flying fuck makes me feel suffocated. “I want to live on my terms and die on my terms.” “Then do that.” Gina suddenly says, getting to her feet. “You deserve that much.”

"But I'm not a tool for you to get praise and validation from others, so please stop bothering me." Before I left, I thought for a moment and added, "Oh, and there's something I've always wanted to say. If I could do it all over again, I absolutely would not save you, Adrian. I'd rather you had burned to death, because you're not worth my kindness." I watched him stand there in a daze, silent and unresponsive. I turned slightly to step around him and headed upstairs.

Everything goes blurry when I hear the last words they say to me before walking out. “He did not make it. We tried the best we can.” My world is falling. I have no purpose to be here anymore. I want to die. I want the world to just open up and swallow me alive. I look at him laying there lifeless and I have no reason to live again. Why does this keep happening to me?

After all, he was already dead. “Well, getting a paycheck sounds realistic to me. And besides, if any of this is real, which I'm willing to believe it is, I haven't played video games for nothing, have I? I never imagined having no motivation would work out this way, I think being dead is more fun than being alive.” “I am glad you find being dead enjoyable, but I need to inform you that you need to throw away anything you believe to be true and be prepared to witness the truth of the universe. Mr. Akira, please be ready. The system is computing…

“My face is ugly! It’s ugly! it’s ugly! It’s ugly! Everything is over! Leave me alone! I want to die! I want to die!” “Don’t say that sweetie” Her mother cried, trying to get her to calm down but Sakura was unwilling. She screamed louder and louder, dragging the sheets with her mother. “I’m ugly mum! I’m ugly! What is there to live for now? I just want to die! I want to die! Kill me now mother! Just kill me! Put me out of this misery!” She pushed her mum away and started tearing the sheets to pour out her anger. She threw down the pillows and pushed the table beside her, making all the objects crash to the floor.

Hope that I would die, so that the world would survive. Flashback Over

she insisted. "Can't you get Heaven we are dead so stop giving yourself false hopes," I angrily spit, I am tired of trying for her to see things with me? I understand she doesn't want to die yet, despite the misery and everything I don't want to die. Dying now means leaving everything behind, I want to be happy and enjoy my life far away from them all but here I am dead and battling with a plan to use against these mates of mine. "I can feel it, Mira we are not dead but just laying down on a mattress," I was snapped back by Heaven's voice.

Laughing until our sides hurt. Waking up next to him every morning. A future. A life. A forever with him by my side. “How did it come to this?” I choked out, slamming a fist weakly against the floor. “How the hell am I alone in a supply closet—dying?! At twenty-fucking-five?!” My voice cracked into a scream. “I don’t want to die!” I curled in on myself. “I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die, I don’t—”

Zachary is my home, but now he is dying because of me. I aimlessly walked to the side of the road, with tears streaming down my face. I don't want to live anymore if Zachary dies and the cause of his death is me. I wanted to die as well. I want to die. I chanted, looking at the road. Few cars were passing by, so I waited, and as soon as a car was a few feet away from me, I rushed in front of it.