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Zachary is my home, but now he is dying because of me. I aimlessly walked to the side of the road, with tears streaming down my face. I don't want to live anymore if Zachary dies and the cause of his death is me. I wanted to die as well. I want to die. I chanted, looking at the road. Few cars were passing by, so I waited, and as soon as a car was a few feet away from me, I rushed in front of it.

Can’t I? I don’t have any other options anymore, Oh God… If I can’t have him by my side, I’d rather die… It’s impossible I go on with my life with all these pain, misery, sadness, gloom, and nay darkness without Erito by my side. I’d rather die than see Erito together with that lucky boy whom he really likes and loves. I’d rather die… I don’t wanna live forever like this, with all these pain, misery and suffering. I don’t want it… I don’t want it...

“Akua I need your help…please” “So rude of you to just barge in my chambers and start blasting”. “I’m so sorry, it’s an emergency “. “What do you want child?”. “I need some sort of remedy or p..poi..poison “. “For what ?“. “I found a way to end this for good , I know you said there is nothing I can do but with clear thoughts I concluded that his death will set me free , I said till death do us part hence if one of us dies then it will be over “.

“Miss me?” Fuck, I'm dead.

Lets just bring you back fast so that Earth can get rid of this big burden. I don't deserve to live on this Earth. Moreover, I don't deserve to live anywhere. I'm just such a disgrace. Sorry mom. Sorry dad. I let you down. But.. But I tried my best. Even for your daughter.. My dear sister.. I tried my best. And I was the worst person, when I didn't even have enough strength to save someone so dear. I still doesn't have that strength. The live example is here. So, it's better to die other than just live & see others people's life ruin.

Ah, even this is bad for my heart when many died because of me, at least I saved Sena. Yeah... Think positive, Think positive. I'll just close my eyes and stop resisting for me to die peacefully. I bet everyone is jealous of me dying this peaceful. I know how you feel... Struggling to the bitter end but got eaten alive is something anyone wouldn't want. Umu... Umu... *Haa...* What a good short life... ..... ... .... ..... Yeah! What do you mean a good short life!? Like hell, I would end it with just this!?

Every word pierced his heart, but he couldn't let the one he loved so much die. Elena understood that no matter what she said, Aiden would never betray his Alpha and she had to accept her fate, but she wanted one night to cherish, with her lover, because after that she would be doomed forever. " Make love to me," she said to Aiden and he closed his eyes and put his forehead on hers. " Don't make me do this, only I know how I am controlling myself, Elena", Aiden said to her on his shaky breath. He knew that everything that he had done was wrong, but now he would not go further in his relationship with Elena.

frightening Not having the ability to move your own body, not having the ability to perform just like what you used to do… not having enough time to finish the things that you wanted… ‘I didn’t know that dying with actually knowing you would die would be this scary. It is not as if I am afraid to die. It is just that… the things about where I would be sent is uncertain. Whether I can still live inside that dimension or not. But… still, Kriston… I did what I can. If I can’t finish it. It is up to you. No matter what happens, please… tell my mother how happy I am to know that she is still alive. That, it is a wonderful thing that she is not dead. I mean it'

“Well, what do you want me to say? It's the truth. I should have been the one to die.” “There is absolutely no reason for you to die. You deserve to live just as much as she did. Admittedly, it is very unfortunate that she's no more, but that doesn't mean you should have died. You are just as much of a good person as she was.” I hissed, “I am not as good as she was.”

I have grown to hate myself. I should not live, I should die. Like my mother died, why didn't she kill me with her. It could have been easier because my life is a mess. Sebastian will live happily if I was dead and out of the way. They are going to have a child. I am just a nuisance. No one needs me, no one cares... "I should die..." "Yeah, you should!" someone said from behind me.