Germany, I'm coming.
Finally, I will see the outside world as my dream.
All documents required for traveling abroad have been completed within three days. All Gerald takes care of it, I sit and be photographed.
My mother still wouldn't let go, but I was stubborn and determined to go. I don't want to intend to live in the neighborhood where I live. I feel uncomfortable. Mother was angry and still didn't want to take me to the airport. Mother knows how suffering I was when Gerald left. Mother should be able to let go of me. Sometimes, I don't understand the way my mother thinks.
Finally, my brother delivered. My tears fall. I will miss my mother and brother.
I hugged Aldo while crying. He felt uncomfortable hugging him. That bastarppd didn't hug me back, even though I had already imagined a choking separation. With Aldo calling because he let me go.
"Can you let go? I can't breath
“Mom-”“Yes?” my tears are pouring out.“I miss you.”“Me also misses you. Take good care of yourself. Take care of your health, take care of the baby's.” my tears are getting heavier. I miss my mom. And always, this message is what Mother delivers. Yes, Mother of Attention. But I feel like my mom doesn't believe in me. I can take care of myself. I'm an adult, have become a wife and mom to be. Why my mom have to be afraid? I can be responsible for myself.“Yes, mom. Mom, please don't be sad. I can take care of myself here.” I replied, convincing mother.“Yes, I'm not sad. I was worried, you're in a distant place.” Even though mom said no, I know she is so sad right now.“Later some time, you can go a walk here. It's winter, mom.” I grind my teeth. I was so tacky, and I was freezing. Even though I used the heating, I had to hug Gerald's naked body, so I didn't become hypothermia. And I also have to use lip balm,
Gerald's girlfriend.How am I missing something here? I glance a kill for Gerald to confirm this.“I'm sorry, Ale. Rara is my wife.” Gerald tried to calm down from the already heated state. This can't be tolerated. How could this bastard, this jerk play on my back? Plus, this miserable girl confidently admits she is Gerald's girlfriend.“Wife? Really? Are you fucking kidding me again?” shrieked the blonde.“Yeah, I just want you to introduce my beautiful woman in the world.”“Bullshit!” I scream and throw remote to Gerald. The remote hit Gerald in the face, and he caught the remote, before everything started.“I'm sorry, Ale. Wait me here.”Gerald, follows me to the bedroom. Tears reach my cheek. It's warm. It's so hurt. Why does Gerald always hurt me? Can't it, it suppresses my ego and makes my heart flower for a second? This jerk and all his egos. Fuck you all!
The chill began to spread throughout my body, where I felt my body shivered.Where is my natural warmth? I fumbled, and I felt empty.I quickly opened my eyes. Gerald was gone. I reached for the cellphone and checked the clock. Gosh, it's 9 o'clock, no wonder my husband has left. I should have gotten up first and prepared him breakfast.Lazily, I go to the kitchen. My stomach is rumbling. Lately, I feel hungry fast.I make cereal and milk. My cell phone vibrates.Gerald Handsome: I've made an appointment for check up today. Get ready at 10 I pick you.I read the message and hurried to take a shower. But the chill still attacked me. I don't want to take a shower. Finally, I chose to wash my face and brush my teeth.And I just realized I don't have winter clothes, I don't have a cozy warm sweater. I have to borrow Gerald's coat. And I can't perhaps wear a dress because we will
I want to make fun on Gerald. I don't have a stomachache. But I'm just tired, not in the mood to serve him right now. But I suddenly felt guilty after seeing him panic. I Always, acting stupid, that makes us both hurt."Pain? Why? Cramp?" Gerald asked in a panic.I shook my head. "I don't know it's sick. Let me rest, you can go to college." I said in a weak voice, to be sure. But guilt keeps hitting me."I can't, I was worried something bad happen to you. Like last night." Gerald brushed his hair, and his face was terrified."It's okay, thereafter if I get sick or whatever, I'll just call. But you have to move quickly, okay?" I held my stomach."Yes, sorry for making you sick." Gerald said with a worried expression. He kissed my forehead for a long time, damn it!. Yet if our husband asks us to refuse, it will be a severe sin, how bad I'm. Mostly like me, who made him dizzy. I'm currently pregnant. I shouldn't be like this. I bit my lower lip, holding ba
My body is stiff. Shit! I fell asleep on the table. Even if it's just my head, hope my baby not be in pain. My sleeping position is just sitting on a chair, from night until again, with my head on the table. What a strange sleeping position, and I wasn't conscious at all, even though I fell asleep sitting up.I also don't know what time it is. Stiff neck, cramped hands, and feet. By restoring my body system. I headed for the room, and the most beautiful view greeted me. I looked for a cellphone and just remembered, all night I didn't pull out my cellphone. Luckily it didn't explode.By yawning and feeling my back and neck all hurt. To move a little, it hurts a lot. I sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the surroundings. Why was my sleep so wholly and soundly unconscious? I see the clock on the cellphone screen. It's at 9 o'clock. I slept for a long time. It seems now I continuously wake up at 9. It's okay. Pregnant women are like this.And Gerald disappeared. He
My whole body was crushed. After the Telletubies hugs we're ended up being stripped naked."You're still the best." Gerald whispered. My body is too weak. So I just hugged my favorite bare chest and let our sweat melt away.Wait a minute, and Gerald had no signs of going to campus."Aren't you going to campus?" I lifted my head and looked at Gerald, who closed his eyes; he was also exhausted."No!""Why?""Why?" asked Gerald back. He's always annoying."Ewhh ... I was pay attention to you." I pinched his stomach—he's annoying humans!"I'd rather have you attention caressed.""You just caressed.""Less.""Askjhsksjklss." I swear with all the harsh words that are only stored in my brain, I do not dare to speak out rather than ending up fighting, I better hold myself back."I don't under
Oma offers to stay overnight. But I refuse, I'm reluctant if tomorrow morning I wake up late. The culture of the people here doesn't matter to wake up late, or whatever they called. According to my mother's upbringing, I have to have more respect for my host. I'm afraid to wake up late because lately I always wake up late. Fianlly, we went home too because I forced Gerald to come home."Tomorrow is the weekend. Where are you going for weekend?" Gerald bargained."I don't know. What I need now, go home and sleep. I'm really tired." After being full, I said weakly I needed a mattress and lay my head on the soft pillow."Okay, go sleep." I closed my eyes. It felt like I could no longer hold back my sleepiness. I shouldn't have been stubborn and just stayed at Grandma's house. I was asleep, but vaguely, I heard a voice speaking. It was Gerald's voice, who was he talking to?"I'm sorry you don't have to call me now. I'm with my wife now." Gerald is on the phon
I'm calling my mother.Gerald? Go to college, of course, I started to carry out activities that I felt like a long time—bored because I'm the kind of boredom. Just excited at the beginning and getting here, slowly, everything fades away. Hopefully, for husband doesn't feel bored."Mother, Rara has checked with the doctor.""So how's it going?""It's a girl. Rara will have a beautiful baby girl." I smile. I wanted to jump up and down but realized that I was already pregnant, was old, and was about to become a mother."Okay, take care of yourself. Don't stress.""Yes mother. I think my weight has increased, I always hungry.""That's how pregnant women are.""But I'm happy. Even though the food is strange and foreign, I always eats it.""Good, I'm worried you can't eat there. And just want to eat rice." I giggled. Initially, I was worried about this problem, was fussy about food