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Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most?
Last Updated : 2025-07-01
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Jude Queens never believed in fairytales—until Malachi Flynn crashed into his world with a grin like summer and a spike that could stop time. Bound by their shared love for volleyball, their chemistry burned bright and fast, leaving everything else in the shadows. But just as Jude opened his heart, Malachi vanished without a word. Two years later, Malachi returns—older, familiar, and still devastatingly magnetic. The moment they lock eyes, the ache returns. So does the desire. But buried beneath Malachi’s smile are secrets that could shatter them both. Torn between anger and longing, Jude must decide: can he forgive the boy who left him in pieces, or is some pain too deep to heal? “Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most?” is a sizzling, tender story of second chances, the scars we carry, and the hope that love—real, soul-deep love—can echo back stronger than before.
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CHAPTER 1
Jude Queens hated going to these things. High school parties had been bad enough, but college parties? They were a whole new type of terrible. The air was thick with mingling scents of sweat, cheap cologne, and spilled alcohol. There was no
way to makeit to the bathroom, and if you did,itwasworsethandisgusting—sticky floors, overflowing trash cans, and unmentionable substances on allsurfaces. Missing these gatherings was his MO, but they'd just won a game tonight, and Yon and Klaus just wouldnot let him stay home. It wasnot like he was any fun at them, anyway. He didn't drink, didn't smoke, anddid not have any intentionsongettinginvolved with anyone. Andyet here he was, holding a red cup ofwhat was probably stale beer. He sniffed it; yeah, beer."Can you at least try to look like youare not in hell right now, Jud? Can you do that? For me?" Yon asked. Jude shothim a look in response. "You said I could gohome after one drink."You haven't even touched it! It's been an hour, and I havenot seen you take asingle sip.Please, just have one sip," Yon said. Jude sighed
dramaticallybeforehebroughtthe cup to his lips. God, that was disgusting. He grimaced, and Yon burst into laughter."Did he actually try it?" Klaus asked. Yon shrugged."I did try it. You said one sip. I maygo now," Jude saidto Yon."We'remeant to be celebrating. This ismeant to be a celebration. We won the tournament; you won your first college tournament! Don't you think we'reentitledto this?" Yon said, clearly exasperated with Jude. Jude rolled his eyes. Why would Yon even want him here? “I’m happy, but this is just not my idea of a celebration,” he pointed out. He surveyed the room again—bad music and people gyrating against each other, covered in sweat…ugh. The dim lighting and flashing neon created an almost surreal, disorienting atmosphere, amplifying his discomfort."Come on, a big swallow," Klaus coaxed, pushing the cup upwardsagainst Jude's lips and making him tilt his head back and swallowsomemore. Jude scowled, the bitterness stinging on his tongue. "I liked you better when you were scared of me.""I wasn'tever scared of you. I just didn't realize you were a softie under all the glaring," Klaus said back, his faceflushed. He'dprobably hadafewwarm beers by then."Wehave to go to the gym tomorrow," Jude said,reminding him, and Klaus shook his headandlooked away. Yon and Klaus were both sophomores, a year older than Jude. Klaus had attendedJude's high school, sohefeltobligatedtoJude. They'dtakenJude under their wing since they started school three months prior. They didn'thaveany classes together but sharedthe volleyball team, which constituted Jude's life. Jude was on asports scholarship, after all. They didattempt to be Jude'sfriend, and Jude wasaware he wasnot always the easiest guy to befriends with. Jude sighed and took another drink without being prompted. Surprised, they both turned to him, the glee evident on their faces. Jude drank and tried to smother his smile. “I’m so proud of you,” Yon said while Klaus clutched his hand to his chest in a mock impression of a proud parent. “Don’t get too excited about it,” Jude told him.Agirlwhowas drunk andheadingto the bathroomcrashedintoJude. She apologized,turningaround,and smiled at him. Since Jude didnot smile back, she proceededwithanstrangeglanceathim. "He's not mean; it's just his