Novels by Clovervanessa

~Agathe~“Baby, mapapatawad mo rin ba ako?” Tanong ni Gunther sa aming anak nang medyo kumalma na siya. “Pasensya na kung nabigo akong maging ama sa’yo nitong nakaraang apat na taon. Pasensya na kung ilang ulit kitang tinangkang itaboy at itanggi, na hindi ko na mabilang.”“Naiintindihan ko po, Daddy. Lagi namang sinasabi ni Yennie sa’kin na nasasaktan ka lang dahil sa pagkawala ni Mommy.” Tumahimik kaming dalawa matapos iyon, pero nagpatuloy si Carlyle.“Mahal na mahal ko kayo, Mommy. Mahal na mahal ko rin kayo, Daddy. Pinapatawad ko na po kayong dalawa.” Sabi ni Carlyle, habang pinagdudugtong ang kamay ko at ni Gunther. “Please, Mommy, huwag mo na kaming iwan ulit. Huwag mo na kaming iwan ni Daddy. Kailangan ka namin ni Daddy dito. Kailangan ka namin.” Tumango ako sa kanya ng paulit-ulit sa kanya.Alam kong aabutin pa ng mahabang panahon bago niya ako lubusang mapatawad, pero handa pa rin akong gawin ang lahat para mabawi ang panahong nawala sa amin ni Gunther kasama si Carlyle.“Ma

~Agathe~[Present Time]Binuksan ko agad ang aking mga mata at napakunot ang aking noo nang makarinig ako ng kung anong ingay sa loob ng bahay. Tumigil ang mga alaala na umiikot sa aking isipan, pero wala na akong pakialam dahil bigla akong kinabahan.Parang may kaguluhan, at ang tanging mga taong naiwan sa loob ng bahay ay sina Graziella at Thaddeus.Agad akong tumayo at tumakbo papunta sa bahay, hindi man lang lumingon sa libingan ng aking mga magulang. Binuksan ko ang likurang pinto ng kusina at pumasok sa loob, desperadong hinahanap sina Graziella at Thaddeus.Paano kung sinundan kami ni Gunther at sinaktan sina Grazie at Thad dahil hindi niya ako makita sa loob ng bahay? “Grazie? Thad?”Napasinghap ako at parang hinugot ang kaluluwa ko sa aking katawan nang makita kong nag-aaway sina Gunther at Thaddeus sa sahig. Nanikip ang dibdib ko sa sakit nang mapansin kong puno ng pasa at galos ang gwapong mukha ni Gunther.“Nasaan ang asawa ko, Thaddeus!” Sinuntok ni Gunther si Thaddeus sa

~Agathe~Naalala ko ang aking pagkabata na puno ng galit na nakaukit sa puso ko.Kahit napapalibutan ako ng mabubuting tao, hindi ko kailanman nakalimutan ang pangako ko sa sarili noong ako’y limang taong gulang.[Flashback, five years ago]“Huli ka na naman, Miss Capucine.” Sabi ng aming guro sa Ingles pagkapasok ko sa silid-aralan.“Pasensya na po, Miss Kim.” Paghingi ko ng paumanhin bago umupo sa aking upuan. Binuksan ko ang aking aklat sa panitikan sa pahina singkuwenta’t tatlo gaya ng nakasulat sa pisara.Gaya ng inaasahan, nagsimula na namang magbulungan ang aking mga kaklase tungkol sa akin. “Naku. Hindi ko siya matiis. Nakakaawa siya. Pinapamukha niya na mumurahin ang ating nayon sa suot niyang mumurahing damit.”“Walang saysay ang ganda niya kung patay na rin naman ang tatay niya. Sino ba namang namamatay sa avalanche?” Sabay tawa ng lahat, at wala man lang ginawa si Miss Kim para pigilan sila.“Alam naman ng lahat na may sakit ang nanay mo at nagtatrabaho ka sa isang restawr

~Agathe~“Dapat maligo ka muna, Agathe, at magpalit ng malinis na damit.” Suhestiyon ni Graziella sa akin nang sa wakas ay makapasok kami sa bahay.Napasinghap ako at halos muling mapuno ng luha ang aking mga mata. Napakalinis at maayos ng lahat sa loob ng aking bahay.Tinapik ni Graziella ang aking likod. “Bumabalik ako rito araw-araw para maglinis at diligan ang mga halaman mo, umaasang kahit anong araw ay uuwi ka. Alam kong ilang linggo ka lang nawala, pero ang pag-iisip na baka hindi na kita muling makita ay labis na bumagabag sa akin.”Mabilis na isinuot ni Graziella ang sapatos sa aking mga paa. “Inisip ko na gusto mo munang bisitahin ang iyong ina at ama, kaya isuot mo ito. Diyos ko, ang lamig ng mga paa mo.”Pinunasan niya ang mga luhang bumagsak sa kanyang mga pisngi at muling tumayo. Inakay niya ako papunta sa kusina, kung saan naroon ang pinto patungong likuran ng bahay.Tahimik na sumusunod sa amin si Thaddeus habang binubuksan namin ang pinto papunta sa bakuran, at muling

