Chapter 05

ELENA

Alessandro and I were staring at each other, and the only thing that kept crossing my mind was the day he rejected me. I had stood there bold, trying every possible best to conceal the pain so I wouldn't look weak.

There was tears at the brim of my eyes, but it was one anyone would hardly notice, and then I sniffled turning back to face Mia. I couldn't be here because it was so hard enough facing Alessandro already.

My heart was beating so fast, but this made my stomach churn in irritation. I had liked Alessandro for so many years, and even till now, denying that feel ok was impossible, but I still had to try hard because now, he was married to my sister

"Mia, I have to leave. I can't be here and you know why?"

Mia held my hands, telling me not to leave because we still had so much to talk about, but then I wasn't ready to stay back and continued staring at Alessandro face. Even his face brings back the memories of the baby that I had lost, not only his rejection.

"We can catch up some other time, or I'll call you to come over when I find a place to settle down."

"Elena, why don't you go back to the pack house. I'm worried about you, and you have no where to go tonight. It's dangerous out there at night in the blood crest pack, so please."

Dangerous or not, I still had no intention of staying here and even crossing path with Alessandro mistakenly. I squeezed her hands in mine,

"I'm sorry, I just have to leave. I can't be here no matter no much you try to convince me. Just try and understand me, Mia"

I was thankful when Mia nodded her head in agreement. "Alright, just call me tomorrow morning, wherever you are and I'll come to you."

I smiled at her, and was finally ready to leave. As I turned, Alessandro was still standing in his spot, and he was still staring at me. I couldn't help but stare back at him for a few seconds before returning to my senses. "Thanks." I told Mia and began to walk away. As I walk past him, the hairs around my skin told me deep down that close contact with Alessandro still had a great effect on me, and then I heard Jane speak,

"He's still our mate, Elena."

"I don't care if he's still out mate or not, we're done, and he's married to my sister now. I'm sorry Jane, but there's nothing I can do to help."

She howled inside of me. Normally, when wolves finds out about their mate and they still have that connection, it's hard to let go, "Promise me you'll find someone better." But Jane, she was different from every other wolf, and maybe that's was the reason I loved her so much. It was hard enough that I had not rejected the mate bond two years ago so I could free Jane from that connection, but she's still willing to give up her mate for my happiness.

I regret it. I should have accepted the rejection like Jane had suggested, but I didn't.

I walked past the gate, and continued to head down the long and lonely street without even being aware of where I was heading to. I knew I couldn't stay back here. Everything inside of me was screaming for me to go back to where I came from. There was nothing here for me anymore, and I knew deep down that of I stayed here, the mate bond between Alessandro and I would inly become stronger and very soon, a part of me would ignore the fact that Mia's married to him

I didn't want that for myself, and neither did I want that for my sister.

The loud honking sounds of cars brought me back to reality. "Are you crazy? Get the hell out of the road you crazy woman!" I fluttered my brows, and then realized I was standing in the middle of the road.

"If you wanna get yourself killed, them why don't you find another means to do so." The right right beside me yelled. "I'm so sorry." I had to hurry out of the road in confusion, and when I successfully got to the other side, I took a deep breath in and out and finally broke down in tears.

It was fucking hurting even more than I had expected it to hurt. I hit my chest hard, cursing the very first day I set my eyes on Alessandro and fell madly in love with him. That night, I shouldn't have left. I shouldn't have tried to act so stubborn and want to be free, and mist importantly, I should have stuck with Damian.

The fact that I had lost everything in one night and still living in the pains of two years ago was crazy.

I continued to stare into thin air, and when I was tired of staring, I decided to go back. This place wasn't just meant for me or I wasn't just meant to be here. I've been broken way too much to continue my life here, and I just wanted to let everything go. Within me, I made a promise never to return here.

As long as Alessandro was here, and as long as I had destroyed my reputation here, and I had also cost my dad and my pack a lot in the past, I have no place here.

A cab stopped right in front of me. "Are you going?""

I stared at it for a few seconds, contemplating if my decision was right or not. Was I really making the right decision. Damian still believes I have a life here, but I don't anymore. I sniffled, "I'm sorry" I whispered. I was sorry to my sister because I wouldn't be there to watch her become successful. To watch her take over the family's business and to watch her make the pack proud. I always wanted this for Mia, seeing that she was always the ambitious one unlike me who always wanted to be free from father's rules and regulations

It just had to be at the expense of my dignity, my pride, and the love and trust of my father and pack

"Yes. Yea I am." I replied, and sniffled once again, then I got into the cab.

"I'd like to go to the nearest train station"

I was going to leave by train because I was scared Damian would try to find me. I wanted to live far away from everyone in my past. "Don't cry, Elena. We'll be fine." Jane told me. "We will." I replied inwardly.

We suddenly passed the train station, and I was wondering why the cab didn't stop. "Excuse me, but you just passed my stop." I said, trying to call his attention. A little afterwards, I began to feel weak. I could perceive something so weird and as it passed through my nostrils, it only made me weaker. "Where are you taking me to" I managed to say. I tried unlocking the door, but they were locked, and there was no strength in me to scream.

A few minutes later, my vision became blurry, and I weakly rested my head on the seat.

"H...help me. I don't wanna die." I whispered weakly, and shut my eyes afterwards