I lay by the window, watching the droplets hit the ground with the ticking sound. I stand to my feet and push the lid open letting my hands stretched out allowing the cold droplets of rain wash me.
"You really think i should do it? "i ask lying back down and watch the water wash over the green yard. "she said she'll pay, but i don't think i want to be anywhere near him "
"Babe you're still going to have to face him one way or the other, if he wants to get to you he will no matter what way it would be, you rather just do it while making something out of it "Ali says that last line in a duh tone over the phone, i can imagine her flipping her platinum hair.
I gave a frustrated sigh "i don't know ".
"Think about it Lex, you need this, besides its worth more than you were earning in that bar to be honest. " that's true, but i know Ali doesn't really care about that. She cares about me that's certain, but she's never really butted in my business before and if I'd ever called her for advice on anything -not that i ever really do -she'll simply say something like 'go do what you gotta do girl, leave me out of this ' a bit rude if you ask, but i know she means well. I think she just see's this as a great opportunity to get closer to Finn... or not, you can never know, it's just really weird having her try to talk me into doing something and making sense.
"I think it's going to rain heavy tonight " i state staring out the window watching as the friction of the purring rain droplets increases.
"Yeah, "i hear shuffling on the other line before she speaks up again "look babe, i gotta go, talk later "
"Bye "
"Oh, and tell Kyle i said to better take care of my baby " i roll my eyes. Her baby as she referred it to, is her white Mercedes that she lended Kyle to use in getting home today since her house isn't that far from school and Kyle's had ran out of gas just before he could even take it out of the driveway. I swear Kyle had literally cried about how he couldn't leave his precious Ben in hands of the creepy janitors and school security, and how he might get stolen. It look twenty horrifying minutes to convince him that nothing was going to happen to his really expensive Porsche or as he put it buddy. And it took me even longer to convince Ali into letting us use her ride without getting a single scratch on it. But not without the excessive whining about having to walk ten minutes in heals.
"Tell him yourself" i could practically see her exaggerative eye roll and hair flip.
"Bye Lexa "she says and kills the line.
Hearing the low grumble coming from my stomach, i walk out of my room to find something to eat. I guess a slice of peanut butter sandwich isn't enough to feed a girl.
The closer i get to the kitchen the more audible the voice is. I'm usually the only one at the house at this time, or even always but then i pick up the sound of a female voice and i already think i know who it is.
"is it done? "there's a pause "remember to be careful Mr Jerome ,if any of this goes down it would not be good, especially for you " another pause "good "
My suspicion is confirmed when i stop right beside the kitchen door. Standing with her back to me and phone held to her ears her voice goes softer making it harder to make out what she's saying. I clear my throat dragging her attention, and the moment her eyes land on me, she looks a bit shocked "good bye Mr Jerome, we would discuss this at the office tomorrow " with that she ends the call and her full attention is now on me accompanied with a bright smile as she greets me with what is supposed to be a soothing voice "Alexa! "
I have to admit, she's beautiful. Her perfectly curled strawberry blonde hair stopping mid back around her smallish frame, expensive looking designer dress and pumps giving her the classy business like look but the intense depths of blue of her eyes scream 'innocent devil '
"Its good to see you " well, i can't say the same for you. "I'm Brittany, we've met before on rather bad terms i suppose " you can say that again. I remember coming home that night to a very disturbing scene in the living room between her and a certain someone.
I remember getting really mad that night just a few months ago. I knew Andrew had many bimbo's and slept around a lot, but he had never brought anyone home before. No matter how badly he had treated myself and mum, he had respected their marriage enough not to bring any of his one nighters home and when i saw them trying to pull away at the sight of me, i got really angry. I wanted to kill him. I swear if i had some sort of weapon around me at the time I'll probably be in jail right now for committing murder.
But i didn't do any of that. I simply went quiet and avoided him just like I'd been doing all my life, only i exploded in my room a few minutes later with a massive amount of tears and a massive amount of cash i spent fixing up the room I'd trashed.
With those disturbing memories, I suddenly remember how much i despise her and I'm sure the disgusted look on my face says a lot but she doesn't give away anything but continues to smile at me.
Not wanting to be here any longer, i push past her and move over to the fridge to find something to eat, but just as i thought, it's completely empty, except for the many bottles of water and few cans of milk. I internally groan.
"Andrew went up to shower, he should be here in a few minutes, would you like to eat with us? "she asks "i would have originally ordered Chinese takeouts but with the heavy rain pouring outside i didn't think a delivery would be possible so i made dinner. "
"Thanks but I'll pass " i say dryly, about to make my way out of the door when my stomach makes the most embarrassing sound.