~Agathe~Siguradong magbabago ang lahat ng dahil dito.Paano ko na haharapin si Carlyle ngayon na napatay ko ang sariling mga lolo’t lola niya?Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang agawin ni Graziella ang mga papel mula sa kamay ko at ibato pabalik sa kandungan ni Thaddeus.“Hindi na siya babalik sa mansyon na ‘yon. Idiretso mo kami sa Snowflake Village, Silvestri. Itatago ko siya para walang makasakit kay Agathe ulit.”Isang luha ang pumatak mula sa mata ko hanggang sa hindi ko na mapigilan. Bigla na lang akong napaiyak nang todo at tuluyang bumigay.Paano ito nangyari? Paano ko naging anak si Carlyle?Paano nagkaroon ng ganoong ka-cute at kaakit-akit na bata mula sa akin?Paano niya ako mapapatawad ngayon na posibleng nakita niya na ako ang pumatay sa sarili niyang mga lolo’t lola?“Grazie, anak ko si Carlyle.” Sabi ko na may bahid ng kaligayahan sa boses ko. Pero, alam kong ramdam din nila ang matinding pighati sa kaibuturan ko.Humarap si Graziella mula sa passenger’s seat at tumingin sa

~Agathe~Namangha ako nang bigyan ako ni Yesenia ng isang kakaibang tingin. May bahid ng pagkadismaya sa kanyang mga mata.Parang gumuho ang puso ko nang makita ko ang tingin niyang iyon.Inasahan kong siya ang unang makakaunawa na wala akong intensyon na mangyari ang lahat ng ito.Akala ko pa nga, ipagtatanggol niya ako at aakuin niya na magiging maayos din ang lahat.“Arghhh. .” May narinig akong umuungol sa likuran ko at nang lumingon ako, nakita ko si Calixto na dahan-dahang umuupo.Nakapikit pa rin ang mga mata niya habang maingat na hinahawakan ang likod ng kanyang ulo, kahit na bahagya pa rin itong dumudugo. Gustong-gusto kong ipakita ang pasasalamat ko na nagising siya, at gusto ko ring tanungin kung ayos lang ba ang pakiramdam niya.Ngunit nang ibinalik ko ang atensyon ko kay Gunther, napansin kong hindi man lang gumalaw ang tingin niya. Patuloy niya akong tinititigan gamit ang mas malamig pang mga mata.Pakiramdam ko, biglang bumaliktad ang mundo ko. Ayokong nang mabuhay pa

All's well that ends well. A knock on the door made Zoey and Dionysus move away from embracing each other. Dionysus wiped Zoey's cheeks gently and smiled. "I love you." Zoey beamed widely. "I love you, too." Zoey hit her husband's shoulders. "But, I hate you, too." Dionysus' forehead creased. "Why, baby? Did I do something wrong?" Shawn and Sebastian materialized beside Dionysus. "I have the results of her tests, Dionysus. And, I want to. ." Dionysus held his hand up in the air to stop Dr. Sprouse for the time being. "What is it, baby? Come on. Tell me." Zoey frowned and looked at the two gentlemen standing on the side. "I. . I forgot, Dio. Just don't mind me." Dionysus smirked. "Then, no one's moving and going away until you tell me why the bloody hell you hate me?" Dr. Sprouse looked down at his wristwatch. "I don't think I can play along with your lover's quarrel, Dionysus. I have surgery to perform fifteen minutes from now." "Did you hear that, baby? So, come on. Tel

Against all odds and against all obstacles, when two people are meant to be together, they will unequivocally make it to the end. "Mr. Chevalier. Should I order something for dinner?" Zoey asked because it was already past seven in the evening and they were still at the office, working. It has been over a week ever since Zoey had known the truth, that she was indeed Dionysus Zephyr Chevalier's wife. But, she hasn't confronted nor asked anyone about it.She wanted to recollect all of her memories first before anything else. So far, some memories had resurfaced to her like the one from the elevators but not all of it. Zoey wanted to remember everything, detail by detail. So, Zoey continued pretending for a whole week that she still doesn't know what her real relationship with her boss is. So, does Dionysus. Her boss continued treating her as a mere secretary as well."Ohh, damn. I didn't realize it was so late already. I have so much work to do." Dionysus closed his eyes, massaged his