face," Klaus called out. Jude gavehima horrified look. "Could you not do that, maybe?""Would you not look asif you're going to killeverypersonin this room?" Klaus asked, taking a huge gulp of his beer and revelingin it. Jude gave him a half-hearted fake smile."Oh, so cute," Klaus said, stretching out to pinch Jude's cheek. Jude slapped his hand away. Yon called out a name and stepped away from the individual. Jude turned, watching him talk to a man who had passedby them. Jude didnotcatch his face."Drinkup. I'm getting you another one," Klaus said."You said one drink," Jude protested."Oh, my god, you're such a baby. Just drink the beer," Klaus muttered. Jude took another drink. He turned back to Yon, hoping he would keep his one-drink promise, and choked on it. Wow."Are you okay?" Klaus asked him. Jude turned to him and waved vaguely. He wasable to work his throat around the drink and coughed a fewtimes while Klaus whacked his back."I'm fine," Jude said, not at all feeling fine. Yon was still talking to the guy he'dyelledat, and he was just…wow. Jude had never beenquite so instantly attracted to someonehe'djust seen, not like this. The way he stood with his hands halfin the pockets of his jeans, to the smile he gave Yon, he just looked perfect. He was shorter than Jude. His dark brown hair messeduntidilyon his head, giving him that just-out-of-bed disheveledappearance. He licked his lips priortoerupting into a wide smile at Yon's statement. God, he also had a great smile. His dark eyebrows were thick over his eyes in the most endearingmanner, slanting at precisely the right angle. The stubble along his jawline was light but enough to conveytheimpressionof sharpness. Jude couldn't discern the color of his eyes from this far away, but he could see a beauty mark highon his cheekbone. "Hey, are you there?" Klaus asked with a laugh, and Jude turnedhis attention back to him.Jude noddeddistractedly. How long had he been staring at him?"What were you staring at?Whowere you staring at?" Klaus questioned, amusementevident in his voice.Jude panicked. He hadnottoldthemthispartabouthimself. It hadnot come up, and it wasnot like he could announcethat he was gay duringpractice and carry on as normal. Klaus caught a look at Yon and then at Jude."No one," Jude tried, but Klaus frowned. His eyes drifted back to Yon, and then his eyebrows rose. Jude started shaking his head."Holy fuck, Jud, I had no fucking idea," Klaus said with a grin."It's not—" Jude started to argue, his heart in his throat."It's not? You're literally drooling looking at that guy," Klaus said, leaningin a little and dropping his voice. Jude clamped his lips shut. "I wasn't—" he tried again.Latest chapter
Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most? CHAPTER 46
"Sorry," he called after her, as David laughed. "That is terrible. How do you ever do that politely?" he asked David, scratching the back of his neck."Not like that," said David, chuckling."Shit, this is so fucking awkward," complained Malachi, glancing around the room."Are you going to leave?" asked David.Malachi’s eyes were still scanning the crowd. “Not right now. Maybe it’ll get better.”The music was so loud, it was hard to listen…not that Jude was trying to. A girl pushed into Jude, and Jude apologized, the words barely audible over the pounding bass. David glanced back and noticed Jude, his eyebrows shooting up in surprise."I'll be destroyed at home worrying about them. At least here, I know it hasn't occurred yet," Malachi yelled back."Hi, Jude," David yelled.A flush crept up Jude's neck."Yeah, creepy. I know I'm being a creep," Malachi grumbled, still heading in the opposite direction, his shoulders slumping just a little.David glanced at Malachi and then back at Jud
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"Can't you just say hey back like a regular guy?"Chase Morgan"I don't know, King. Can you joke with me like a regular guy?"Why had Jude done this to himself?Me"Are you busy?"Chase Morgan"Is this a booty call? Aren't you in LA?"Me"Chase, I need to ask you something. I need you to be serious for a sec. Can you do that?"Chase Morgan"Sure, man. What's up?""Take us out at the next block," Malachi directed the driver, digging into his pocket to retrieve his money. He glanced at Jude and grinned as Jude's phone started vibrating for a third time.Chase Morgan"Don't leave me hanging after you got me to promise to be serious. You know it doesn't come naturally to me.""Right here is fine," Malachi said to the driver as the car stopped. He handed the driver the fare and slammed open the door.Jude trailed behind him.Me"Do you ever do molly?"Jude texted and watched Malachi."This way," he said, grabbing Jude's hand and pushing Jude through a group.Jude's phone rang again. Chase
