Your Not Hurting Me This Time Novels & Stories

“Take all the time you need. We’re in no rush. It’s just us now.” A few hours later, I stirred and, to my relief, found that whatever Jane and Shi had managed between them had caused my pain to drop drastically. /It’s going to heal. We’re out of the woods now. We might have a small limp, but you’re going to be fine/

I don't want that to happen again. "I just...I don't want to hurt you. Just now, I almost hit you. If you hadn't been quick and dodged it, I don't know what would have happened to you. I can't bear the thought of me being the reason why you are hurt. I don't think I'll be able to deal with it at all" I said.

"All right. I guess I can accept that, but please understand that I do not want to hurt you. So next time even if it is just a bit uncomfortable let me know. I-I need that, please." I nodded emphatically. I felt excited that he was already talking about the next time as if he were absolutely certain there would be one. He was so worried about hurting me that it warmed my heart so much that I felt it swell inside. I already felt safe around him and this statement made me feel that I was right to put my trust in him. I just hope I could explain to him that he hadn't hurt me on purpose or in any way that I couldn't handle.

He removed his hands and pulled away and leaned on the desk, "One more thing, stop getting scared by me. You know it, I can never hurt you in any way. It made my heart clench to see you like this." he said monotonously. I bit my lips and held his hands and began to say, "I know you can never think to hurt me let alone to do it. I am sorry. I won't do it again."

"I told you you dont need to do that, it's my fault for running into the table not the other way around." "I dont care, I will remove anything that can hurt you. That is what I can give you." Can you turn back time to the moment we met so I have a chance to meet you fresh and not lie to you because that is what is hurting me the most right now. "This will sting a little." He says before brushing the cotton over my skin. I felt the burn but I was more focused on the way his thumb brushed my leg as he held me close before lowering his mouth to blow on the cut.

And even though his voice is quiet, it carries through the space around us, cutting straight through me. I shake my head. “No.” My voice stays even, but there’s a twist in my chest I can’t quite ignore. My next words come before I can stop them. “I’ve stopped giving anyone a chance to hurt me. So you don’t need to worry.” I pause for a second, the sarcasm curling at the edge of my mouth. “Oh wait... you already don’t.”

The gut to even think that, stings even more. “Shut the hell up and listen here,” I bark, my voice cut through the air. “I didn’t harass you. You hear me?” I warn. But the more I look into her face trying to sound firm, the more her charming face grips tight on me, causing my muscles to weaken. I drop my jacket in a stool and take a step closer. “I didn't plan it okay!” I say, my voice is low. “And I damn well didn’t mean to hurt you.”

I pulled back slightly, looking up at him through blurred vision. “How?” His thumb brushed a tear from my cheek. “Because you’re not the same person anymore.” My breath hitched. “And because…” he hesitated for just a second. Then said it anyway. “You’re not alone this time.” Something in my chest twisted painfully. Because I wanted to believe him. God, I wanted to. But fear doesn’t disappear just because someone says the right words. “I don’t want you to get hurt because of me,” I said softly. A faint smile touched his lips.

I looked away. “That I might hurt someone.” The words felt heavy in my mouth. Real. Honest. Lucas sat up slowly, pulling me up with him. “You didn’t hurt anyone,” he said firmly. “Not this time.” “There won’t be a next time like that.” “You don’t know that,” I said quietly. He held my shoulders gently. “Then we make sure there isn’t.” I wanted to believe him. I really did. But something inside me had changed. And I could feel it.

But still. “I don't want to hurt you” I whispered over his lips, pulling back slightly to catch my breath. Something in his expression shifted, “I can't tell you” I said softly, panting hard He exhaled, his thumb brushed lightly along my jaw, the touch was so gentle it made my heart flutter “Is someone hurting you?” I shook my head, “No. No one is, I'm not in any danger” A look of contemplation fell over his face so I pressed on