There are three things that cannot be hidden for so long. The sun, the moon and the truth. Zoey kept glancing back at Dionysus. She had been sitting on her new desk but her new boss won't give her anything to do. It was her first day so she expected some things to be a little hectic.Dionysus could utterly feel his wife's lingering gaze over him. But, he tried to ignore it all because he might do something shocking to Zoey. He had missed Zoey so much and all he fancied to do right now was to hug her, snuggle close to her body and shower her kisses.Yet, he can't do all those things because Zoey might have another panic attack. And, that was the last thing he wanted to happen. Dionysus was just pretending to type something on his laptops because he didn't really program himself to work on that particular Saturday."Mr. Chevalier?" Dionysus felt his heartbeat had gone much louder inside his chest after hearing Zoey's soft voice. He didn't realize that his wife was already standing in f

And, at the end, she still found her way back to him. "Breaking news: Cronus Chevalier and Gaia Chevalier were found kneeling in front of the New York Police Department early this morning. The Chevalier couple whose chain of businesses went bankrupt more than a year ago confessed to a horrendous crime involving the murder of one of the richest tycoon in New York, Hermes Chevalier. Cronus and Gaia Chevalier told the police that it was them who ordered someone to kill the old Chevalier and frame their own son for their own crimes. Several evidences about their confession to the murder were also sent to all the computers of every police of the N.Y.P.D. When asked about who was the assassin they had ordered to kill Hermes Chevalier, the couple only said that they had already killed him."Dionysus was watching the news in the comfort of his own bed, still wanting to sleep some more but the news had him all awakened. Sebastian and his men had already done their job. Flashback, more than t

We all know that God's plan is always the best even though sometimes, the whole process was very painful and hard to endure. A painful tear fell from Dionysus' eyes. He tried moving an inch towards Zoey but Zoey's screams intensified more. "No! No! Don't come near me! No!" Dionysus' voice broke. Never in his wildest dreams did he imagine that Zoey would look at him the very same way she was looking at him at that jiffy. "Baby. . it's me. Please. I missed you so much." "No! No! Mommy! He's going to hurt me!" Zoey was uncontrollable."Why won't I hurt you, Zoey? I'm your husband. I love you so much." "Argh!" Zoey screamed at the top of her lungs, Zara and Zamantha were too shocked to react on the corner. Mrs. Zenaida Lavigne cannot even hold her own daughter in place anymore. Zoey kept trashing the pillows behind her and even throwing one to Dionysus' direction. Dionysus looked so hurt even though the pillow thrown was just soft and actually weighs nothing. "Go away!" Zamantha star

Our brain is the body's most complex organ. Because even if we do own it, it still has the absolute power to control what will happen next in our lives. Dionysus and some of Apollo's men had helped each other to uplift the stretcher containing the unconscious body of Zoey into the humongous military helicopter. Afterwards, Apollo faced Zamantha and Mrs. Zenaida Lavigne. "You can both come with us here. The helicopter is large enough for all of us." Zamantha and Mrs. Zenaida Lavigne nodded without hesitation even though both of them weren't actually sure who the bloody hell was Apollo. No one was still introducing him to them. Apollo even offered his hands to Zamantha and Mrs. Zenaida Lavigne to help them climb the stairs of the military helicopter.Afterwards, Apollo turned to Dionysus and smirked at him. "You owe me for this one, little brother." "Then, Zoey has to live first." Dionysus clenched his jaw and climbed the helicopter next. While Apollo hopped inside the seat beside th

~Agathe~“Baby, can you forgive me too?” Gunther asked our daughter when she had calmed down a little. “I’m so sorry for failing to be your father for the past four years. I’m so sorry that I tried to push you away and rejected you so many times that I lost count.”“I understand, Daddy. Yennie would always tell me that you were just hurting because of Mommy's disappearance.” We were both silent after that, but Carlyle went on.“I love you so much, mommy. I love you so much, daddy. I forgive both of you.” Carlyle told us, intertwining her hands with mine and Gunther's. “Please, mommy, don't ever leave us again. Don't ever leave me and Daddy again. Daddy and I need you here. We need you.” I nodded at her.I know it will take her a lifetime to truly forgive me, but I am still willing to do anything just to make up for the time I spent without her and Gunther.“I love you so much, too, my sweetheart.” When Gunther's gaze met mine, I whispered to him as well. “I love you so much, too, Gunt