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"I know, I'm out of time. And anyway, I don't want to see the aftermath of the fashion show," Holly said and laughed when Malachi threw something at her. "Bye, boys. Don't get too hung up on all the sex." She grabbed a couple of bags and blew a kiss in their direction before she walked away.Jude looked at Malachi."She's my best friend. Of course, I told her we had sex," he said nonchalantly.Holly laughed before the doors to the elevator closed."Malachi," Jude scolded."I didn't imply it was your first time, only ours. She actually thought it had happened years ago. It isn't a big thing," Malachi said defensively.Jude reasoned that did make it slightly better."So you're going to wear them?" He wagged his eyebrows at Jude and chewed on his lip."You're lucky you're cute," Jude grumbled, standing up from the couch."Aw, this is the first time you've ever said anything remotely like that to me."Jude cocked an eyebrow and he snorted back. Jude walked towards the bedroom."Where are
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Jude exhaled in relief."Thirty seconds," Malachi went on, "then I want you to pull out, okay? I'm going to get on top of you."Jude's eyebrows shot up. "Are you sure?""I'm sure." Malachi licked his lip and leaned up to kiss Jude. "That was the hardest part. I'm fine, I promise," he said to Jude.They stayed like that, kissing slowly until he pushed back against Jude's shoulders. Jude moved back, and they both groaned at the loss of contact. Jude rolled onto his side, supporting Jude's back on the pillows, and Malachi rode Jude, sitting on Jude's hips. He didn't sit, simply knelt over Jude, looking down. He looked amazing—rumpled hair, rosy face, lips glistening."Ready?"Jude couldn't tear his eyes away.Put your hands on my hips," he ordered.Jude placed them there, Jude's fingers tracing the lines of his skin. He smiled, reached behind him, and he grabbed Jude, holding Jude in place as he began to settle on top of Jude. He did not slow. Jude closed his eyes and let himself fall on
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He let out a gentle snort of laughter. "Don't be that way. I love that you want me so badly. It drives me wild when you don't let go," Malachi panted against Jude's cheek. "I never thought I could want anyone this much as I want you. I didn't think it was possible to ever feel this way. You have no idea how much I like that you like the way I look so much.""It's not the way you look.""I know that, Jud, but you're still a fool for my smile." His mouth curled up into that same crooked grin, and he kissed Jude's cheek. He wasn't wrong about that.Jude stroked his hands over the back of his own body, enjoying the sensation of heat spreading back up to his fingertips. Jude aligned his hips with Jude's, their bodies coming together in a smooth union."Let's go to your bed," Jude whispered, his voice barely audible against his ear."You don't want to play around on the couch?" he teased."I don't want to play around."He stiffened. Malachi's eyes collided with Jude's, looking for confirmat
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That hit a chord."Malachi put you there. You've been miserable for most of your college life because of Malachi. Malachi, the same guy you just flirted with in there. This is the same guy that dumped you by leaving a box of your stuff on his front porch.""I see, Klaus." Jude was definitely dwelling on his words."I'm telling you this to hurt you, Jud. You just have a tendency to ignore what's right in front of you with him. I don't want to see you get hurt again.""I know.""You can smile at whoever you want, Jud, including Malachi. Just don't fall for it again," he warned."He's not…" Jude stalled. "I'm not going to fall for him charming me. I'm not falling. I called him to let him go, but we're close again, and he was honest. It's nice to know that I mattered. That it wasn't that I was disposable to him. It's nice to know that he's still watching me. It doesn't mean I'm going to do anything about it.""It looked like you were. I bet Malachi is thinking the same thing about it at t
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