Novel & Cerita Wouldn't Wanna Be Anybody Else

I just needed to get away from them, and have some sense of normalcy again. I locked myself in my room with my sandwich, and as I sat by my desk, I wondered if this wasn’t the universe sending me a sign. I imagined a man in a white suit holding up a sign from the universe, with a single sentence written boldly on the white sign: EVERYONE ELSE IS HAVING SEX EXCEPT YOU!!! If even Aunt Carol was getting down and dirty, then why should I feel guilty about wanting to sleep with Beck Ryder?

he asked. “It doesn’t matter,” I replied. “This weekend… is a dream I will soon wake up from.” “Because I don’t belong in your world?” I shook my head. “Because I don’t belong in yours.” “If… if I was just Ryder, the bartender… would you want to be part of my world?” “I’m not ready to be part of anybody’s world. I was burned too much to start over.”

"You are gorgeous, you're smart and you're funny. If no one is going to love you for who you are, then it's their loss." "I'm useless Ice, don't you get it? I've been locked in all my life, doing what I was told. I want to be my person, I want to make my own decisions, I want to have fun, and I want to see life the way it is…I want to love, I want to live" "Now is the time…" "No. Because everything I touch always ended up being messy, everywhere I go, my past and mistakes always haunt me. I am wanted by bad people. Do you know how that makes me feel?"

I can’t keep going like this, it has to stop! I'm just tired of this mess and I want to be free from him for good.There is only one thing left to do! There is no turning back from this. Taking a large inhail I try to prepare myself for the pain I know is going to come before I say the words that are going to damage the bond.

I didn’t know. " I want to be...I have to be someone else. " I scratched my face, trying to change what I was. But after admitting my desire to be someone else, all I could do was scream and cry. The world was nothing but a blur, and I had to accept things as they were for me.

Nothing I can offer will equal what you have given me. I don't want to share my future with anyone other than you. I don't want someone else to try and make me happy. Is it selfish? That I will only ever want you and you alone. Maybe. Probably, but honestly, I don't give a shit what everybody else thinks. I want you to be the only man that watches me smile when I explore new and exciting places, wrapping his arms around me, touching, kissing. I want to belong to you and only you!

Never again Has someone already told me that my life would end up being this hard? I bet no. Because I wasn't prepared. I... No one is prepared. B-but I never thought my life would be this difficult. I never thought that the day would come when I don't even want be alive...that I would rather wish be gone. I didn't think I would choose to be selfish on this. I just want to disappear from the world because of what is happening to me.

“You don’t have to prove anything to anyone, you know.” “I’m not.” He gave me a look. “Okay,” I muttered. “Maybe I am. A little.” Jason was quiet for a second, then said, “He’s not a bad guy. But he’s not your guy.” “I don’t have a guy,” I snapped. “And maybe that’s the problem. Maybe I’m tired of being nobody’s choice.” Jason didn’t flinch. “Then be your choice.” “That’s not how it works.” “Why not?”

"I'm sure you would realize that anyone is better than that scam.” "Even when I'm not comparing, things just don't work out! "I grumbled, hitting my feet hard on the ground. "I just wanted to know how to relate as an ordinary person. I just wanted not to create expectations or be afraid to act as I really am. I wanted to...”