"Are you sure about that? "she asks smugly, an amused expression on her face.
"Yeah I'm fine " I'm just about to walk away again when i stop in front of Andrew, a small smile on his lips as he looks at me through dark eyes and little droplets of water hanging beside his face.
"You should stay Lexa " Lexa? This is the first time he ever called me by my first nick name. "I'm sure you are starving "
I am, but I'm not going to admit that. Right now, i just want to walk away and sleep my hunger till the next morning after the rain has stopped. "no, I'm good "
He raises an eyebrow and for the third time tonight my stomach makes the same embarrassing sound again, expressing her disagreement with my decision. So i give in, turn around without a word to anyone and take a sit on one of the chairs by the kitchen slab that looks more like a dinning for a middle family.
I hear him release a small sigh before taking the sit opposite me.
Well, this is going to be a long dinner.
Dinner isn't going well at all. I feel uncomfortable with two burning gazes on me, one a deep shade of mesmerizing blue and the other, the darkest of browns. I force myself to force food in my mouth that are surprisingly really good but don't feel as good because of the intensity of the situation.They'd been trying to get me to say something, pulling small talks here and there but so far nothing is working, i just continue to ignore them completely increasing my pace so i can go back to my room and study a little before retreating for the night."We are getting married "Brittany finally blurted.I freeze.Slowly lifting eyes to look up at the woman who said those words, i find her staring at me intently gagging my reaction and Andrew sending daggers to the side of head with his eyes. "what did you say?"
"What do you want? " i say ripping open a pack of gummy bears and popping it into my mouth."How do you feel? "he takes me by surprise."Do you really want to know? ""Yes " he looks really serious, no falter in his expression what so ever.I sit up, staring him straight in the eye. "like you're a piece of shit "He sighs and his eyes soften into something a little sad. He walks closer to me and takes a sit on my little love seat by the corner. "it bothers you ""Surprise, surprise ""I know i haven't been the father you probably wanted -""Shocking! "i fake surprise with my eyes wide."-But i want to make up for it " he goes on, ignoring my childish comment. "i didn't start off on the right foot, and I've probably hurt you
There are the moments when you feel like something beautiful is right ahead of you, maybe physically, maybe mentally, maybe emotionally or maybe even in your subconscious. Right now for me it was the latter.I don't know why but my lips are stretched into a blissful smile and I'm not even fully awake yet. My eyes are still closed and I'm still in that sleepy haze between wonder land and real life. Maybe it's because of the extremely soft duvet I'm hugging tightly to myself, or it's because of the sweet smell of vanilla and mint surrounding me, or even because of the comfortable heat pressed against my back."I know you are awake lex, you can open your eyes now " his voice husky and low behind my ear.I smile even wider opening my eyes and turn so I'm facing him. "hey ""Morning, " he grins down at me, prompting his head on his palm with his elbow resting
I didn't realize how cold I was before until i stepped into the steaming water. All my senses and tense muscles relax. A small sigh of glee escapes my lips and i dip my body further into the tub.I don't know how long i spent inside the tub but by the time i feel my skin start to wrinkle, i get out, letting the soapy water drain and rinse my body with hot running water. I rap my body with Kyle's extra towel, leaving the bathroom with the sweet smell of his vanilla and mint shampoo.
We are currently walking hand in hand in the woods, a few miles out of town. Kyle said he wanted me to let loose so he got me out of the house toi have no idea where we are,inside the woods and i can feel the sound of breaking branches under my foot as we pass, making me hold on tighter to his hands in anxiety. Places like this tend to make me feel like my life is in danger and some sort of beast is going to pop up and eat us alive.
"Are you done staring? "Kyle turns back to face me with a teasing smirk on his pretty face as he tosses his shirt to the ground leaving his well sculpted chest down to the v of his pants on display. "i know I'm gorgeous and all, but if you keep staring at me like that babe i might have to do something about it " he winks.I turn away with an eye roll cursing myself for getting caught.
I love you in more ways than you know.Kyle's words keep repeating themselves in my head. I know he cares deeply about me, we've exchanged i love yous more times than i can remember. But this time, this seems different. The way he said it, the way he looked at me when the words fell off his lips, i can't describe it. I'm probably just reading too much into it but i just have a weird feeling that i can't describe.
Everyone has a day they wake up hating on the world, anything and anyone around them. A mood that could make you feel really irritated by the sight of anything, including the things that you love so much and you might end up breaking your favorite mug. Or swapping laces of your Best friends snicker collection.It could be a bad hair day. it could be a whipped snob obsessing over the boy that broke her heart. It could be a stupid hate love battle with your thoughts caused by the thing called puberty that people usua