~Agathe~[Present Time]I opened my eyes in haste and furrowed my eyebrows when I heard something inside the house. The flashbacks playing in my mind had stopped but I couldn't care less since I suddenly got worried.The sound seemed to be a commotion, and the only people left inside the house were Graziella and Thaddeus.I quickly stood up and ran towards the house, not looking back at my parents’ graves. I opened the kitchen’s backdoor and entered the house, desperately searching for Graziella and Thaddeus.What if Gunther had followed us and hurt Grazie and Thad because he couldn't find me inside the house? “Grazie? Thad?”I gasped and felt as if my soul had been ripped away from my body when I noticed Gunther and Thaddeus brawling on the floor. My heart tightened in pain when I also noticed Gunther's handsome face was covered in bruises and scratches.“Where is my wife, Thaddeus!” Gunther punched Thaddeus in the face, sending him flying into the wooden coffee table.The coffee tab

~Agathe~I remembered growing up with a lot of hatred engraved in my heart.Despite being surrounded by good people, I never forgot the promise I made to myself when I was five years old.[Flashback, five years ago]“You're late again, Miss Capucine.” Our English teacher said as soon as I entered the classroom.“I'm sorry, Miss Kim.” I apologized and went to my seat. I opened my literature book to page fifty three as instructed on the board.As expected, my classmates began whispering about me. “Goodness. I cannot stand her. She is so pitiful. She makes our village look cheap with her cheap clothes.”“Her beauty means nothing if his father is already dead. Who dies in an avalanche anyway?” Then everyone laughed, and Miss Kim did nothing to stop them.“Everyone knows you have a sick mother and work in a restaurant. But, do you really have to be late to my class every day, Miss Capucine?” Miss Kim replied angrily to me, her nostrils flaring.“I'm sorry.” That was all I could say again.

~Agathe~“You should take a shower first, Agathe, and change into clean clothes.” Graziella reminded me as we finally entered the house.I gasped, and tears nearly welled up in my eyes again. Everything inside my house was immaculately clean and organized.Graziella patted my back. “I come back here every day to clean and water your plants, hoping that one day you will return home. I know you were only gone for a few weeks, but the thought of not seeing you again tormented me.”Graziella quickly put some shoes on my feet. “I figured you would want to visit your mother and father first, so you should wear these. God, your feet are so cold.”She wiped away the tears that had fallen down her cheeks and stood up again. She guided me to the kitchen, where the backyard door is located.Thaddeus was quietly following behind us as we opened the door to the backyard, and my mouth opened wide in amazement once more.“How on earth. .” That was all I could say as I stared at everything in front o

~Agathe~This definitely changes everything.How am I going to look at Carlyle now that I have killed her own grandparents?I was shocked when Graziella snatched the papers from my hand and threw them back on Thaddeus’ lap.“She is not going back to that mansion. Drive us straight to Snowflake Village, Silvestri. I'm going to hide her so that no one can hurt Agathe again.”A tear fell from my eye until I could no longer stop it. I suddenly burst into tears and broke down.How is this possible? How did Carlyle become my daughter?How did someone so cute and adorable come out of me?How will she forgive me now that there's a possibility she saw me unaliving her own grandparents?“Grazie. Carlyle is my daughter.” I said with a hint of happiness in my voice. But, I know they can sense the utter devastation deep inside me as well.Graziella adjusted her body to stare at me from the passenger’s seat, and her eyes welled up with tears as she spoke to me.“I know, pookie. And, I am really sor

~Agathe~I was astonished when Yesenia gave me a weird look. Her eyes reflected a faint hint of disappointment.My heart fell when she gave me that look.I expected her to be the first person to understand that I did not intend for any of this to happen.I thought she would defend me and assure me that everything would be fine.“Arghhh. .” I heard someone groan behind me and when I glanced, I saw Calixto slowly sitting up.His eyes remained closed as he gently held the back of his head, even though it was still bleeding a bit. I wanted so badly to show how grateful I was that he woke up and even wanted to ask him if he was feeling alright.However, as I turned my attention back to Gunther, I noticed that his gaze never wavered. He continued to look at me with the same, even colder eyes.I felt like my whole world had turned upside down. I do not want to live any longer after everything I am experiencing right now.My eyes widened when he tried to take a step toward me while still hold